耶稣说：我实在告诉你们，人为神的国，撇下房户或是妻子，弟兄，父母，儿女，没有在今世不得百倍，在来世不得永生的。（路加福音18 ：29-30）。。。。。。。他是我所拣选的器皿，要在外邦人和君王并以色列人面前，宣扬我的名。我也要指示他，为我的名必须受许多的苦难。（使徒行传9：15-16）

在这夜深人静的凌晨，在异国的土地上，更想念在新加坡的家人，CKRM的弟兄姐妹。。。。。想啊想不知怎么切哭了。。。也不知哭了多久忽然想起昨天下午 Pastor Paul 问我：神要你翻译的那编见证你做好了吗？翻译好了这篇在新加坡祈祷院的日子，我感触很深，顺手提笔写下心中的感想：

感谢主对我特别的熬炼与塑造，藉身边的人物来磨练我。回顾这一切的发生，我感恩不尽，是祂用苦难来塑造我，以成为祂合用的器皿，太棒了。想起2000年前，您为我们设立的好榜样，是我们学习最完美的目标。您轻看这至至轻的羞辱，忍受一切有形无形的指责，被着承重的十字架，默默走上各各他。为要成就极重无比的荣耀。所以一切的痛苦和屈辱就不足齿了。感谢您给我这美好的经历，好让我能领会当年使徒保罗为什么会说：得赦免其过，遮盖其罪的，这人是有福的。

(罗马书4：7）彼得为什么会说：爱能遮盖许多的罪（彼得前书4：8）主耶稣为什么说：有人打你的右脸，连左脸也转过来给他打。（马太5：39）感谢主为我披戴厚厚的恩典，感谢您对我的拣选，对我的呼召。有谁能明白您无限的慈爱？有谁能测透您无穷的知慧？没有，一个也没有。您要怜悯谁就怜悯谁！您要恩待谁就恩待谁。赏赐的是耶和华，收取的也是耶和华，耶和华是应当称颂的。

主啊，我要对您说：从今以后，我不以性命为念，也不看为宝贵，只要行完我的路程，成就我从您所领受的职事，証明神恩惠的福音。我盼望将来有朝一日，我能象使徒保罗这样说：那美好的仗我已经打过了，当跑的路我已经跑尽了，所信的道我已经守住了。从此以后，有公义的冠冕为我存留。啊们

Pastor Esther Chow

Translation to English

Crown and Righteousness

I tell you the truth," Jesus said to them, "no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age and, in the age to come, eternal life." (Luke 18: 29-30)

“This man is my chosen instrument to carry my name before the Gentiles and their kings and before the people of Israel. I will show him how much he must suffer for my name" (Acts 9: 15-16).

The quietness of daybreak and living in a foreign land, made me miss my family, brothers and sisters in-Christ from CKRM even more ... and the more I thought of them, I began to weep ... I’m not sure for how long, but all of a sudden, I recalled yesterday Ps Paul asked me if I completed the article God wanted me to translate.

After translating the article ‘The Season for me to be at Singapore Christian Prayer House’, I also decided to pen down my thoughts and feelings:

I thank the Lord for His great endurance and for the way He used people around me to mold me. Looking back, I’m really grateful to Him for using trails and hardships to mold me into a vessel for His use. 2000 years ago, not only did the Lord set a great example for us, but He is also our perfect role model. Though faced with all kinds of humiliation and accusation, He did not utter a word. He simply carried the heavy cross all the way to Golgotha, for the ultimate glory of God.

Thus, the pain and humiliation we faced are nothing compared to His. Thank you for such a beautiful experience. It enable me to understand what Apostle Paul said about “Blessed are they whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered” (Romans 4: 7); why did Peter say: Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins (1 Peter 4:8); and why Jesus said: .. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also (Matthew 5:39).

I thank the Lord for His abundant grace, for having chosen me, and for my calling. Who can understand His infinite loving kindness? Who can examine thoroughly His infinite wisdom? Nobody can. He is the one who decides whom He wants to have mercy on and whom He wants to extend grace to. He is the one who rewards and He is also the one who retracts. He is greatly to be praised.

Lord, from today onwards, I do not want to worry nor treasure too much of my life. But what I want is to finish the race you have called me, to testify the gospel of God’s grace. I hope some day; I will be like Apostle Paul saying: I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness. Amen!

Translated by Sis Elizabeth Teo