At the Monday CKRM 'Coconut Shake' Fellowship (23rd July 2012), Malacca, the presence of the Lord came upon Rev Dr Joyce Tai like the wrapping of a blanket and the prophetic utterance of the Spirit of the Lord said,

"CKRM is a ministry that carries My Name and My Glory and it is a ministry that will fulfil My purposes. Therefore, in My zeal I have defended this ministry and I will continue to defend her and see to it that all My purposes concerning her will be accomplished. Do not be moved or shaken by the offenses created by men for My consuming fire is going to take care of their mocking and belittling tongues. Only continue to humble yourself under My mighty hand and in due time I will exalt you, says the Spirit of the Lord."
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Pastor's Footnote:
Rev. Dr. Joyce Tai was called with a tremendous burden and vision for revival even when she was studying in a university overseas. After graduating with a degree in Computer Science from Monash University, Melbourne, she responded to the call of the Lord and pursued her theological training in China Graduate School of Theology, Hong Kong. She has also earned a Doctorate degree in Ministry from the Asia Pacific Seminary.

She has been in the full-time ministry since 1986. She served as a pastor in two different denominations in West and East Malaysia before she began to involve in the itinerant ministry together with her husband in 1995. They founded the Fountain of Life Assembly (member of NECF), Nilai which is an apostolic-prophetic base in 1999. She is also the president of Greater Things, a revival ministry to the body of Christ.

She has a vast experience of teaching and preaching in Bible Colleges, Training Centers, retreats, seminars, revival meetings and conferences. She resides in Putra Nilai with her husband Rev. Dr. Joseph Tai and their son, Joe.)

Author of "More, Lord!--A practical guide to understanding and experiencing the signs and wonders of the Holy Spirit," the Lord has put a burden and love on her to write a book for me "The Arsenal of Fire - My Spiritual Journey." The book is scheduled to be released by end of 2012.

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一句鼓励的话

在周一马六甲CKRM（基督国度崇高掌权）的摇摇椰子团契会上（2012年7月23日）主的同在有如毯子被包装式降临在李悦怡牧师身上，耶和华的话通过预言之灵，释放出：

“主耶和华的灵如此说：“CKRM ”：一个拥戴我的名字和我荣耀的事工，这是一个完全履行我目的的事工，因此，我的热情在捍卫这事工，并将继续为她辩护，而且人要看到，所有关于她的目的都要给成就。不要被任何人为的罪行敌挡的势力动摇或晃动。要知道我的烈火会照顾他们的嘲笑和贬低的舌头。只要不断地谦卑自己在“我的大能的手下，在适当的时候，我要尊崇你.“

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牧师的注脚：

李悦怡牧师，就是圣灵彰显的神迹奇事的作者。当她还在海外留学 时，神的呼召就临到她，并把对复兴有一个巨大的负担和远见放在她心中，当她取得学位毕业后（澳洲墨尔本莫纳什大学的电脑科学）她回应主的号召，就到香港中国神学研究院追求她的神学训练，接受神学装备，还获得来自亚洲太平洋学院的博士学位。

从1986 开始就全职事奉。曾担任马来西亚西部和东部，两间不同的宗派教会当过牧职直到 1995. 过后与她夫婿一齐为巡迴牧师。她与夫婿戴德辉牧师一起开创了生命泉源教会和展翅事奉学校，这是一个使徒先知性的教会（FOLA是一个NECF的成员）地点在汝来。她也是更大的事复兴事工的创办人，她的服事有神迹奇事，医治，释放和圣灵的恩赐随着。
她具有丰富的教导和传讲神学的经验，包括在圣经学院，培训中心，教会的营会，研讨会，复兴聚会和特会。她与丈夫戴德辉牧师博士，和他们的儿子Joe居住在布特拉汝来.

就如史密斯•威格尔斯沃思 (Smith Wigglesworth) 在1947 年所发的预言，末世收割将会是神的话与神的灵合并的时候。他说我们将见证神的话与神的灵结合如斯蒂布 (Stibbe) 所描述的“教会历史上前所未见，神的灵大大运行的极点。”

哈该书2:9 “这 殿 后 来 的 荣 耀 ， 必 大 过 先 前 的 荣 耀 。 在 这 地 方 我 必 赐 平 安 。 这 是 万 军 之 耶 和 华 说 的。”

彼得前书 4:17 因 为 时 候 到 了 ， 审 判 要 从 神 的 家 起 首 。 若 是 先 从 我 们 起 首 ， 那 不 信 从 神 福 音 的 人 ， 将 有 何 等 的 结 局 呢 ？

以西结书 34:10 主 耶 和 华 如 此 说 ：我 必 与 牧 人 为 敌 ， 必 向 他 们 的 手 追 讨 我 的 羊 ， 使 他 们 不 再 牧 放 群 羊；牧 人 也 不 再 牧 养 自 己 。 我 必 救 我 的 羊 脱 离 他 们 的 口 ， 不 再 作 他 们 的 食 物 。

亚 拿 尼 亚 ， 同 他 的 妻 子 撒 非 喇 因为欺 哄 圣 灵，把 田 地 的 价 银 私 自 留 下 几 分。使徒彼得责备他们，圣灵即刻审判，他们先后仆 倒 断 了 气 。 全 教 会 ， 和 听 见 这 事 的 人 ， 都 甚 惧 怕（使徒行传 5：11）。就如圣经记载，这是现时圣灵运行最大的特征，其目的是要培养敬畏神。我们将看到一场浩大的属灵争战，而神的灵将大大的胜过恶势力。

这就是为什么圣灵第四波的教会将会是由一群争战的勇士组成的。这些紧守并坚持过一个完全纯净、圣洁生活的勇士们，将会征服所有的领域，促使神的国度降临，直到基督将驾着云彩降临而教会被提到祂那里聚集。那时，人类历史上最终的一系列事件将在这地上开始进行。

许多愿意顺服神的将会被呼召进入这末世的事工，就有如阿尔贝特•库姆斯•巴恩斯 (Albert Coombs Barnes) 所引述的：“要成为基督徒并确信圣经的真理，并不需要很大的学问。神要的只是一颗诚实和愿意顺服祂的心。”

神正在兴起一群特别的勇士，他们只敬畏神，是一群不惧怕死亡的敢死队。请继续读以下的文章，明白神正在预备的末世精兵有何特征。

http://www.pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2012/06/calling-of-christs-kingdom-reigns.html
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The marriage of the Word and the Spirit will be the end time harvest of the 1947 prophecy by Smith Wigglesworth. He said that a movement of God was coming in which the Word and the Spirit would be combined in what Stibbe describes as “the greatest movement of God’s Spirit ever witnessed in Church history.”

Haggai 2:9, ‘The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,’ says the Lord Almighty. ‘And in this place I will grant peace,’ declares the Lord Almighty.”

As in 1 Peter 4:17, "For it is time for judgment to begin with the family of God; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God?"

And in Ezekiel 34:10, "This is what the Sovereign Lord says: I am against the shepherds and will hold them accountable for my flock. I will remove them from tending the flock so that the shepherds can no longer feed themselves. I will rescue my flock from their mouths, and it will no longer be food for them."

Ananias and Sapphira fell down and died immediately when they lied to the Holy Spirit and great fear seized the whole church and all who heard about these event (Acts 5:11). As the Bible described, the purpose is to instil fear as the main characteristic of the Current move of the Holy Spirit is that it will be a victorious movement of spiritual warfare against evil forces.

That is why, the fourth model of the Church will be a warrior army that will battle, invested of purity and holiness, and will conquer all the territory so that the kingdom of God will come, until Christ shall return in the clouds to rapture His Church, and here in the earth will begin a sequence of final events in the history of mankind.

Many with willingness to obey God will be called for such ministry as Albert Coombs Barnes quotes: “It does not require great learning to be a Christian and be convinced of the truth of the Bible. It requires only an honest heart and a willingness to obey God.”

God is raising up a special breed of warriors who are bold and fear nothing except the fear of the Lord. Read on through the link below of the kind of warrior God is preparing His armies:-

http://www.pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2012/06/calling-of-christs-kingdom-reigns.html

基督国度崇高掌权基督中心是一个使徒性，先知性，布道性的事工；被呼召站在最前线低抗黑暗的权势。当大卫王知道拔示巴怀了孕，他召了拔示巴的丈夫乌利亚从战场上回家去，为了掩盖自己的罪行。但乌利亚却和他主人的臣仆一同睡在王宫门外，没有回到自己的家里去。

大卫王问乌利亚为何不回到自己家里去，乌利亚回答说：

撒母耳记下11:11 乌 利 亚 对 大 卫 说 ， 约 柜 和 以 色 列 与 犹 大 兵 都 住 在 棚 里 ， 我 主 约 押 和 我 主 （ 或译：王 ） 的 仆 人 都 在 田 野 安 营 ， 我 岂 可 回 家 吃 喝 ， 与 妻 子 同 寝 呢 ？ 我 敢 在 王 面 前 起 誓 （ 原 文 作 我 指 着 王 和 王 的 性 命 起 誓 ） ：我 决 不 行 这 事 ！

乌利亚被派到最前线去攻打敌人。战胜仇敌和征服土地是神的旨意，但以色列百姓以及直接参与战场的都必须与他们的家人远离隔绝，以神的事工为优先，全心全意专心去打战，完全没有後顾之忧才能打胜仗。所以乌利亚在战争还未结束之前是不能回到自己家的。从这例子看到： 神与神的事工是连在一起的，是不能分开来的。

这战争是为了神所赐给始祖亚伯拉罕的应许之地，也为以色列的后裔。这些勇士们被委托这样的使命，要与亲爱的家人远离，对他们来说是困难的，再痛苦不过的。

要知道有不同的属灵成熟度。那最极端的就是我们的主在马太福音与路加福音的教导；马太福音 19：29 凡 为 我 的 名 撇 下 房 屋 ， 或 是 弟 兄 ， 姐 妹 ， 父 亲 ， 母 亲 ， （ 有 古 卷 添 妻 子 ） ， 儿 女 ， 田 地 的 ， 必 要 得 着 百 倍 ， 并 且 承 受 永 生 。

在马太福音 10：37-38 爱 父 母 过 于 爱 我 的 ， 不 配 作 我 的 门 徒 ， 爱 儿 女 过 于 爱 我 的 ， 不 配 作 我 的 门 徒 。 不 背 着 他 的 十 字 架 跟 从 我 的 ， 也 不 配 作 我 的 门 徒 。

对很多的基督徒来说，这种教导是很困难，很难以领受的。所以戴得辉牧师虽然本身被呼召进入使徒性的事工，他在 2012 年6月12日在沙巴教会分享说：在战场上第一个被殉职的军人（我们的大母指）是那些在最前线的。那代表着最前线的战士是那些愿意忍受大逼迫，大有勇敢心智，不战到最后不罢休的。有如使徒保罗为福音的原故坚持到最后一口气。林後 12：12 我 在 你 们 中 间 ， 用 百 般 的 ，忍 耐 ， 借 着 神 迹， 奇 事， 异 能 ， 显 出 使 徒 的 凭 据 来 。

使徒保罗虽然面对极度的困难和高度的逼迫，他坚持不懈，没有向人妥协，一心只敬畏神，要讨神欢欣。同样勇敢的战士是不畏惧死亡的。若一个人完全向自己死去，不害怕死亡，那他是什么也不怕的了。神就在寻找像乌利亚那样的勇士来服侍祂。因为末世收割桩稼的事工需要这样的条件才能与神同工，运行在圣灵的大能里。这是要成为主耶稣极度门徒的最基本条件。

精锐的突击队员是很少的，他们不同于一般的军士。有如士师记记载神在1万个基甸勇士中，只挑选三百位。（士师记记 7：3-7）。你是否愿意被呼召进入这样的事工？？？
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CKRM is a ministry of apostolic, prophetic and evangelism; called to be the front line warriors to battle the power of darkness. When King David discovered that Bathsheba was pregnant he sent for Bathsheba’s husband - Uriah. To cover his sin of having an affair with Uriah’s wife, David relieved Uriah temporary of the battlefield frontline to return home and to go back to his house. But Uriah slept at the entrance of the palace with all his master’s servants and did not go to his house.

When David questioned him about why Uriah did not go home, Uriah said to David in 2 Samuel 11:11, “The ark and Israel and Judah are staying in tents, and my master Joab and my lord’s men are camped in the open fields. How could I go to my house to eat and drink and lie with my wife? As surely as you live, I will not do such a thing.

Uriah was assigned to be on the frontline to attack the enemies. In the will of God to defeat the enemies and capture the land, it was a ministry for the Israelites and those directly involved in the battle fields have to be separated from their families as the ministry of God became their first priority. Hence, Uriah could not go home to his house. This illustration shows God and the ministry of God are inseparable. The battle was the promised land God gave to Abraham for the future generation of Israel and for that sake; the warriors on the battle had the calling for the assignment. For such warriors, it was very painful having to leave their families behind to be on the battlefield.

There are different spiritual levels. The extreme spiritual level is what our Lord Jesus taught in Matthew 19:29, “And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields (business) for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life.” (Also read Luke 18:29-30).

In Matthew 10:37-38, Jesus said, “Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and everyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.”

To many Christians, this is hard teaching and therefore apostolic ministry as Dr Joseph Tai has shared in the Sunday sermon at his Church in Kota Kinabalu on 10th June 2012, is the frontline (the thumb on our finger), the first to die on the frontline facing the enemies. It means severe persecution with a lot of perseverance, bold and will fight to the last, like Apostle Paul defending the gospel to his last dying days. 2 Corinthians 12:12, “The things that mark an apostle – signs, wonders and miracles – were done among you with great perseverance.”

Apostle Paul feared no men and would not compromise despite extreme difficulties and persecution. Brave warriors are not afraid of death. If a person dies to self and is not afraid of death, no fear can come to him. God is looking for such warrior like Uriah to serve Him and to move in the mighty power of the Holy Spirit for the end time harvest. This is the basic requirement for extreme discipleship.

Elite commandoes are few, unlike ordinary soldier, like the 300 the Lord picked at the river among the 10,000 (Judges 7:3-7). Are you willing to be called in this category to serve God?

More Photos vide the link below
https://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.php?fbid=296555497085296&set=a.296518437089002.68917.296513197089526&type=1&theater

After a long and patient wait, the celebration came at last. The 14th April 2012 is a very special day for CKRM. The Lord has set apart this day for us to celebrate CKRM 5th Anniversary. Thanks and praise the Lord!

The ceremony began at 12.40pm with the opening by Rev Oh Beng Khee saying grace for the food. The Lord did not only bless us adults’ food but also prepared tasty Popeyes fast food for our children. We would like to convey our appreciation of thanks to Brother George Ang for his contribution of the 'Popeyes' kids' meal. (George is Ps Paul's son and is the franchisee boss for 'Popeyes' in Singapore & Malaysia).

After filling our stomachs, the ceremony began with praise and worship to our Lord Jesus, followed by Ps Paul and Ps Esther sharing about the mission of CKRM. Then they led the whole congregation to stand together and declared the Statement of Faith for CKRM.

As stated in the sixth point of the Statement of Faith, it is said that “we believed in the Fire Baptism.” Ps Paul/Esther further elaborated the following:-

Every ministry or everyone has a calling in the Body of Christ where each part of the Body serving differently ( 1 Corinthians12:12-30)

Jesus came as a sacrificial Lamb to save the world and HE even became obedient to the point of death -even dying on the Cross (Philippians 2:8).

Moses’ calling was to perform all the wonders as a demonstration in order to convince the Pharaoh that God had called him to set his people free and to lead them out of Egypt (Exodus 4:21). However, CKRM’s calling is to preach the Fire Baptism to the believers.

At the CKRM Singapore Saturday Meeting on 31stMarch 2012, Bishop Joseph Akintunde shared that about 60% to70% of Christians had been baptized with the Holy Spirit BUT only less than 10% of the believers had ever been baptized with Fire.

When John the Baptist introduced the ministry of Jesus, he specially mentioned that Jesus would baptize us with Holy Spirit and Fire as stated in (Matthew 3:11, Luke 3:16.)

We believed every believer would be a different person once he/she is baptized with the Fire of God.

The Baptism of the Holy Spirit begins with speaking in tongues, which is also the manifestation of the Holy Spirit inside a person. Baptism in Spirit shows that a person belongs to God and he/she can know God better and have fellowship with Him.

Fire baptism is for ministry and furthermore a person needs to be sanctified by the Fire of God which will eventually heal those who are under the bondage and control by Satan.

Fire Baptism is the Fire of God which comes down from Heaven. Our God is a consuming fire and when the Spirit of God comes upon us powerfully it will manifest the characteristic of fire which is hot and this is needed to destroy the works of Satan.

We believe that all God’s people love God but as the saying goes “the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” The fire will not to kill God’s people but to break the bondages that the devil puts in the people’s heart. Fire will burn away all ungodly thoughts, fears, troubles, disappointments, attraction to the world and unbelief (Soul).

The Fire is to enable God’s people to remove everything that hinders them so that sins do not easily entangle them but allow them to run with perseverance the race which is marked out for them by God.

Like the Dedication of the Temple in 2 Chronicles 7:1, "When Solomon finished praying, fire came down from heaven and consumed the burnt offering and the sacrifices, and the glory of the Lord filled the temple."

Our body is the temple of God. Let the fire of God consumes the burnt offering in our body so that we can offer our body as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God as in Romans 12:1. Then His glory will fill the temple. (The Holy Spirit lives in all believers but the glory which is His manifested presence rests on very few).

Therefore, about 90% of Christians have never encountered Fire Baptism so they cannot understand why the manner people react or manifest when the Fire of God touches them. When fire burns, there will be noises because of the reaction of materials made by Fire. Noise is part of the Fire in the burning process. Take for example in the natural, just put your hand to touch a burning hot iron and see whether you can remain silent.

It is the similar case when the spiritual Fire of God burns us; it tends to produce “noises” in the process of empowering our inner beings. When more and more ungodly things are burned away, this will lead us to a deeper repentant stage. It is always the case that people will have the desire of worldly things. It is only when those who have the ability to let go of the things of the world, will then they desire to know God in an intimate manner. To become God chasers as Paul said, “consider everything is loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things, I consider them rubbish that I may gain Christ.” God is raising HIS end time army to usher His near return.

Rev Liu shared that she was opposed by the Christian community when she began to preach the Baptism of Holy Spirit many years ago. By God’s grace as time goes by, most of the churches are able to accept this teaching now. Then she led the congregation to declare: The Kingdom of the World has become the Kingdom of our Lord and of his Christ and He will reign forever and ever (Revelation 11:15), followed by Dr Rev Francis praying for the Holy Communion and lastly, Rev Koo Tiong Ling said a closing prayer –he prayed “CKRM is not an ordinary church but it is a church led by the Holy Spirit. God would give Ps Paul and Ps Esther and the leaders more revelation to run the church and complete the race.”

The 1st session of the cerebration ended, followed by the 2nd session with a time of ministering to the congregation and testimonies from Malacca, Petaling Jaya, Banting/Klang and Singapore. The auspicious occasion ended at about 5.00 pm.
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欢庆基督国度崇高掌权五周年记念

等了好长的一段时间，盼了又盼，等了又等，终于等到了，2012年4月14日是一个很特别的日子，主就定在这一天来欢庆基督国度崇高掌权，五周年记念。感谢主！

典礼在12.40开始，首先由胡民气牧师为食物献上感恩祷告，感谢神不只供给我们大人的食物，也为小孩子特别预备美味可口的“Popeye炸鸡”，谢谢George 的奉献。

填饱了肚子，仪式以敬拜讚美高举我们的救主耶稣基督掀开序幕。接着是创办人，保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师简单分享神对基督国度崇高掌权的呼召后与全体圣徒同心合一宣读信仰宣言。

因在信仰宣言第六点提到圣火的洗，所以保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师简单分享了以下的内容：-

我们都是一个身子，神随自己的意思把肢体俱安排在身子上，各肢体有他不同的供用，代表神对我们每个人有不同的呼召。

主耶稣降世为人最大的目的是做全人类的代罪羔羊，死在十字架上。

摩西的呼召是在法老面前行神迹，以带领以色列百姓出埃及。

基督国度崇高掌权的呼召是传讲圣火的施洗！

会督Joseph Akintunde曾分享道:-“全世界有60-70%的圣徒已经领受圣灵的洗，但却只有少过10%的圣徒领受圣火的洗。”

施洗约翰在介绍耶稣的事工时，特别提到耶稣是用圣灵与火为我们施洗：-

马太福音3:11

我是用水给你们施洗，叫你们悔改。但那在我以后来的，能力比我更大，我就是给他提鞋，也不配。他要用圣灵与火给你们施洗。

路加福音3:16

约翰说，我是用水给你们施洗，但有一位能力比我更大的要来，我就是给他解鞋带也不配。他要用圣灵与火给你们施洗。

撒迦利亚13:9

我要使这三分之一经火，熬炼他们，如熬炼银子，试炼他们，如试炼金子。他们必求告我的名，我必应允他们。我要说，这是我的子民。他们也要说，耶和华是我们的神。

圣徒经历圣火的施洗后就不一样了，圣灵的洗---说出方言是圣灵内住的外在彰显。圣灵的洗使你属於神，与圣灵有分，能更认识神，并与神交通。

圣火的洗是为服事，自己先蒙洁净，然后用圣灵的火释放医治那些被魔鬼捆绑压制的人。圣火的洗是神的火降临。神是烈火，当神的灵大有能力临到我们时，会彰显火的本质，又热又烫，专对付撒但魔鬼的作为。火不是要对付，杀死神的百姓，乃是要打破恶者留在人心的捆绑，人心对世界的吸引，火烧尽恶者留在神百姓心思意念（魂）--贪爱世界的一切，错误的思想观念，疲乏灰心，软弱不信等等。

火也烧尽恶者留在神百姓身体上的污秽杂质，恢复建康的身体（圣灵的殿）。这样的过程会带出不同的反应，看各人而异。就有如在自然界你把自己放在一块火烧的铁板，会有反应的。

可以肯定的是经历火炼尽的人，会带动生命的改变，人心会转向神，人会自动为自己的软弱，爱世界的事悔改，人心会柔软，为自己无法过得胜的生活而悔改，会自己责备自己。

更多的烧尽，带出更多的悔改，徹底的悔改，将带动圣灵更大的动工浇灌，心门被打开看见神的作为---神迹奇事的发生，人会自动离弃平时以为享乐的事，渴慕遇见神，就有能力愿意放弃自己，顺服主，背起自己的十字架跟从主，看世界万事为粪土。以服事主为最宝贵。

就能让神在地上兴起祂末日的精兵，为耶稣的回来预备道路！

接着，刘再芳牧师分享了她当年在传讲圣灵的洗时，面对基督教圈子很大的阻挡。但感谢神的恩典，圣灵的洗终在多年后被广大的基督教群体所接受。刘再芳牧师接着带领众圣徒一起宣告“这世上的国成了我主和主基督的国，基督耶稣要做王直到永永远远！”。紧跟着是魏义发牧师带领大家守圣餐，纪念主的再来。最后高传隆院长为基督国度崇高掌权祝福祷告。--他说：基督国度崇高掌权不是普通的一般的教会，这是一个被圣灵带领的教会，愿神自己赐下更多的启示给保罗和以斯帖牧师，还有领袖们。愿神自己带领他们完成这工程。。。。。。。。。

第一阶段的庆祝仪式就在声声的祝福中告一段落。

接着是见证服事的时间，从马六甲，巴生，万津，八打灵再也，新加坡等代表见证神的信实，恩典，慈爱。。。。一直到近五点才结束。

I still remember that day in September 2010 when Pastor Paul and Pastor Esther prayed for me at CKRM, Petaling Jaya. It was on a typical Monday morning breakfast fellowship which Paul and I shared ever since he moved up from Malacca.

We were just sharing when Pastor Esther joined us and began to share how the Lord has called her into this ministry. It was the first time that I have heard her testimony. It was quite a surprise to me for Pastor Esther, the little that I know about her, seldom shares her testimony.

Doubtless, Pastor Paul has been sharing his ‘story’ with me and this time round, Pastor Esther’s ‘story’ was meant to be the ‘final push’. I came to a point where I was able to believe and to completely surrender to the Holy Spirit. Soon I was on the floor praising the Lord with Pastor Esther singing alongside me.

Recalling the whole episode, it was Pastor’s Esther’s compassion and Pastor Paul’s childlike faith that truly impressed upon me. Also, it was for me a time of severe trial as I tried to serve the church with my own strength. I wanted to crucify self but always ended up in failure and frustration. I kept telling myself “Enough is enough of self” but never succeed. It was in my desperation that the Holy Spirit came and filled me.

Till now I am still amazed at the anointing of Pastor Paul. A laying of his hands would cause me to rise up in worship and the presence of the Lord is so real and powerful. Each impartation would find me on the floor.

I begun to read books that I did not know of nor can I find them in my previous churches and seminary. I suppose I have been ‘converted’. Praise the Lord forevermore! Where was the Holy Spirit all those years?

I have come to know more about our God in the last two years than my 24 years in the Lord and I thank God for leading me to CKRM and the fellowship with Ps Paul Ang and Ps Esther. Honestly, I can't find any controversy in CKRM and I am wondering what and why people are saying what they are saying about CKRM.

As Jack Deere aptly says “We can actually serve in the church without the Holy Spirit”. Hundreds of years of traditions and human methods could easily do the things of God without the Holy Spirit while the Word of God becomes some lifeless principles, ethic and values we abide by.

Many have loved Galatians 2:20 and 6:14 as something noble to pursue and yet lacking the ability (or anointing) to live and walk in the Spirit (Gal 5:25). May the communion of the Holy Spirit, the love of God and the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with us all! Amen! (2 Cor 13:14).
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Pastor's Footnote:
Ps Simeon Lim (then known as Tony Lim) was introduced to me by the late State Assemblyman of Selangor, Bro Edward Lee in 2004. He holds a Master Degree of Divinity (MBS). Strongly grounded on the word on God and like the Bereans (Acts 17:11), he would examine the Scriptures to see that what I have said is true, whether or not it is biblical.
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从主而来的一刻恩宠胜于一生的辛劳 – 林西缅牧师

我仍记得在2010年九月当时保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师在CKRM八打灵再也为我祷告的那一天。那日是打从保罗牧师从马六甲到八打灵再也后, 和我在一个典型的星期一早晨共进早餐交流的时刻。

正当我们在分享时以斯帖牧师加入并开始分享上帝如何呼召她踏入这事工服事的行列。那是我第一次听到她的见证。我感到非常惊讶，因据我所知以斯帖牧师罕有与人分享她的见证。

毫无疑问，从保罗牧师之前不间断地与我分享他的‘故事’，而这一回以斯帖牧师的‘故事’，对我来说实属‘终极推动力’。使我来到一个能够相信和完全降服于圣灵的地步。我立即被圣灵击倒在地上赞美主，以斯帖牧师则伴随在旁唱诗敬拜。

回想起整个事故，确实是以斯帖牧师的爱心和保罗牧师孩子般的信心令我折服。在同时也因着我尝试用自己的力量来服侍教会而面临严峻考验的时刻。我尝试想钉死‘老我’却常常以失败和烦躁收场。我不断地告诉自己受够了，不能再被‘老我’控制，但却不得要领也从未成功。圣灵乃是在我极度需要时降临并充满我。

至今我仍对于保罗牧师的恩膏感到惊讶。他的一个按手导致我在敬拜赞美中被兴起来，并且主的同在是如此的真实和满有能力。在每一次的传递中必见我在地上被圣灵充满。

我开始阅读我从未知晓或在前教会和会议中不可寻获的书籍。我猜想我已被‘转化更新’。赞美主至到永远！这些年来圣灵在哪儿呢？

在这过去的两年里我逐步认识到更多关乎神过于我在主里的二十四年。我感谢神带领我到CKRM 还有与保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师之间的交流。说实在，我在CKRM 里找不着任何可争论的。我对人们给于CKRM的评语和他们所述关乎CKRM的话题感到疑惑。

就如杰克。迪尔适宜地说“没有圣灵，我们依然可以在教会服事”。上百年的诸多传统和人为的千方百计铸成没有圣灵同在仍可轻易地做与神有关的事。但、神大能的话语却变成了一些我们所遵守；没有生命力的原则、道德伦理和价值观。

不少人都爱加拉太书2:20 和 6:14，视之为某种美好崇高的事物来追求，但却缺乏能力（或恩膏）生活或运行在灵里（加拉太书 5:25）。愿主耶稣基督的恩惠、神的慈爱、圣灵的感动，常与我们众人同在！阿门！（歌林多后书13:14）。

我仍记得在2010年九月当时保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师在CKRM八打灵再也为我祷告的那一天。那日是打从保罗牧师从马六甲到八打灵再也后, 和我在一个典型的星期一早晨共进早餐交流的时刻。

正当我们在分享时以斯帖牧师加入并开始分享上帝如何呼召她踏入这事工服事的行列。那是我第一次听到她的见证。我感到非常惊讶，因据我所知以斯帖牧师罕有与人分享她的见证。

毫无疑问，从保罗牧师之前不间断地与我分享他的‘故事’，而这一回以斯帖牧师的‘故事’，对我来说实属‘终极推动力’。使我来到一个能够相信和完全降服于圣灵的地步。我立即被圣灵击倒在地上赞美主，以斯帖牧师则伴随在旁唱诗敬拜。

回想起整个事故，确实是以斯帖牧师的爱心和保罗牧师孩子般的信心令我折服。在同时也因着我尝试用自己的力量来服侍教会而面临严峻考验的时刻。我尝试想钉死‘老我’却常常以失败和烦躁收场。我不断地告诉自己受够了，不能再被‘老我’控制，但却不得要领也从未成功。圣灵乃是在我极度需要时降临并充满我。

至今我仍对于保罗牧师的恩膏感到惊讶。他的一个按手导致我在敬拜赞美中被兴起来，并且主的同在是如此的真实和满有能力。在每一次的传递中必见我在地上被圣灵充满。

我开始阅读我从未知晓或在前教会和会议中不可寻获的书籍。我猜想我已被‘转化更新’。赞美主至到永远！这些年来圣灵在哪儿呢？

在这过去的两年里我逐步认识到更多关乎神过于我在主里的二十四年。我感谢神带领我到CKRM 还有与保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师之间的交流。说实在，我在CKRM 里找不着任何可争论的。我对人们给于CKRM的评语和他们所述关乎CKRM的话题感到疑惑。

就如杰克。迪尔适宜地说“没有圣灵，我们依然可以在教会服事”。上百年的诸多传统和人为的千方百计铸成没有圣灵同在仍可轻易地做与神有关的事。但、神大能的话语却变成了一些我们所遵守；没有生命力的原则、道德伦理和价值观。

不少人都爱加拉太书2:20 和 6:14，视之为某种美好崇高的事物来追求，但却缺乏能力（或恩膏）生活或运行在灵里（加拉太书 5:25）。愿主耶稣基督的恩惠、神的慈爱、圣灵的感动，常与我们众人同在！阿门！（歌林多后书13:14）。
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牧师注脚:
西缅牧师（前称林东尼）是经已故雪兰莪州州议员，李爱德华弟兄介绍。他拥有神学硕士学位。在神的话语上根基深厚牢固就犹如庇里亚人（使徒行传17；11），他会查考经节看我所说的是否属实，是不是依据圣经。

Dear Pastor Esther,

I would like to thank the Lord for asking you to invite me to CKRM Melaka lunch last Monday; indeed I am truly blessed by the ministry. I have been crying out to God to lead me again because I know I’m lost again. My cry was God surely you have more for me to do with the Spiritual gifts that you have given me. Many times I had these dreams about me being pregnant but I couldn't go into labour to deliver. On Monday night after the ministry, I had the same dream again but this time I already given birth to a child. Halleluiah! I received my breakthrough! My prayer is that I will be able to continue where I’ve stopped. Thank you again for praying for me.

Blessings!

Ruth Kok

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God will make a way for CKRM Melaka

Dear Pastor Esther,

With regards to the vision I received last Monday when our brethrens from CKRM Banting and Petaling Jaya were praying for the ministry of CKRM Melaka saw a beautiful picture of a flower bud. The understanding that I received was that never to under- estimate what God is doing inside of this flower bud. When the appointed time comes, this flower bud will bloom into a beautiful flower. The beauty of this flower is that, it never had to labour for its beauty to appear but its God and His creativity did it! All glory to Him! The ministry of CKRM Melaka will experience it's breakthrough through God. Eventually, look at the flower that's already bloom, it turn-out that there are so many beautiful petals attached to make it beautiful!

Glory to Him alone Who is Almighty!

Blessings,

Ruth Kok

Dear Ps. Paul,

Shalom!

You have been tested amidst great opposition and misunderstanding. The religious and political spirit has tried to come against you to stop you from advancing in the Kingdom, or even to kill the ministry the Lord has given you in its infant stage, but the Lord Sabaoth has triumphed over your enemies, and you have emerged stronger than before. Religious men may not be able to understand the way the Lord has anointed you to do His ministry, yet the anointing on your life and ministry is genuinely from the Lord and it bears the authenticity of heaven's signature.

You are already carrying the revival mantle of the Spirit of the Lord, and the Lord has called you to Malacca, which I believe is not only a place where you will just build an auditorium for the incoming revival, but also where you will be the presiding revivalist that the Lord has appointed for this hour and for this work. You will be the set man in charge of the work in Malacca and this responsibility is not to be given to another person, until and unless the Lord has released you from it.

It is a joy to see how the Lord has blessed you with resources to do His ministry, and it is a big ministry which the Lord has prepared you to do over the years, even those years when you were serving other gods in the business world. But the Lord is using the wealth of your business experience, connections and material resources for His Kingdom advancement now. He will use everything that you have offered to Him, your whole life and everything you have been through. He is not finished with you yet, there is a great work awaiting you. Your best days are still ahead of you.

The Lord has also given you a ministry to equip and empower the Body of Christ for the work of ministry. It is a ministry to train men and women of God in the spirit and to impart faith to release the miraculous and the supernatural working of the Holy Spirit. You will be known as a man of God who activates the gifts and callings of His saints.

If there is anyway that we can be of help to you, I think it would be to promote your ministry through writing books, which is what Ps. Joyce has attempted to do when she published her book entitled "More, Lord!", of course this book also speaks of the revival ministry that the Lord has given us. We can also help build your people and ministry through teaching and preaching of the Word, which is one of our strengths. We are not in competition, but the Lord has caused our path to cross so that we can build His Kingdom together. What He requires of us is that we be found faithful in whatever size and portion He has entrusted to us, and then more will be given to us.

May Deuteronomy 33:25 be ever so real to you--"As your days, so shall your strength be." (Deuteronomy 33:25 NKJV)

God bless you in all that you put your hands to do.

Blessings and thanks in Christ,

Ps. Joyce & Joseph
GreaterThings
Tel: 606-8502090
Mobile: 6012-3687280

Fountain of Life Assembly
Nilai. Negeri Sembilan.
Malaysia.

Dear Ps. Paul,

Shalom!

Indeed, spiritually speaking Ps. Esther is an eye and an ear to you in the ministry. The Lord has teamed both of you up for greater effectiveness in His Kingdom work. She is a plus to your ministry work.

Some of these days, when we have the opportunity to travel to Malacca, we will pay you a visit certainly.

Giving God all the glory,

Ps. Joyce

Testimony of Ps Joyce Tai vide the link below:

The Testimony of Pastor Joyce Tai / Joyce Tai 牧师的见证
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Pastor's Footnote:

Rev Dr Joyce Tai (B.Sc, M.Div, D.Min) author of the book "More Lord!," has been in full time ministry since 1986. She moves powerfully in preaching, teaching, intercessory and prophetic anointing. In her meetings, many have received breakthrough, healing, deliverance, miracles, edification, comfort and exhortation. She is now an associate and intinerant pastor of Fountain of Life Assembly (member of NECF), a prophetic & apostolic Church.

Her husband, Rev Dr Joseph Tai is the President of Wingspread School of Ministry and has served the Lord fulltime since 1984. Besides involving in itinerary teaching and evangelism, he is now shepherding Fountian of Life Assembly. He teaches the Word of God with simplicity and practicality. Evangelistic, healing, deliverance, prophetic, laughing, revival, miracle, signs and wonders anointing flow strongly in his revival meetings. He has ministered in USA, Canada, Mexico, Hong Kong and South East Asia. He has also ministered in Bible College, training centre, camp, conference, evangelistic and revival meetings.
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The year of 2011 ended with 3 significant evenings in CKRM, hosted by Rev Liu Tsia Fang, the senior pastor of Singapore Christian Prayer House.

She preached on the End times message on 29 - 30/12/11, followed by a watch-night prayer meeting on 31/12/2011 to usher in the new year, 2012.

She was assisted by two much anointed sisters from Taiwan and they are 1st time visitors to CKRM Singapore.

One of them, Pastor Huang Li Chin, who is a prophetess and graduated from Agape Renewal Center (ARC) has a natural gift of a seer even at a very young age and could see into the Spiritual Realm of a person. Rev Liu Tsia Fang invited her and another co-worker from Taiwan. Pastor Huang released the prophetic word to Pastor Paul Ang , Pastor Esther and many of us in the congregation.

She released the following word to our co-founder, Pastor Paul Ang when she prayed for him:-

"You are God's precious son.
He will lead you to walk, your walk is not based on Earthly Way but you walk on the Heavenly Way.
In addition, He will lead you personally to work.
Because of your legs, He will personally lead you to walk step by step. He is leading you to walk.
The Lord will increasingly exalt you and He'll lift you up.
Thank you Jesus"

Through Ps Huang, the Lord called Pastor Paul, His precious son. Hallelujah!
As co-heir with Jesus Christ, Pastor Paul is God's precious son.
The given authority of son-ship is as in John 5:19 that the son only do what the Father is doing & Father God is well pleased.

Romans 8: 29 "For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among all brethren."

Prophetess Huang Li Chin confirmed that Pastor Paul is walking in The Heavenly Way.

Psalm 32:8

Praise the Lord!

The Lord personally leading Pastor Paul all the way.

He'll strengthen his legs as in 2 Sam 22:34 & Psalm 18:33

Father God affirmed that He exalts His humble servant.

James 4:10
Luke 18:14b
Joshua 3: 7

(Prophet John Temple has delivered a word to Ps Paul Ang recently that very few could understand and accept the ministry that God has called him but don't give up. John Temple also gave a word to Ps Esther Yap that the Lord put her to co-partner and minister with Ps Paul Ang so that Ps Paul can complete the work that God has assigned and ordained him to do. Bishop Joseph Akintunde has only given him a word that people who have misunderstood Ps Paul Ang would eventually be able to see the light in Ps Paul).

Ps Huang released the following to Pastor Esther Yap, a co-founder and ministering partner of Ps Paul Ang.

"God says you're a good co-labourer & helper.
I see the two of you and in between is a rope.
You two, each are holding one end of the rope.
The Lord personally lifts up the middle of the rope. (a triangle formation like the Holy Trinity )
Be strong & courageous, be stronger & more courageous.
God will exalt you.
You & Pastor Paul are on level ground. ( Isa 45:2)
God will personally lead you to run the race.
You have to be bold in proclaiming the work of the Kingdom of God, because the Lord has also put this burden in you. The Lord will add more to you and exalt you to a higher level."

These prophetic words -

• confirming the supernatural ministry of CKRM set up by Father God - partnership between Pastor Esther & Pastor Paul, Father God Himself uphold this ministry with His almighty hand, He's El Shaddai

• the prophecy confirmed that Father God had answered His Son, Jesus' prayer for Believers ( John 17:20-26 )

• Obviously things that are not seen or heard upsets many people - but God choose to bless His sons & daughters who loves him with things that eye have not seen nor ear heard ( 1 Cor 2:9) GOD ONLY PREPARED these things FOR THOSE WHO LOVED HIM

In CKRM, the ministry is ONE in the Spirit & ONE in the LORD, as the Father, Son & Holy is ONE

Who can grasp His infinite splendour and fathom the depth of His love?

Elder Janet Fung

(Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke - Official Page: "This world has false standards, false values, false gods, and false heroes. Its honor is a wreath of fading fame. True greatness is not bigness or spiritual prominence. It is doing the will of God).
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黄丽君先知对我们两位 创办人所释放的话语 – 范丽贞长老序

2011 年以新加坡基督徒祷告院(望天楼)的主任牧师，刘再芳所带领的三个显著的聚会进入尾声。

刘牧师在二零一一年十二月二十九与三十日分享了有关末后主再来的信息后，在三十一日以通宵跨年祷告会迎进了新的二零一二年。

她也邀请了两位来自台湾，非常有恩膏的姐妹一起出席聚会。这是她们第一次拜访新加坡CKRM。

其中之一的黄丽君传道，是一位先知，毕业于爱修园。她年幼时神就赐给她先见的天赋，不但有看异象的恩赐，还能洞察属灵领域的事。黄牧师当晚对保罗牧师、以斯帖牧师和当中的弟兄姐妹们释放许多预言。

以下是她对保罗牧师所发的预言：

“你是神的宝贝儿子，祂会带领你前进，带领你走。你走的不是地上的路，而是天上的路。祂会亲自带领你做工，因为你的脚是祂亲自带着你走。所以你不是自己走，是祂一步一步的带领你走。神会更多的提升你。感谢主！”

透过黄传道，主说保罗牧师是神的宝贝儿子。哈利路亚！

与耶稣基督同为后嗣，保罗牧师是神的宝贝儿子。

神所赐与身为儿子的权柄，就如约翰福音五章十九节里说道的惟有看见父所做的，子才能做。天父非常喜悦。

罗马书八章二十九节“因为祂预先所知道的人，就预先定下效法祂儿子的模样，使祂儿子在许多弟兄中作长子。”

先知黄丽君牧师的预言再次印证保罗牧师走的是天上的路（运行在属灵的领域）。

诗篇32:8 - 赞美主！主亲自带领保罗牧师前面的道路，祂加添他双脚的力量如撒下22:34和诗篇18:33。

天父再次肯定和提升祂谦卑的仆人。（雅各4:10； 路加18:14b； 约书亚3:7）

John Temple 先知在较早前也对保罗牧师发预言说很少人能够明白且愿意接受神所托付于保罗牧师的事工，但不要放弃。John Temple 先知也对以斯帖牧师说，是神把她放在保罗牧师的身边，要她和保罗牧师一起配搭和服事好叫保罗牧师能完成神所交托和按立他去做的事。主教Joseph Akintunde 对保罗牧师发的预言说那些误会保罗牧师的人，往后的日子里将会从他身上看见光。

黄牧师对保罗牧师的服事伙伴和 CKRM 的联合创办人，以斯帖牧师发了以下的预言：

“神说你是个好同工、好帮手。我看到你们俩人之间有一条绳子。这条绳子是牵着你们，但是中间有耶稣自己亲自在拉着这条绳，牵着你们走。刚强壮胆、更多的刚强壮胆，神会更多的提升你。你跟保罗牧师俩人各站在天平的两头，是平行的。神会带领你一起奔跑这条天路。你要放胆述说神国度的事，因为神把这样的负担也放在你里面。会更多的加添给你，提升你。

这预言应征了-

• CKRM 超自然事工，保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师的配搭是父神自己所按立的。父神亲自以祂大能的手托住这事工，祂是全能神！

• 天父应允了主耶稣为信徒在约翰福音17:20-26 里的祷告。

• 的确，眼未曾见耳未曾听的事使人困扰。神却选择祝福那些爱祂和喜好那些眼未曾见耳未曾听的事的儿女。（林前2:9）甚至为那些爱祂的预备了这些事。

CKRM的事工乃属一灵、一主，因父、子、圣灵本为一。

谁能抓住祂无限的辉煌和捉摸祂爱的长阔高深呢？

范丽贞长老

（布道家布永康牧师的网站如此写道：“这个世界上有假标准，假价值观，假神，和虚假的英雄。他的荣誉是褪色的名气。真正的伟大并不是体积的庞大或是属灵的卓越地位，而是遵从神的旨意”）

Before we went to Malaysia, Dorcas and I often prayed together for the trip. God gave us a lot of words and dreams. In one of the dreams, Dorcas saw a huge barrel of high quality oil and she was saying “This is the oil I wanted; clean and pure.” When she shared with me about this dream I told her that oil is the anointing of God and CKRM has such kind of oil. True enough, during the 8th Joshua Camp at CKRM she received a lot of grace and anointing from our Lord.

When we prayed on the plane while flying to Kuala Lumpur, God did not say anything to us but gave Dorcas a vision- which was only a donkey and nothing else. We didn’t understand the meaning of this vision until the first day of the camp.

Ps Paul was sharing with the campers why he chose to be a donkey for Jesus. He shared a testimony given by a man of God who wrote: “Our beloved Jesus went to Jerusalem riding on a donkey. The people took off their clothes and spread them on the road. It was the donkey who walked on the clothes, not Jesus. The donkey was honoured because he carried Jesus. I am like that donkey. People honour me not for my sake but because I preach Christ.”

In 1 Samuel 2:30 the Lord declares, “… Those who honor me I will honor, but those who despise me will be disdained.”

Nebuchadnezzar praised the Most High: “I honored and glorified Him who lives forever.” Then his sanity was restored, his honor and splendor were returned for the glory of his kingdom (Daniel 4:34-36).

When Pastor Paul mentioned donkey in his teaching session, I smiled and said to Dorcas. “Don’t you think that this is the donkey you saw in your vision?”

Today when I read an article from BOB JONES, I was surprised to find that there is also a vision of the donkey in his article. The Lord prompted me to link the donkey with CKRM.

God raised CKRM’s ministry to equip and empower the saints of this generation for the coming end time where the darkness and evil forces will increase greatly on the earth. But in this season, many people could not understand such ministry. Only those who know God’s will and are sensitive to the leading of Holy Spirit will recognize God's work.
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Excerpt from Bob Jone’ vision:

（http://bobjonesnew.unionactive.com/Docs/Shepherd's%20Rods/SR-2008.htm）

“The Burden Bearers

In the next vision Bob saw a donkey that was loaded with supernatural provision essential for this interval of God's Spirit. Interestingly, though the little donkey was loaded with cargo, many people were mocking his appearance. We much remember, it was a lowly donkey that brought the Savior of the world in Jerusalem at the appointed time.

This will be a dangerous time to mock at the vessels God has chosen to bear His Glory, because they will be carrying all that we need to survive in this generation. Many religious leaders of the day had a difficult time comprehending John the Baptist because of his appearance and style. Nevertheless, he was God's messenger providing the essential direction for that season. We cannot afford to not recognize the day of His visitation and miss the tremendous opportunity set before us.

It was John’s directive to prepare a people for the Lord’s coming and restore the inheritance of God's children. The Lord said the spirit and power of Elijah is given to restore all things and turn the hearts of this generation back to God.

This analogy clearly identifies the symbolic nature of the donkey shown in the visions. It is a symbolization of humility and utter dependence upon God demonstrated by those who are trusted with spiritual empowerment. Furthermore, we must develop keen spiritual discernment to recognize their true value and the importance of the provision they carry."
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Pastor' Footnote: Some of the greatest achievements of men have come from the outcast and the greatly misunderstood. The disciples of Jesus who were the unschooled, ordinary men (Acts 4:13) courageously went to storm and change the world preaching the gospel under the anointing of the Holy Spirit.
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负重的驴驹——Sarah Shan 姐妹的见证

在多加姐妹和我预备等候参加第八届约书亚营的日子，我们经常一起祷告，神也给了很多话语和异梦。在多加的一个梦中，她看到大桶的油，并且在梦中说，她要的就是这种油，纯净的油。她跟我分享这个梦的时候，我告诉她油就是恩膏，CKRM就是有这种油的地方。果然，在营会中，她满满地得到了神的恩典和恩膏。

在来吉隆坡的路上，我们在飞机上祷告的时候，神没有对我们说什么，但给了多加一个异像，她看到一个驴。除此什么都没有。我们不明白什么意思。直到在营会第一天 。

保罗牧师向会众分享了为什么他选择做主耶稣的驴驹。他引用了一位神仆人所写的：“我们亲爱的主骑着驴驹进入耶路撒冷。人们脱下衣服铺在地上。是驴驹踩在衣服上而不是耶稣。驴子受此尊荣是因为它驼着耶稣。我就像那头驴，人们尊敬我不是为我的缘故，是因为我在传讲基督。”撒母尔记上2:30主说，“…尊重我的，我必重看他。藐视我的，他必被轻视。”

尼布甲尼撒称颂至高者说：“我便称颂至高者，赞美尊敬活到永远的神。” 他的聪明和荣耀都复归于他。(但以理书4:34-36).

当保罗牧师的分享中讲到了驴时，我笑着对多加说，这就是你在异像中看到的驴吧?

今天我阅读美国先知BOB JONES的文章，惊奇的发现里面也有一段关于驴的异像，我马上想到了CKRM。

神兴起CKRM事工是为了装备这世代的圣徒应对将来到的末后季节，就是那黑暗及邪恶势力前所未有地倾倒在全地的时候。但在这预备的季节，很多人不理解这样的事工，对之嘲笑否定。只有认识神的心意并对圣灵带领敏锐的人，才能认出出于神的事工。

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附BOB JONES文章摘录：

（http://bobjonesnew.unionactive.com/Docs/Shepherd's%20Rods/SR-2008.htm）

“负重者

在下一个异像中，Bob看到一头驴驮着超自然的供应品，这些供应是神的灵间息期所必须的。有趣的是，尽管小驴子满载着货物，很多人却嘲笑它的样子。我们都记得圣经中是一头驴驹驮着这世界的救主进入了耶路撒冷。

在此时嘲笑神所拣选来承载祂荣耀的器皿是很危险的，因为他们携带着这世代存活下去的必需品。很多宗教领袖很难理解施洗约翰的外表和方式。然而，他却是神的使者，指明那个季节的必需方向。如果我们不能认出造访时间，以致错过了摆在我们面前的巨大机会，我们是无法承担其损失的。

约翰的目的是为了主的到来和复兴神的儿女预备百姓。主说要赐下以利亚的灵和能力来复兴万事，使这世代的心回转向神。

这个异像中的比喻清楚地刻画出驴子的象征性品质。象征着被神托付属灵能力的人所具有的谦卑、完全依靠神的品格。而且，我们必须培养敏锐的灵来识别出他们这种真价值以及他们所携带供应品的重要性。“

Having hosted the Five Fold Ministers’ Retreat at our newly renovated Canaan Penthouse Conference Hall for the morning session of the ‘Prayer for Malacca’ on 1st December 2011 with pastors and ministry leaders from several countries, this is my brief sharing of my encounter with God have touched the hearts of some participants.

The Lord has revealed to us that it is time now to proceed with building a large convention centre (Auditorium) with a seating capacity for 5000 people and has also identified His chosen location for the project. The project will include a multi-storey block of service apartments and other facilities in a prime location. It is such a privilege and honour the Lord has given my development, now ministering partner Bro Gabriel Eng and I the task to do something great for Him. Ps O.K.Thian who is the advisor for CKRM Leadership Training Malaysia is the Architect for the project.

Ps Thian was also the Architect for the following projects:-

Stadium Negara – 1983
Full Gospel Assembly Prayer Mountain, Genting Highlands – 1993
Education Block of Holy Light Church, Johor Bahru – 1965
Glad Tidings Church, Petaling Jaya - 1984

Attempt something so great for God, it is doomed to fail unless God be in it as per Psalm 127:1, “Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labour in vain.”

Hence, I would like to share this testimony to give glory to God on how a man full of passion for business and the things of the world could suddenly lost all desires and give up everything to serve the Lord, learning to work with Him under His leading, guidance and protection despite being a young Christian of faith without any formal Theological training. An encounter with Lord Jesus will definitely transform life. Apostle Paul was a great sinner and the worst sinner of all persecuting and killing the disciples of Jesus. The Damascus Road Encounter changed him to a man who was full of zeal and love for Jesus. With this unceasing love he defended the gospel to his last dying days and willing to endure all kind of difficulties without the fear of men but only to obey God.

My encounter with the Lord was in California 2004 when the fire of God struck me like a lightning that swept throughout my entire body. My life was transformed. The fire burns away all the dross of my life and draws me to the first love – Lord Jesus (Zechariah 13:9, Matthew 3:11, Luke 3:16). The love for the Lord eliminates all the fear of men. After that fire encounter, the Lord began to isolate me as He closed all doors of contact with my past friends, cell group members and later even with my mentors in order to put me in the potter’s house to reshape the clay in His hand. It was during this time I was left to focus on Him alone, learning to work with Him as He taught me many things like He isolated and taught Apostle Paul in Arabia for 3 years.

I learn from a great revivalist, Bill Johnson of the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, California and the Bible, never to compromise with men out of fear and I witness and experience how true this is and I see the ministry of God grows without any lack of provisions, resources and funds. Ps Esther and I were being blessed by Bill Johnson in his supernatural school in Redding, California in 2007. We came back to set up CKRM Singapore.

Through these few years of ministry life, I identify myself with the two disciples of Jesus, Peter and John. Peter and John told the religious authority in Acts 4:19-20, “Judge for yourselves whether it is right in God’s sight to obey you rather than God. For we cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard.” And their ministries brought in great salvation.

Peter and John did not submit to the religious authority but they chose to obey God, so neither was Daniel when he did not submit to the King’s decree but rather he chose being put into the Lion’s den.

Bill Johnson quote: "Nebuchadnezzar made a golden image that stood 90 feet high. All in his kingdom were to worhsip this thing. But the Hebrew children would not. There is a distinction between submission and obedience. Sometimes we are to go against the command of our leaders - but even then, only with submissive hearts."

I also learn how King Saul lost his calling because of his fear of men. King Saul was fearful of his men and he did not wait for Samuel to come and offer the burnt sacrifice. As a result, his kingdom could not endure as in 1 Samuel 13:13-14, “You have done a foolish thing,” Samuel said. “You have not kept the command the LORD your God gave you; if you had, he would have established your kingdom over Israel for all time. But now your kingdom will not endure; the LORD has sought out a man after his own heart and appointed him ruler of his people, because you have not kept the LORD’s command.”

The great Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke quote: "True greatness is not bigness or spiritual prominence. It is doing the will of God."

The article through the link below will provide some understanding of my calling:-

The "Fire Anointing" and It's Purpose / 圣火的恩膏及其目的

Being set apart and consecrated for His use, I have become obedient to His voice. Rev Dr Henry Chieng, a Methodist Pastor for more than 25 years and overseeing about 20 Churches as a Superintendent was my college mate in a Chinese Seminary in California. He testified about my absolute uncompromised obedience in an article through this link: http://www.ckrm.org/?p=566

Anyone whom the Lord has ordained and commissioned for a fire ministry has in fact a very controversial ministry where only a few could understand unless they have a similar encounter with the Lord too. My testimony has blessed and encouraged many Christians. Many testified through our website http://www.ckrm.org/ how they witnessed the awesome move of God in our ministry and have been blessed. Praise God!

I share two of their testimonies posted through the link below:-

http://www.ckrm.org/?p=2433 (by Rev Dr Joyce Tai, co-founder of a Seminary School)

http://www.ckrm.org/?p=546 (By Pastor Isaac of a Church in Irvin, California)

The Lord gave me a choice when my life was in a mess, saying that if I am willing to be consecrated and set apart for Him, leaving everything behind and carry the cross and walk with Him, He will make everything perfect in my life. Now, I can witness how true and faithful He is.

All my four children are very close and very supportive of my ministry. Our relationship today is so close compared with my sinful past. My three sons have graduated from Australia. My daughter is in USA, married a very devoted Christian. Elder son, George left his banking career to set up a food business. The business commenced in 2002 and expanded to several countries. I have posted an article about his business vide
http://pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-eldest-son-george-ang-and-his.html

All Glory to our Lord Jesus Christ!

Thank you, Jesus, my Lord and my Saviour. Hallelujah! Amen!
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与主耶稣相遇，生命必得着更新

2011年12月1日的上午，来自数个不同国家的牧师和执事领袖借用了我们在马六甲新装修的迦南园顶层会议厅，主办了一个五重执事退修会。一大清早，牧师和执事领袖们就齐集一堂为着马六甲的复兴来祈祷。以下是我在聚会中的简短分享。我这与神相遇的见证触摸了好些参加聚会的牧师和执事领袖们的心。

主已启示我们，现在正是时候进行一个可容纳五千人聚会的大型会议中心（大礼堂）的建设工程，同时神也确定了祂所选择的建筑位置。该项目将包括一个在地理位置优越，多层服务的公寓，以及其他主要的设施。感谢主的恩典，我和我的发展与服事伙伴Eng弟兄能有这么一个机会为主做大事是何等的耀幸。Thian 牧师是马来西亚CKRM领袖训练的顾问，也是这项目的工程师。

Thian牧师也是下列项目的工程师： -

马来西亚国家体育场 - 1983年

全备福音大会祷告山，云顶高原 - 1993年

圣光教会的教育室，柔佛 - 1965年

报喜教堂，八打灵再也 - 1984年

若无上帝的同在，想要完成这么大的圣工是难以成功的。有如诗篇127:1，“若不是耶和华建造房屋，建造的人就枉然劳力。”

因此，我想分享这个见证来荣耀上帝，就是一个对企业和世事充满热忱的人，如何能够在一瞬间突然失去所有的欲望和放弃一切来事奉主。尽管没有受过任何正式神学训练的一位刚信主不久的基督徒，却在祂的带领，指导和保护下，学习与祂一起工作。与主耶稣相遇，生命肯定会被更新。使徒保罗原是一个迫害和杀害耶稣门徒的大罪人。可是在大马士革路上的遭遇，却改变了他一生，成为一个充满热诚和敬爱耶稣的人。有了这永恒的爱，他愿意忍受各种的困苦，捍卫福音直到死的那天。从来没向人的势力低头，为了只是服从上帝。

2004年在加利福尼亚州，主与我相遇。当时上帝之圣火如闪电般击中我整个身体，就此我的生命完全改变。这圣火烧去了我生命中的老我，并引领我寻着至爱 -- 主耶稣（撒迦利亚书13:9，路加福音3:16，马太福音3:11）。主的爱，能够消除人所有的恐惧。经历过主的圣火后，主开始把我分别为圣，停止我与过去的朋友，细胞小组的成员，甚至我的导师们所有的联系。主在陶匠的家中，用祂的手重新塑造我。就在那个时候，我学习如到何留心独自地专注于祂，学习与祂一起同工。主也在这段时间教会了我许多东西，就如在阿拉伯，祂亲自地教导使徒保罗三年一样。

比尔强生是加利福尼亚州伯特利超自然圣经学校的资深牧师。我从这位伟大的复兴家和圣经上，学习到永不要因为惧怕人而妥协。我见证和经历了神的信实。神事工上的增长，无论供应，资源和资金都完全没有任何缺乏。2007年，比尔强生牧师在加利福尼亚州的超自然学校为我和以斯帖牧师按手祝福后回国，我们便成立了新加坡CKRM。

经过数年的事奉生涯，我效法了耶稣的两个门徒，彼得和约翰。彼得和约翰在使徒行传4:19-20告诉宗教领袖说，“听从你们，不听从神，这在神面前合理不合理，你们自己酌量吧。我们所看见所听见的，不能不说。” 他们的事奉带来了极大的救恩。

彼得和约翰从不向宗教领袖低头，并单单选择了服从上帝。即使是但以里，情愿选择被送进狮子坑里，也不妥协于国王的命令。

比尔强生说：“尼布甲尼撒王建造一座九十英尺高的黄金偶像，命令全国人民来崇拜，但是希伯来人的孩子却不这么做。这就是服从和顺服之间的区别。有时我们违背了我们领导人的命令，即使如此，也只有顺从的心。”

我也从扫罗王如何因着惧怕人而失去神的呼召里学到功课。扫罗王惧怕他的手下，没有等到撒母耳来，就独自献上燔祭。因此，正如在撒母耳记13:13-14所记载的他的王位必不长久。撒母耳对扫罗说，“你作了糊涂事了，没有遵守耶和华你神所吩咐你的命令。若遵守，耶和华必在以色列中坚立你的王位，直到永远。现在你的王位必不长久。耶和华已经寻着一个合他心意的人，立他作百姓的君，因为你没有遵守耶和华所吩咐你的。”

伟大的布道家布永康说：“真正的伟大，并不是权高或灵性的突出，而是遵循神的旨意做事。”

通过以下网页的文章，将使你更清楚神对我的呼召: -

The "Fire Anointing" and It's Purpose / 圣火的恩膏及其目的

除了被分别为圣和奉献于主用之外，我学会如何服从祂的声音。詹立言博士，是一位在卫理公会事奉超过二十五年的牧师，也牧养过将近二十间的教会。他是我在加利福尼亚州参加中文会议时的室友。在一篇网页的文章中，他见证我是一位不折不扣绝对服从于神的人：http://www.ckrm.org/?p=566

任何被委任和按立为神圣火恩高的执事，除非他们有类似感受，否则他们不会明白的。我的见证祝福和激励了许多基督徒。很多蒙受祝福人也通过我们的网站http://www.ckrm.org见证上帝在我们的事工上奇妙的运行和作为。赞美上帝！

以下是我与大家分享的其中两个见证： -

http://www.ckrm.org/?p=2433 （Joyce Tai牧师/博士，学院的创始人之一）

http://www.ckrm.org/?p=546 （加利福尼亚州，欧文教会的以撒牧师，）

当我生活在糜烂时，主给了我一个选择。祂说，如果我愿意奉献和跟随祂，离开一切属世的，背起十字架与祂同行，祂将会让我过着美好的生活。现在，我可以亲眼看到祂是多么的信实。

我有四个孩子，他们都与我很亲密，也非常支持我的事工。我们今天的关系比以前更加密切。我的三个儿子都毕业于澳洲的大学。我的女儿在美国，于一位非常虔诚的基督徒结了婚。长子，乔治离开了银行的工作，成立一家食品企业。该业务在2002年开始发展，并扩展到几个国家。我在以下的网页写下了有关他的业务发展的文章：

http://pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-eldest-son-george-ang-and-his.html

所有的荣耀，都归于我们的主耶稣基督！

谢谢主耶稣基督，我的救主。哈利路亚！阿门！

The 8th Joshua Camp was held on the 2nd December to the 4th December at Canaan Penthouse Conference Hall, Legenda Condo, Klebang Kecil Malacca. The Biblical meaning of number 8 : comes from my understanding that it normally deals with one who abounds in strength. The number eight is also used in reference to fertility. It has also been used when referring to the Resurrection or new beginnings.

Prior to the 8th Joshua Camp a Five Fold Ministers’ Retreat was held at Canaan Penthouse Conference Hall where pastors and leaders from all over the world came to pray for a spiritual breakthrough in Malacca. True to the meaning of eight which refers to a new beginning, the Lord led a group of young boys and girls from Banting and a sister named Docus from Beijing, China to this Camp.

Pastor Paul shared about the importance of Fire Anointing and Spiritual Weapons so that we can be effective disciples of Christ. The new comers received many spiritual gifts when Ps Paul prayed for the impartation of Fire Anointing. Sister Docus who hardly spoke English burst out worshiping our Lord Jesus Christ with songs of praise in English. Before this encounter while in Israel she noticed many Chinese spoke fluently in English and she desired deeply in her heart to be competent in this language. The Lord graciously gave her new words like “rain”,” “worship”, “bless Fire” and “follow me.” She spoke all these new English word without knowing its meaning.

Ps Thian commented that “the word of God is signs and wonders. If there are no signs and wonders you cannot go very far. So don’t belittle the signs and wonders. We need to learn and able to perform signs and wonders.” Pastor Thian concluded that the teaching about signs and wonders is the hallmark of CKRM.

Ps O.K. Thian who is our Advisor for CKRM Leadership Malaysia shared yesterday in our Joshua Camp that he is so privilege and excited that God has chosen him to work with us in this new Auditorium project as an Architect.

The Lord led a very senior minister who is a PhD holder and his wife to our Joshua Camp. A senior minister in healing and deliverance ministry, he is a certified and licensed as ordained minister by Covenant Ministries International, Inc USA. He said that “many people may not know the implication of signs & wonders but these are the last days of the outpouring. He looked forward to working with us in the healing & deliverance ministry."

Bishop Rev Dr Akintunde the President and Founder of The Weight of His Glory International Ministries, in Lagos Nigeria who has travelled widely around the world shared how God can use us more than He is using us now. In our lives we are vessels to God. 2 Timothy 2: 20-26 says that God wants to use us but we must be clean. He further preached that in Luke 6:27-28 the Lords expect our lives to be different from others. When our hearts are purified completely, then we are special to the Lord. Bishop Joseph a man of God who is sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit affirmed that we should not reject the new spiritual things that the Lord is doing in churches today. On the last day of the Camp he preached about the fullness of God to the campers like the mind, the power, the wisdom, the nature, the pattern of God, the character, etc. This means what makes God to be God was all found in Christ himself. When love is in our hearts, then we will have revelations from God.

In conclusion, Bishop Joseph Rev Dr Joseph Akintunde told us to expect a new beginning after this Camp. The Lord would release a new strength in us, so do make a new covenant with Jesus. When there is a covenant from our hearts, expect to see great miracles to happen. We must make up our minds to follow God even though we cannot see Him. People become very afraid if they have not seen new moves of God before. Even when the speaking of tongues started in the 60s, the churches took more than 10 years to accept that speaking in tongues are biblical and it is from God. We need to know the truth so that the truth will set us free (John 8:32).

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.305134439508850.78505.207015185987443&type=1 (Photos)

Being involved with some building projects and properties in Malacca and Kuala Lumpur in the 90s, I would never have imagined that the Lord would bring me back from Singapore to Malacca again to develop properties. After all, I had left the development industry after selling my 50% shares in a company that owned a high rise commercial office building in 2002.

In 2004, the Lord gave me a vision of a beautiful Auditorium with a very large seating capacity. I felt that this was for Malacca as I recalled that Lord said to me in 2003 that revival is coming to Malacca.

I had an extreme encounter while attending a short course in California in 2004. This experience was something like Apostle Paul's Damascus Road Encounter with God. After the course ended, the President of the Seminary invited me for lunch. He shared with me that the Lord has put a burden on his heart to set up a training center in Kuala Lumpur. After that, I shared with him the vision I had received as well as a word given to me by the Lord that there would be a revival in Malacca 500 years after the Portuguese came to Malacca in 1511. Malacca was the old entry point for Christianity through the Portuguese.

I thought it was a divine appointment to meet with this man of God who has the experience, connection and the resources to build the Auditorium which was the reason we visited Malacca together few years ago. After the visit he set up a leadership training center in Malacca.

The Lord sent me & Ps Esther to Malacca in 2009. We came with so much passion to build a supernatural training center. The Lord then told us to cut off contacts with our past associates and He closed all doors in order to put us in the Potter's house to reshape the clay in His hand. At the end of 2010, He revealed that it was time to re-establish contact with my past associates and permitted me to contact my old development partner, Bro Gabriel Eng. Bro Gabriel Eng and I had a joint venture in the development of the 'Legenda Condominium' project in the 90s (Photographs of Building & Penthouse Conference Room).

It is through this molding period that I realize that the vison of building an Auditorium is actually for me to fulfill.

I had my doubt when the Lord told me that my ex-developing partner is now a Christian so when I met him, I was indeed surprised that this 'Temple Towkay' has become a God-chaser. It is indeed true to what the Lord has told me.

In the 90s, we were partners pursuing fame, status and money but today, He put us together to faithfully serve in His kingdom. The Lord said that how He had used us in the natural way, He is now going to use us in the supernatural way. In the 90s, we trusted in chariots and horses, but today we trust in the name of the Lord our God.

With both of us now young in faith and full of fire, zeal and love for our Lord Jesus, we are both so willing to dedicate our lives to the Lord and also to dedicate our properties for His ministries. Recently, the Lord puts a burden on Bro Gabriel Eng's heart concerning a certain ministry. When Bro Gabriel shared with me about the burden, the Lord then brought my memory to the vision given to me about the beautiful Auditorium. Now I could understand now that the Lord has called both of us to build His kingdom and to promote greater unity among brothers and sisters in Christ.

The Lord has prepared us well in past development where we have acquired the skill, resources and connection to do the task that He has given to us. As in Isaiah 55:8, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways" declares the Lord.

The 8th Joshua Camp marks a new beginning of CKRM ministry in Malacca.

After completing six Joshua Camp in Malacca and one at CKRM Petaling Jaya, the Lord has begun to reconcile significant servant of God like Rev Mary Eu ( Liu Tsai Fang ) to CKRM. Rev Mary Eu is currently the senior pastor in charge of Singapore Christian Prayer House ( SCPH ). She is now leading the Tuesday 9.30 am Christ Kingdom’s prayer group at CKRM Singapore. Besides Rev Mary Eu, the Lord has brought anointed preachers like Bishop Dr Joseph Akintunde and Prophet John O Temple to connect with CKRM. Dr Joseph Akintunde used to conduct seminars & meetings at our Manhattan House, Singapore in 2004.

In this coming 8th Joshua Camp , Ps Paul Ang will be sharing on 3 important topics:

i)   Ministering Fire Anointing

ii)  What do Manifestations mean quoting Scriptural references and with demonstration of the Word
      in signs & wonders (Mark 16:20 "And they went out and preached everywhere, the Lord working
      with them and confirming the word through the accompanying signs.")

iii) Spiritual Weapons

Manifestation of the Holy Spirit as per the link below:-

http://www.ckrm.org/?p=3310

It is time to usher in our King of Glory into Malacca. Psalms 24 “Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The LORD strong and mighty, the LORD mighty in battle. Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The LORD of hosts, He is the King of glory. Selah.” It is time to come as one Body of Christ so that His will be done in this city. 1 Chronicles 12:32 says “And of the children of Issachar, which were men that had understanding of the times, to know what Israel ought to do; the heads of them were two hundred; and all their brethren were at their commandment.”By having spiritual discernment and putting our differences aside let us put our hands on the plough and labour together for the coming King of glory.

Are you desperate to experience the Lord? Experiencing personal spiritual dryness? Wants to be baptized by the Holy Spirit and fire? Do sign up for the coming Joshua Camp. To avoid disappointment please sign up early as only limited places are available at the moment. God Bless.

On 1.11.2005, Rev Mary Eu (a.k.a Liu Tsia Fang) commissioned the opening of our place for the 1st Prayer Meeting with about 95 people including pastors and Church leaders attending the meeting.

Thereon, there were storms and trials. "A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out ..." (Matthew 12:20).

Now, exactly 6 years later on 1.11.11, HE brought Rev Liu Tsia Fang back. God is humorous. Who can understand our God? No one could as His ways and thoughts are higher than our ways and thoughts (Isaiah 55:8).

The venue for Christ Kingdom's Prayer Meeting is held at CKRM Singapore every Tuesday at 9.30 am with address as follows:-

Manhattan House #16-01/02 (Penthouse)
151 Chin Swee Road,
Singapore 169876.

CKRM and Singapore Christian Prayer House (SCPH) will be jointly organizing event i.e overnight year end prayer retreat at CKRM Singapore (29.12.11 to 1st January 2012). Will provide more information in due course.

顺服至死，且死在十字架上

11/6/2011 ，置身在马六甲CKRM 事工中心，独自一人躺在床上想着明天俊祥（Elisha）和惠义（Joann）的婚宴要穿那一件衣服？想啊想啊，不知怎的却睡着了。迷迷糊糊中好像听见Joann 的声音 唤着Mummy。。。 我本能的回应“来了”，接着是晴天霹雳的大叫一声“啊哟！痛啊！”

我疼得大喊大叫，跌坐在地板上大哭。。。。

我知道我的脚伤得很重，无法站立起来。好疼。。。。。

我怎么了？发生了什么事？神啊！为什么会发生这样的事？我在哪里出了差错？哪里得罪了祢？？？祢在管教我？？神啊！祢是有恩典，有怜悯的。求祢恩待我，向我显明我的罪， 好让我有机会悔改！神啊。。。。。

主啊！我很痛啊！承受不了，不要丢弃我，不要不理我，求祢恩待我，显明我的罪。我不知道问题出在哪里？不知道那里得罪了祢？不要向我转脸，神啊。。。。。。。

在剧烈疼了一段时间后，只要不移动身体，似乎就不太痛了。比较安静不疼的时候，神带领我到 彼得前书2:13-22 （你们为主的缘故，要顺服。。。。。。他并没有犯罪，口里也没有诡诈）。我在灵里觉得祂在回答我说我并没有在任何地方得罪祂。感谢主！知道自己没有得罪神，我非常喜乐！

但问题是，若没得罪神，无端端的为什么会发生这种事呢？忽然想起明天的婚宴。。。神啊，对不起，我知道祢已把我分别为圣，不要为世俗的一切忧虑，明天的婚宴肯定不能出席了。是祢的心意，我顺服就是了，愿祢的旨意成就，愿祢得满足，得荣耀！

我也要求牧者领袖为我祷告，寻求神到底要向我启示什么。还记得保罗牧师回复我说：“You are suffering for your Calling （你在为你的呼召受苦）” 之后，我垦求神医治我。当我求问神要如何医治我时，神感动我去禁食祷告三天，我只好顺服。当所有人都去了Elisha 和Joann的婚宴，我却独自一人留在中心禁食祷告。

感谢主！三天过去了，我的伤也康复得七七八八了。第四天（15/6/2011）更能自由活动，上下楼梯，也能照顾自己。Gloria 姐妹也领受到神的感动，觉得可以放心回新加坡了。隔天，星期五，伤势已无大碍也近乎全好了的我，更恢复平日的事工，服事来参加小组的肢体。

星期六当天，我回返了CKRM 八打灵再也。我不但能自己提行李箱爬上三楼，更能自由地在“Healing in His Wings”事工中服事。星期天（19/6/2011）早上，感觉上应该是完全康复了。我在完全不疼痛的情形下独自步下楼梯前往机场搭机回返新加坡。我怎么也没想到就在回返新加坡的路途上，脚突然剧烈的开始疼痛！到了樟宜机场，那疼痛更是加剧到无法承受而必须以轮椅代步。

隔天 （20/6/2011）我到诊疗所检查。医生说没有骨折，大概是筋扭伤了。照了X-光后就让我回家去。第三天（22/6/2011），诊所突然来电要我马上入院就医，原因是X-光片显示我有骨折。到了医院，医生在检验了我和X-光片后建议我立刻动手术，因我的情况实属严重性的。医生也为我在这十一天里在马来西亚能到处行动自如，再从吉隆坡机场回到樟宜机场感到大惑不解，以为我在说梦话，更坚持我一定要赶快动手术。

对医生的建议我感到不知所措。自从2003年奉献服事主以来，平日若有任何伤风感冒，除了主耶稣大医生以外，我不大愿意拜访其他医生。当时的我可慌透了，唯有向神祷告。求神显明祂的旨意，是否通过动手术的方法来医治我？还是。。。。

在寻求主的过程中，我发现不论答案是“是”与“否”，神的恩膏都不断地浇灌在我身上。我根本无法分辨什么才是神的旨意。最后我唯有学基甸以羊毛干湿为证的寻求方式（士6:36-40）来决定。我后来拒绝了医生的建议，决定不动手术。医生感到非常意外，以为我的脑子出了问题，便致电Jitson 来说服我不动手术的危险。我向Jitson 解释，我不是不愿动手术，也不是不知道不动手术的危险性。但因寻求了神，答案显示这是祂的心意，我不敢也不愿违背祂的旨意。我更相信我的生命是属神的，祂会保护我，医治我。Jitson听了我的解释后也同意我的决定。最后我要求医生给我三天的时间，若情况依然没有好转，我便回来动手术。在医生的建议下，Elizabeth 姐妹买了一张轮椅要我以此代步。

神非常恩待我。在等候祂超自然医治的日子里，祂除去了我一切的疼痛。我非常的感恩。

28/6/2011， 我带着满怀希望和兴奋的心情回到医院复诊。但、再一次X-光的检验结果是我必须动手术！在那一刻，我的心就如大石般的往海底沉。我感到非常的伤心和失望。脑海中浮现的尽是无数个问号！这到底是怎么一回事？我到底在做什么？神又到底在做什么？我经历了那么多不知所措等候的日子，又是为了什么?

29/6/2011，手术后我哭了一场。不知是为身体的痛而哭，还是为神为何如此待我而哭？？记得在痛中我对祂说:-“我没有要求祢一定要以超自然的方式医治我，我只是要顺服祢所以寻求祢的心意。祢指示我禁食祷告，不找中医，我以为祢要医治我。

在新加坡，祢指示我不要动手术。虽明知会有生命危险，世人认为我愚拙，拿自己的生命开玩笑。但我信靠祢，拒绝医生的规劝，我以为祢要医治我。

通过祢的仆人指示我到医院动手术，我当然听从祢的。但、我觉得很委屈、不明白。既然这是祢医治我的方式，那为何允许我走那么多冤枉路？

诚然，祢是我的主，祢有完全的主权，我的生命是属于祢的。所以，我选择不再问你为什么。只求祢赐给我更多力量，恩典去承受这一切，保守我永远不发怨言。主啊！我选择对祢说谢谢。为这次的意外谢谢祢，为这手术感谢祢！我还要对祢说，我要继续奔跑祢给我的路，为祢的名打那美好的仗， 阿门！”

就这样我在医院安静休养，常常喜乐，向主高歌，不论环境如何，。。。。。。常常祷告，耐心等候，主做事有定时，流泪撒种必欢呼收割。。。。这首诗歌成了我的良药益友。。。。。

我在心里默默的哼着:-

主啊我到祢面前，献上我的今天，我的生命，我的一切，献上当着活祭，我与祢同钉十架，如今不是我活着。。。。乃是基督在我里面活着，主啊！我只为祢而活。。。。。不知不觉地我竟然不受控制的哭了起来。还惊动了护士以为发生什么事。

15/7/2011，清晨两点多，我忽然在睡梦中乍醒，感到主的同在非常强。。。是主！祂来了。。。“顺服至死，且死在十字架上，尊贵荣耀为你的冠冕”听到主这温柔的声音，我不禁泣不成声。。。接着而来的是从 11/6/2011开始所发生一幕幕的情景不断地涌现在我眼前。。。从马六甲。。。到新加坡。。。动手术。。。。

还有休养期间Janet 姐妹有一天跑到病房来对我说神感动她要把 路加福音4:3-12节的经文给我。就是主耶稣在出来服事之前被引到旷野受魔鬼的三个试探的经文。紧接着是Elizabeth 姐妹在30/6/2011 来探访我时对我说的一番话。她说：“just as I enter the ward, the Lord said Ps Esther has passed the test, and the anointing came upon her。当时的我听得一头雾水，只回应她“Test? What Test?”后就不了了之了。此刻，这一幕幕都浮现在脑海里。。。。。

现在我终于明白了！原来所经历的这一切都是神把我引到旷野来考验我！哈利路亚，赞美主！原来是这么一回事！是的，天怎样高过地，照样，祢的道路高过我们的道路；祢的意念高过我们的意念（赛55:9）。谁能明白你无限的慈爱，谁能了解你无穷的知慧？没有！一个也没有！

两三天后，在灵修时，当我读到创世记12:2-3 我必叫你成为大国。我必赐福给你，叫你的名为大；你也要叫别人得福。 为你祝福的，我必赐福与他；那咒诅你的，我必咒诅他。地上的万族都要因你得福时， 神的恩膏忽然大大的浇灌下来，我知道神在对我说话。。。。。

这让我想起了在2003年中，时候到了，是兑现对神的承诺，辞去工作奉献与神了。本可向公司领取一笔可观的裁员费，但我领受主要我放弃这笔可观的数目。我挣扎了一段时日后终于抵不过主望着我那忧伤的眼神而决定放弃那笔钱。当时还被同事、亲友们冷嘲热讽，说我傻有钱都不要、嫌钱多不如拿来分给他们等等的。。。后来主对我说祂要赐给我亚伯拉罕的祝福。老实说，当时的我并不明白何谓“亚伯拉罕的祝福”，过后也就忘了这回事。

2006 年当神命令我和Ps Paul 配搭时，因着保守的思想和成长的背景，我痛苦的挣扎好一段时间。有一天，神让我想起在菲利宾宣教时，祂把Esther这个名赐给我。我想，Esther 是为她的民族捨命的，那神把我改成这名就是要我为祂的福音捨命！哎哟哟。。。。。想啊想啊的不尽又泪如雨下。。。算了，死就死吧！我决定顺服祂的命令与Ps Paul 配搭。此后，神再一次的提醒我，祂赐给我的是“亚伯拉罕的祝福”，也赐下经文要我去读创世记12章，我才更进一步的了解这祝福的意义。

现在 祂又再一次的提醒我，坚定祂对我的应许。这是第三次了，感谢祢阿爸父！回首多年来的风雨路，除了感恩，也还是感恩。

主啊，我要对祢说：


我不知道前面还有多少捆锁于患难要面对，我选择顺服祢。不以性命为念，也不看为宝贵，只要行完我的路程，成就我从主所领受的职事，证明神恩惠的福音。

有一天当时后满足时，愿我能像使徒保罗所说的一样“那美好的仗我已经打过了，当跑的路我已经跑尽了，所信的道我已经守住了。还有主啊，求祢也为我持守祢所赐 给我那尊贵荣耀的冠 冕。阿门！”
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Obedient to Death: Lord, Thank You for the Fall

On 11 June, 2011, while lying on the bed, thinking of what to wear for Elisha & Joann wedding lunch reception, I dozed off. I seem to hear Joann’s voice, calling me “Mummy...” I answered “coming”, and within a split second, I fell from my bed, and I shouted:”Ayo! Very pain!” … and started to cry.

I knew the seriousness of my leg injury, as I was not able to stand, and I felt excruciating pain….

Many thoughts flashed through my mind:-” What happened?”, “Oh Lord, why this thing happened?” “Have I done something wrong?”, “Are you disciplining me?”, “You are a God of mercy and grace, please reveal to me my sins, so I have a chance to repent!” ….”Oh Lord, I’m in pain! I can’t bear it, do not forsake me. I don’t know where the problems lies, nor, which area have I sinned against you. Please do not turn your face away from me. Have mercy on me...”

So long as I don’t move, the pain was still bearable. As I quiet myself, the Lord prompted me to read 1 Peter 2:v13-22 (Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake …..He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth). I felt in my spirit, the Lord is responding to my earlier questions, that I have not committed any sin that resulted in this fall. I felt better.

If I did not sin against God, why this thing happened? Suddenly, I thought of tomorrow’s wedding lunch reception. I repented before the Lord, as the Lord has set me apart, and He does not want me to worry about worldly matters. I told the Lord if it’s His heartbeat, I’m willing to will obey Him, and not attend tomorrow’s wedding lunch reception. His will be done, and He be glorified.

I asked the Pastor and leaders to pray for me, and seek the Lord for revelation. I remembered Ps. Paul replied: “You are suffering for your Calling”. Then I asked the Lord to heal me, and I felt He wanted me to fast and pray for 3 days. So I obeyed. While everyone went to Elisha and Joann wedding lunch reception, I was alone at the CKRM Malacca Centre, fasting and praying.

Thank God! I felt I have more or less, recovered. On the 4th day (15 June, 2011), I was able to move freely, climbing the stairs, and even able to look after myself. Sis Gloria felt the Lord impressed upon her heart, she could now go back to Singapore. The following day (i.e. Friday), I was able to resume my daily activities, and even ministered to the members who came for the cell group meeting.

On Saturday, I returned to CKRM PJ. Not only could I carry my luggage to 3rd floor, I was able to minister at “Healing in His Wings”. On Sunday (19 June, 2011) morning, I felt as if I have fully recovered. I could walk down the flight of stairs on my own, without any pain, to the airport. However, I never expect on my way to Singapore, I began to feel the pain on my leg. The pain became so unbearable, that I had to be on wheel chair.

The next day (20 June, 2011), I went to the clinic for check-up. The doctor said there was no fracture, but I may have hurt my nerve. After x-ray, I was allowed to leave. However, 3 days later, I received a call from the clinic. The x-ray showed I have fractured my bone, and they wanted me to make a trip to the hospital immediately. After going through the x-ray, the doctor explained my condition was extremely serious, and recommended I should be operated immediately. Not only was the doctor puzzled, but felt I was talking nonsense, when he learned of my moving around in Malaysia for 11 days, and from Kuala Lumpur airport to Singapore Changi airport. The doctor further insisted I should be operated immediately.

I was quite lost. Since I dedicated myself to the Lord in 2003, it’s the Lord who healed me of my flu/cold, as I’m not quite willing to see the doctor. At that time, I began to panic. All I could do is to turn to the Lord, and seek His will if I should go for the operation.

However, regardless of whether the answer was a “Yes”, or, a “No”, I could feel His anointing upon me. I could not tell what God’s will was for me. The last resort was to use the “Gideon’s method” of using the wool fleece (Judges 6:v36-40) to seek God’s direction. I decided to turn down the doctor’s advice, and not to go for the operation. The doctor was quite taken aback, and thought I was “crazy”. He doesn’t permit me to leave. Instead he called Jitson to come and persuade me to go for the operation. I explained to Jitson that it’s not that I’m not willing to go for the operation, nor do I not know of the dangers of not operating. But I have sought the Lord, and got the answer, I dare not, nor am I willing to go against His will. I have a stronger conviction my life belongs to the Lord, that He will protect and heal me. Jitson agreed with what I said. I asked the doctor to give me 3 days. If my condition did not improve, I will come back for the operation. At the doctor’s advice, Sis Elizabeth bought me a wheelchair, as the doctor classified my case as “urgent” and “dangerous”, he advised I need complete rest, and not walk.

I’m thankful to God, who took away my pain, while I wait upon Him to heal me supernaturally.

On 28 June, 2011, I went to the hospital with great anticipation. However, the x-ray showed I still need to go for operation. At that moment, I was extremely disappointed, and I felt as if my heart was like a big rock sinking into the bottom of the sea. Many thoughts and questions flood my mind! I just wondered what’s going on. What am I doing? And what was God doing? If I need to go for operation, why didn’t He reveal to me right from the beginning?

29 June, 2011, I wept after the operation. But I just did not know the reason….was it because of the physical pain? Or, why is the Lord treating me in such a manner? I remembered I told the Lord while I was in pain, “I’m not asking You to heal me supernaturally, I just want to obey you, and so I sought You. I thought You wanted to heal me, when You prompted me not to go to the Chinese Traditional doctor, but to fast and pray.

In Singapore, You prompted me not to go for operation. Though I knew the danger of not going for the operation and though people think I’m foolish, playing with my own life. Yet I trust in You, and rejected the doctor’s advice, thinking You will heal me.

You used Your servant to tell me to go for the operation, I surely listen. But I felt aggrieved. Even if you want to heal me by going through the operation, why do you want me to go through many unnecessary processes?

No matter what, You are my Lord, and You have full sovereignty over me, and my life belongs to You. Though I may not understand why this happen, from now on, I choose not to pursue this. Instead, I only ask You grant me more strength and grace to go through this journey. Preserve me that I will not complain. Oh Lord! I choose to give thanks. Thank you for the fall. Thank you for the operation! I also choose to continue to run the race, and fight the good fight for Your name, amen!”

After this, I was able to quietly recuperate, and while in hospital, the song “Rejoice Always” (常常喜乐) became my source of strength…. “Rejoice always, sing praises to the Lord, not matter what the situation is ….. pray always, wait patiently, God has a time for everything … those who sow in tears will reap with songs of harvest...”

I also hummed the song “Oh Lord, I come before You (主啊我到祢面前)… present to You this day, my life, my all, as a living sacrifice, together we nailed on the cross, now it is not I who live … but Christ that lives in me, Oh Lord! I only live for you ……” unknowingly, I busted into uncontrollable tears, and the nurses were puzzled.

July 15, 2011, at 2 a.m., I was awakened from my sleep, and felt the presence of God very strong … it’s the Lord! He’s here …”Obedience to death, death on the cross, crown you with glory and honour “. Hearing this gentle voice of the Lord, I was chocked with tears … The Lord brought my memories back to 11 June, 2011, beginning from the fall … one scene after another … from Malacca … to Singapore … to operation scene ….

While I was recuperating in the hospital, Sis Janet run up to my ward. She told me the Lord prompted her to pass the bible verse of Luke 4:v3-12 to me. It is about our Lord being tested in the wilderness, before He began His ministry. Next, Sis Elizabeth came to visit me on 30 June, 2011 (a day after my operation). She told me, “Just as I entered the ward, the Lord said Ps Esther has passed the test, and the anointing came upon me”. My responds to her at that moment was, “Test? What test?” Then, I just brush this aside.

Now I understand! All the experiences are the tests the Lord had for me! Hallelujah, praise the Lord! Yes, “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are Your ways higher than our ways and Your thoughts than ours” (Isaiah 55:v9). Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom, who can fathom the depth Your love? No! Not one!

2 to 3 days later, while doing my quiet time, I was reading Genesis 12:v2-3 “I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you”. The anointing came upon me very strong, and I knew the Lord was speaking to me …..

This reminded me of an incident in 2003. It was time for me to keep my promise to the Lord, to resign from my job and go into fulltime serving the Lord. I was to be given the early retirement package, which involves quite a large sum of money. However, I felt the Lord wanted me to forego this. I struggled for a while. But when I saw the Lord looking at me with a very sad expression, I decided to forego the money. Not only my colleagues, but my relatives were quite sarcastic to me, making comments that I’m silly not to take the money, and if I find I have got so much money, I might as well distribute the money among them etc…. Later the Lord told me He will give me the “Abrahamic Blessings” (blessings according to God’s covenant with Abraham). Honestly, at that time, I did not understand what this “Abrahamic Blessings” was all about, and I forgot about it.

In 2006, when the Lord commanded me to pair up with Ps Paul for Ministry, I struggled for a long while. This was due to my conservative thinking and upbringing. One day, the Lord reminded me of the incident while I was on a mission trip to Philippine. He gave me the name “Esther”. I remembered in the book of “Esther”, Queen Esther was willing to sacrifice her life, so as to save the people. So when the Lord gave me this name, He wants me to be willing to sacrifice my life for the gospel! While pondering over this…. I wept uncontrollably…..forget it, if I have to die for the gospel, I just have to! I decided to obey the Lord’s command, and pair up with Ps. Paul as ministering partner. Thereafter, the Lord reminded me again, He will give me the “Abrahamic Blessings”, and wanted me to read Genesis 12. I began to understand bit by bit, the significance of this blessing.

Once again, the Lord reminded me, and affirming His promise to me for the third time. Thank you Abba Father! Looking back at the years of trails and tribulation, I could only give thanks to Him.

Lord, I want to tell you:

"Thank you for the call upon my life as per Luke 18:29-30 Jesus said, 'No one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age and in the age to come, eternal life' and Matthew 19:12, '.... others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven...'

I do not know what’s ahead of me, but I choose to obey You. I consider my life worth nothing to me, all I want is to finish the journey, complete the task You have given - the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace."

One day, when my time is up, may I be like Apostle Paul, to be able to say “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now, there is in store for me the crown of righteousness." Amen!

Ps Esther Yap
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Footnote:
Ps Paul Ang invited Rev Mary Eu of Singapore Christian Prayer House through Sis Gloria to come to CKRM Singapore for a reunion after an absence of more than 4 years. We could not have a fellowship earlier because the Lord's heartbeat was to place our priority to concentrate and focus on the ministry that He has called us.