我寻求神已经许多年。我在美国居住了十年，也参加过很多不同恩膏层次的基督聚会。我去过很多有深度教导的教会也参与美好的团契，但我还是觉得缺少一些什么! 神奇妙的将我带回新加坡。在新加坡时, 神开始使用我服事那些无家可归的人。我问神我该为他们做些什么。我开始给他们吃的, 给他们一个居所, 给他们穿的, 教他们怎么吃甚至清洗他们的衣服。为他们做了这些后, 他们隔天又回到街头如箴言 26:11 (愚昧人行愚妄事，行了又行，就如狗转过来吃他所吐的) 。

经过十天的祷告后, 我对神说∶“主, 我感到无助并且不能做些什么。” 我还求神拯救他们，因我尝试和他们一起生活以改变他们的习惯，但是效果都不长久。我觉得这些都在我能力之外。我所学过的神学和一套处事的方法，最终都失败。我觉得我对他们真是毫无办法。神开始对我说这些人需要 “内在医治”。他们需要从里到外的被改变而不是从外面开始。神开始给我启示和亮光, 在人不能的事对神而言是凡事都能。（撒迦利亚4:6他对我说：这是耶和华指示所罗巴伯的。万军之耶和华说：不是倚靠势力，不是倚靠才能，乃是倚靠我的灵方能成事)。他们必须被圣灵充满才能得释放。不管那人是个渺小或杰出的传道人或神的仆人都不重要，因为唯有通过圣灵才能使这不可能的事被成就。阅读了使徒们在使徒行传的作为, 我觉得我们至高无上的神能做的是充充足足，远远超乎这些神迹奇事。我们的神超乎万有，也唯有神的大能能改变这些无家可归和穷困的人。我问∶“神, 我要去哪里寻找祢，以便得着这能力来改变这局面?”

在恳切寻求神时, 神叫我去找在新加坡的保罗牧师。我带着非常兴奋的心情去找他。但当我抵达新加坡CKRM时, 我诧异的得知保罗牧师已经前往马六甲了。我说∶“神, 我立志到马六甲寻求祢。并且要与祢所指定的仆人会面”。因为他(保罗牧师) 已经去了马六甲所以我也千里迢迢去到马六甲CKRM。

这是我第一次看到牧师在服事时用 “鞭子” (以赛亚书 10:26),“大卫的石子”(撒母耳记上 17:50),“属灵的宝剑”(希伯来书 4:12),“锤子”(耶利米书 23:29),“飞箭”(哈巴谷書3:11),。我不明白为什么牧师用这些东西。当保罗牧师用“鞭子”鞭在我身上时, 我开始笑个不停并且不知道这笑能使我从忧郁中得释放。我笑了好几个礼拜甚至睡觉时都在笑! 在外时，人们看到我对着自己傻笑都忍不住取笑我。我现在明白我们需要运用属灵武器才能在很短的时间里使一个人得着释放，好让神能有效的使用那人。

主的喜乐 (尼希米记 8:10) 使我从忧郁中得释放并且医治我灵里深处的'内在伤痛'。

这些武器也用来装备神的子民成为祂的军队。在被神的恩膏装备后, 我发觉自己在服事时大有能力也很快的看到效果。有一次, 我为脚上长了大疮的人祷告, 那疮神奇般的被医治了。圣灵甚至赐我智慧。当我愿意献上自己踏出去，祂便会彰显祂的医治大能。

我们从浸泡在神同里在所领受的必需用来荣耀祂! 神要祂的子民带着祂的大能来释放有需要的人，好叫祂的荣耀能透过这些器皿被彰显出来。以賽亚书 61:1 (主耶和华的灵在我身上；因为耶和华用膏膏我，叫我传好信息给谦卑的人（或译：传福音给贫穷的人），差遣我医好伤心的人，报告被掳的得释放，被囚的出监牢)。与神同行的道路变得多姿多彩。而事奉祂是我所可慕的。除了灵里对神已更敏锐和能听见祂的声音, 我还在马六甲CKRM继续地向祂学习。

神正在马六甲的后院装备祂的子民。将一切荣耀赞美归给祂!
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牧师的留言

司徒文朝长老每个星期六开车从新加坡到马六甲参加CKRM的权能事工已经有两三个月了。除了两三次在新加坡有事工,他都不曾缺席。神满足他的渴慕,复兴和恢复并提升他和他可爱的妻子Simone到更高的恩膏层次好让他们能事奉祂。赞美神! 昨天, 感谢司徒文朝长老接送以斯帖牧师的家人和以利沙弟兄来出席星期六在马六甲CKRM的聚会。
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I have been seeking God for many years. Having stayed in US for 10 years and having attended many levels of anointed Christian meetings. I went to many churches of great depth in teaching and wonderful fellowship but deep within me I felt there is still something lacking! God strangely pulled me back to Singapore. While in Singapore God began to use me to minister to the people who were homeless. I began to ask God what I should do with them. I began to feed them. Gave them a place of shelter, dressed them, taught them how to eat and even washed their clothes. After doing all these, the next day they went back to the streets, Proverbs 26:11 (As a dog returns to its vomit, so a fool returns to his folly.)

After praying for ten days I said “Lord I felt helpless and could not do anything and I told God to please do to save them. I have tried to live among them, trying to change their habits but all these do not last.” I found all these were beyond my ability. All the theology and methodology that I have leant failed in the end. I found that I didn’t know how to deal with them anymore. God began to speak to me that these people needed “inner healing.” They have to be changed from inside out and not from outside in.” God began to give me the revelation that things which are impossible with men are possible with God. Zechariah 4:6 (Then he answered and spoke to me, saying, This is the Word of Jehovah to Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit, says Jehovah of Hosts. )

An infilling of the Holy Spirit must take place so that they could be set free. It didn’t matter whether one is a small or great preacher or man of God. It’s only through the Holy Spirit that the impossible could be accomplished. Reading what the apostles did in the books of Acts, I felt our supreme God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly beyond all these miracles. Our God is much bigger than these. The homeless, destitute can only be transformed by the Power of God. I told “God where should I go to find you so that I could receive this power to transform the marketplace?”

While seeking God earnestly, God told me to find Pastor Paul Ang in Singapore. With great enthusiasm in my heart I went to find him. To my dismay, when I went to CKRM Singapore, I was told that Ps Paul had left for Malacca. I said “God I will go all the way to seek you and find the man of God you wanted me to meet. He had gone all the way to Malacca!” So I went all to CKRM Malacca.

This was the first time in my life I saw a pastor using “Whip”,” Stone”, “Sword”, “Hammer”, and “Arrows” while ministering. Didn’t understand what and why the pastor was using all this things. When Ps Paul use the “Whip” on me I began to laugh and laugh not knowing the laughing would release me of my depression. I laughed for weeks and even during my sleep! In the marketplace people laughed at me because I looked silly laughing to myself. Now I understand that we need spiritual weapons to set a person free within a short period of time so that God can use the person effectively.

The Joy of the Lord (Nehemiah 8:10) set me free from depression and deep 'Inner Hurts.'

The weapons are also used to empower His people to be armies of God. After receiving the empowerment through God’s anointing I found that I could minister to people with boldness and see results fast. On one occasion when I prayed for the leg of a man with a very bad sore and the sore began to heal miraculously. The Holy Spirit even gave me wisdom and when I availed myself to step forth. He will do the healing.

What we received from God after soaking in His presence we must use it for His Glory! God wants His people to carry His Glory and release His Power to set people free. Isa 61:1 (The Spirit of the Lord Jehovah is on Me; because Jehovah has anointed Me to preach the Gospel to the poor; He has sent Me to bind up the broken-hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound.) My walk with God has become very exciting and serving Him has become my desire. Despite being sensitive to God and able to hear from God, I am still learning from Him in CKRM Malacca. God is empowering His people in the backyard of Malacca. All Glory and Praises to Him!
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Pastor’s Footnote:
Elder Sitoh has been driving from Singapore to Malacca every Saturday to attend the CKRM Power & Prophetic Meeting for 2-3 months now. Except for 2-3 occasions where he has ministry in Singapore, he hardly missed any meeting. God fills his level of hunger, having revived and restored him and his lovely wife, Simone to much higher level of anointing than before to serve Him. Praise God!
Yesterday, thanks to Sitoh for giving a lift to Ps Esther's family & Elisha to attend the Saturday meeting at CKRM Malacca. 
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