Before we went to Malaysia, Dorcas and I often prayed together for the trip. God gave us a lot of words and dreams. In one of the dreams, Dorcas saw a huge barrel of high quality oil and she was saying “This is the oil I wanted; clean and pure.” When she shared with me about this dream I told her that oil is the anointing of God and CKRM has such kind of oil. True enough, during the 8th Joshua Camp at CKRM she received a lot of grace and anointing from our Lord.
When we prayed on the plane while flying to Kuala Lumpur, God did not say anything to us but gave Dorcas a vision- which was only a donkey and nothing else. We didn’t understand the meaning of this vision until the first day of the camp.
Ps Paul was sharing with the campers why he chose to be a donkey for Jesus. He shared a testimony given by a man of God who wrote: “Our beloved Jesus went to Jerusalem riding on a donkey. The people took off their clothes and spread them on the road. It was the donkey who walked on the clothes, not Jesus. The donkey was honoured because he carried Jesus. I am like that donkey. People honour me not for my sake but because I preach Christ.”
In 1 Samuel 2:30 the Lord declares, “… Those who honor me I will honor, but those who despise me will be disdained.”
Nebuchadnezzar praised the Most High: “I honored and glorified Him who lives forever.” Then his sanity was restored, his honor and splendor were returned for the glory of his kingdom (Daniel 4:34-36).
When Pastor Paul mentioned donkey in his teaching session, I smiled and said to Dorcas. “Don’t you think that this is the donkey you saw in your vision?”
Today when I read an article from BOB JONES, I was surprised to find that there is also a vision of the donkey in his article. The Lord prompted me to link the donkey with CKRM.
God raised CKRM’s ministry to equip and empower the saints of this generation for the coming end time where the darkness and evil forces will increase greatly on the earth. But in this season, many people could not understand such ministry. Only those who know God’s will and are sensitive to the leading of Holy Spirit will recognize God's work.
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Excerpt from Bob Jone’ vision:
（http://bobjonesnew.unionactive.com/Docs/Shepherd's%20Rods/SR-2008.htm）
“The Burden Bearers
In the next vision Bob saw a donkey that was loaded with supernatural provision essential for this interval of God's Spirit. Interestingly, though the little donkey was loaded with cargo, many people were mocking his appearance. We much remember, it was a lowly donkey that brought the Savior of the world in Jerusalem at the appointed time.
This will be a dangerous time to mock at the vessels God has chosen to bear His Glory, because they will be carrying all that we need to survive in this generation. Many religious leaders of the day had a difficult time comprehending John the Baptist because of his appearance and style. Nevertheless, he was God's messenger providing the essential direction for that season. We cannot afford to not recognize the day of His visitation and miss the tremendous opportunity set before us.
It was John’s directive to prepare a people for the Lord’s coming and restore the inheritance of God's children. The Lord said the spirit and power of Elijah is given to restore all things and turn the hearts of this generation back to God.
This analogy clearly identifies the symbolic nature of the donkey shown in the visions. It is a symbolization of humility and utter dependence upon God demonstrated by those who are trusted with spiritual empowerment. Furthermore, we must develop keen spiritual discernment to recognize their true value and the importance of the provision they carry."
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Pastor' Footnote: Some of the greatest achievements of men have come from the outcast and the greatly misunderstood. The disciples of Jesus who were the unschooled, ordinary men (Acts 4:13) courageously went to storm and change the world preaching the gospel under the anointing of the Holy Spirit.
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负重的驴驹——Sarah Shan 姐妹的见证
在多加姐妹和我预备等候参加第八届约书亚营的日子，我们经常一起祷告，神也给了很多话语和异梦。在多加的一个梦中，她看到大桶的油，并且在梦中说，她要的就是这种油，纯净的油。她跟我分享这个梦的时候，我告诉她油就是恩膏，CKRM就是有这种油的地方。果然，在营会中，她满满地得到了神的恩典和恩膏。
在来吉隆坡的路上，我们在飞机上祷告的时候，神没有对我们说什么，但给了多加一个异像，她看到一个驴。除此什么都没有。我们不明白什么意思。直到在营会第一天 。
保罗牧师向会众分享了为什么他选择做主耶稣的驴驹。他引用了一位神仆人所写的：“我们亲爱的主骑着驴驹进入耶路撒冷。人们脱下衣服铺在地上。是驴驹踩在衣服上而不是耶稣。驴子受此尊荣是因为它驼着耶稣。我就像那头驴，人们尊敬我不是为我的缘故，是因为我在传讲基督。”撒母尔记上2:30主说，“…尊重我的，我必重看他。藐视我的，他必被轻视。”
尼布甲尼撒称颂至高者说：“我便称颂至高者，赞美尊敬活到永远的神。” 他的聪明和荣耀都复归于他。(但以理书4:34-36).
当保罗牧师的分享中讲到了驴时，我笑着对多加说，这就是你在异像中看到的驴吧?
今天我阅读美国先知BOB JONES的文章，惊奇的发现里面也有一段关于驴的异像，我马上想到了CKRM。
神兴起CKRM事工是为了装备这世代的圣徒应对将来到的末后季节，就是那黑暗及邪恶势力前所未有地倾倒在全地的时候。但在这预备的季节，很多人不理解这样的事工，对之嘲笑否定。只有认识神的心意并对圣灵带领敏锐的人，才能认出出于神的事工。
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附BOB JONES文章摘录：
（http://bobjonesnew.unionactive.com/Docs/Shepherd's%20Rods/SR-2008.htm）
“负重者
在下一个异像中，Bob看到一头驴驮着超自然的供应品，这些供应是神的灵间息期所必须的。有趣的是，尽管小驴子满载着货物，很多人却嘲笑它的样子。我们都记得圣经中是一头驴驹驮着这世界的救主进入了耶路撒冷。
在此时嘲笑神所拣选来承载祂荣耀的器皿是很危险的，因为他们携带着这世代存活下去的必需品。很多宗教领袖很难理解施洗约翰的外表和方式。然而，他却是神的使者，指明那个季节的必需方向。如果我们不能认出造访时间，以致错过了摆在我们面前的巨大机会，我们是无法承担其损失的。
约翰的目的是为了主的到来和复兴神的儿女预备百姓。主说要赐下以利亚的灵和能力来复兴万事，使这世代的心回转向神。
这个异像中的比喻清楚地刻画出驴子的象征性品质。象征着被神托付属灵能力的人所具有的谦卑、完全依靠神的品格。而且，我们必须培养敏锐的灵来识别出他们这种真价值以及他们所携带供应品的重要性。“
The Lord has revealed to us that it is time now to proceed with building a large convention centre (Auditorium) with a seating capacity for 5000 people and has also identified His chosen location for the project. The project will include a multi-storey block of service apartments and other facilities in a prime location. It is such a privilege and honour the Lord has given my development, now ministering partner Bro Gabriel Eng and I the task to do something great for Him. Ps O.K.Thian who is the advisor for CKRM Leadership Training Malaysia is the Architect for the project.
Ps Thian was also the Architect for the following projects:-
Stadium Negara – 1983
Full Gospel Assembly Prayer Mountain, Genting Highlands – 1993
Education Block of Holy Light Church, Johor Bahru – 1965
Glad Tidings Church, Petaling Jaya - 1984
Attempt something so great for God, it is doomed to fail unless God be in it as per Psalm 127:1, “Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labour in vain.”
Hence, I would like to share this testimony to give glory to God on how a man full of passion for business and the things of the world could suddenly lost all desires and give up everything to serve the Lord, learning to work with Him under His leading, guidance and protection despite being a young Christian of faith without any formal Theological training. An encounter with Lord Jesus will definitely transform life. Apostle Paul was a great sinner and the worst sinner of all persecuting and killing the disciples of Jesus. The Damascus Road Encounter changed him to a man who was full of zeal and love for Jesus. With this unceasing love he defended the gospel to his last dying days and willing to endure all kind of difficulties without the fear of men but only to obey God.
My encounter with the Lord was in California 2004 when the fire of God struck me like a lightning that swept throughout my entire body. My life was transformed. The fire burns away all the dross of my life and draws me to the first love – Lord Jesus (Zechariah 13:9, Matthew 3:11, Luke 3:16). The love for the Lord eliminates all the fear of men. After that fire encounter, the Lord began to isolate me as He closed all doors of contact with my past friends, cell group members and later even with my mentors in order to put me in the potter’s house to reshape the clay in His hand. It was during this time I was left to focus on Him alone, learning to work with Him as He taught me many things like He isolated and taught Apostle Paul in Arabia for 3 years.
I learn from a great revivalist, Bill Johnson of the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, California and the Bible, never to compromise with men out of fear and I witness and experience how true this is and I see the ministry of God grows without any lack of provisions, resources and funds. Ps Esther and I were being blessed by Bill Johnson in his supernatural school in Redding, California in 2007. We came back to set up CKRM Singapore.
Through these few years of ministry life, I identify myself with the two disciples of Jesus, Peter and John. Peter and John told the religious authority in Acts 4:19-20, “Judge for yourselves whether it is right in God’s sight to obey you rather than God. For we cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard.” And their ministries brought in great salvation.
Peter and John did not submit to the religious authority but they chose to obey God, so neither was Daniel when he did not submit to the King’s decree but rather he chose being put into the Lion’s den.
Bill Johnson quote: "Nebuchadnezzar made a golden image that stood 90 feet high. All in his kingdom were to worhsip this thing. But the Hebrew children would not. There is a distinction between submission and obedience. Sometimes we are to go against the command of our leaders - but even then, only with submissive hearts."
I also learn how King Saul lost his calling because of his fear of men. King Saul was fearful of his men and he did not wait for Samuel to come and offer the burnt sacrifice. As a result, his kingdom could not endure as in 1 Samuel 13:13-14, “You have done a foolish thing,” Samuel said. “You have not kept the command the LORD your God gave you; if you had, he would have established your kingdom over Israel for all time. But now your kingdom will not endure; the LORD has sought out a man after his own heart and appointed him ruler of his people, because you have not kept the LORD’s command.”
The great Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke quote: "True greatness is not bigness or spiritual prominence. It is doing the will of God."
The article through the link below will provide some understanding of my calling:-
The "Fire Anointing" and It's Purpose / 圣火的恩膏及其目的
Being set apart and consecrated for His use, I have become obedient to His voice. Rev Dr Henry Chieng, a Methodist Pastor for more than 25 years and overseeing about 20 Churches as a Superintendent was my college mate in a Chinese Seminary in California. He testified about my absolute uncompromised obedience in an article through this link: http://www.ckrm.org/?p=566
Anyone whom the Lord has ordained and commissioned for a fire ministry has in fact a very controversial ministry where only a few could understand unless they have a similar encounter with the Lord too. My testimony has blessed and encouraged many Christians. Many testified through our website http://www.ckrm.org/ how they witnessed the awesome move of God in our ministry and have been blessed. Praise God!
I share two of their testimonies posted through the link below:-
http://www.ckrm.org/?p=2433 (by Rev Dr Joyce Tai, co-founder of a Seminary School)
http://www.ckrm.org/?p=546 (By Pastor Isaac of a Church in Irvin, California)
The Lord gave me a choice when my life was in a mess, saying that if I am willing to be consecrated and set apart for Him, leaving everything behind and carry the cross and walk with Him, He will make everything perfect in my life. Now, I can witness how true and faithful He is.
All my four children are very close and very supportive of my ministry. Our relationship today is so close compared with my sinful past. My three sons have graduated from Australia. My daughter is in USA, married a very devoted Christian. Elder son, George left his banking career to set up a food business. The business commenced in 2002 and expanded to several countries. I have posted an article about his business vide
http://pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-eldest-son-george-ang-and-his.html
All Glory to our Lord Jesus Christ!
Thank you, Jesus, my Lord and my Saviour. Hallelujah! Amen!
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与主耶稣相遇，生命必得着更新
2011年12月1日的上午，来自数个不同国家的牧师和执事领袖借用了我们在马六甲新装修的迦南园顶层会议厅，主办了一个五重执事退修会。一大清早，牧师和执事领袖们就齐集一堂为着马六甲的复兴来祈祷。以下是我在聚会中的简短分享。我这与神相遇的见证触摸了好些参加聚会的牧师和执事领袖们的心。
主已启示我们，现在正是时候进行一个可容纳五千人聚会的大型会议中心（大礼堂）的建设工程，同时神也确定了祂所选择的建筑位置。该项目将包括一个在地理位置优越，多层服务的公寓，以及其他主要的设施。感谢主的恩典，我和我的发展与服事伙伴Eng弟兄能有这么一个机会为主做大事是何等的耀幸。Thian 牧师是马来西亚CKRM领袖训练的顾问，也是这项目的工程师。
Thian牧师也是下列项目的工程师： -
马来西亚国家体育场 - 1983年
全备福音大会祷告山，云顶高原 - 1993年
圣光教会的教育室，柔佛 - 1965年
报喜教堂，八打灵再也 - 1984年
若无上帝的同在，想要完成这么大的圣工是难以成功的。有如诗篇127:1，“若不是耶和华建造房屋，建造的人就枉然劳力。”
因此，我想分享这个见证来荣耀上帝，就是一个对企业和世事充满热忱的人，如何能够在一瞬间突然失去所有的欲望和放弃一切来事奉主。尽管没有受过任何正式神学训练的一位刚信主不久的基督徒，却在祂的带领，指导和保护下，学习与祂一起工作。与主耶稣相遇，生命肯定会被更新。使徒保罗原是一个迫害和杀害耶稣门徒的大罪人。可是在大马士革路上的遭遇，却改变了他一生，成为一个充满热诚和敬爱耶稣的人。有了这永恒的爱，他愿意忍受各种的困苦，捍卫福音直到死的那天。从来没向人的势力低头，为了只是服从上帝。
2004年在加利福尼亚州，主与我相遇。当时上帝之圣火如闪电般击中我整个身体，就此我的生命完全改变。这圣火烧去了我生命中的老我，并引领我寻着至爱 -- 主耶稣（撒迦利亚书13:9，路加福音3:16，马太福音3:11）。主的爱，能够消除人所有的恐惧。经历过主的圣火后，主开始把我分别为圣，停止我与过去的朋友，细胞小组的成员，甚至我的导师们所有的联系。主在陶匠的家中，用祂的手重新塑造我。就在那个时候，我学习如到何留心独自地专注于祂，学习与祂一起同工。主也在这段时间教会了我许多东西，就如在阿拉伯，祂亲自地教导使徒保罗三年一样。
比尔强生是加利福尼亚州伯特利超自然圣经学校的资深牧师。我从这位伟大的复兴家和圣经上，学习到永不要因为惧怕人而妥协。我见证和经历了神的信实。神事工上的增长，无论供应，资源和资金都完全没有任何缺乏。2007年，比尔强生牧师在加利福尼亚州的超自然学校为我和以斯帖牧师按手祝福后回国，我们便成立了新加坡CKRM。
经过数年的事奉生涯，我效法了耶稣的两个门徒，彼得和约翰。彼得和约翰在使徒行传4:19-20告诉宗教领袖说，“听从你们，不听从神，这在神面前合理不合理，你们自己酌量吧。我们所看见所听见的，不能不说。” 他们的事奉带来了极大的救恩。
彼得和约翰从不向宗教领袖低头，并单单选择了服从上帝。即使是但以里，情愿选择被送进狮子坑里，也不妥协于国王的命令。
比尔强生说：“尼布甲尼撒王建造一座九十英尺高的黄金偶像，命令全国人民来崇拜，但是希伯来人的孩子却不这么做。这就是服从和顺服之间的区别。有时我们违背了我们领导人的命令，即使如此，也只有顺从的心。”
我也从扫罗王如何因着惧怕人而失去神的呼召里学到功课。扫罗王惧怕他的手下，没有等到撒母耳来，就独自献上燔祭。因此，正如在撒母耳记13:13-14所记载的他的王位必不长久。撒母耳对扫罗说，“你作了糊涂事了，没有遵守耶和华你神所吩咐你的命令。若遵守，耶和华必在以色列中坚立你的王位，直到永远。现在你的王位必不长久。耶和华已经寻着一个合他心意的人，立他作百姓的君，因为你没有遵守耶和华所吩咐你的。”
伟大的布道家布永康说：“真正的伟大，并不是权高或灵性的突出，而是遵循神的旨意做事。”
通过以下网页的文章，将使你更清楚神对我的呼召: -
The "Fire Anointing" and It's Purpose / 圣火的恩膏及其目的
除了被分别为圣和奉献于主用之外，我学会如何服从祂的声音。詹立言博士，是一位在卫理公会事奉超过二十五年的牧师，也牧养过将近二十间的教会。他是我在加利福尼亚州参加中文会议时的室友。在一篇网页的文章中，他见证我是一位不折不扣绝对服从于神的人：http://www.ckrm.org/?p=566
任何被委任和按立为神圣火恩高的执事，除非他们有类似感受，否则他们不会明白的。我的见证祝福和激励了许多基督徒。很多蒙受祝福人也通过我们的网站http://www.ckrm.org见证上帝在我们的事工上奇妙的运行和作为。赞美上帝！
以下是我与大家分享的其中两个见证： -
http://www.ckrm.org/?p=2433 （Joyce Tai牧师/博士，学院的创始人之一）
http://www.ckrm.org/?p=546 （加利福尼亚州，欧文教会的以撒牧师，）
当我生活在糜烂时，主给了我一个选择。祂说，如果我愿意奉献和跟随祂，离开一切属世的，背起十字架与祂同行，祂将会让我过着美好的生活。现在，我可以亲眼看到祂是多么的信实。
我有四个孩子，他们都与我很亲密，也非常支持我的事工。我们今天的关系比以前更加密切。我的三个儿子都毕业于澳洲的大学。我的女儿在美国，于一位非常虔诚的基督徒结了婚。长子，乔治离开了银行的工作，成立一家食品企业。该业务在2002年开始发展，并扩展到几个国家。我在以下的网页写下了有关他的业务发展的文章：
http://pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-eldest-son-george-ang-and-his.html
所有的荣耀，都归于我们的主耶稣基督！
谢谢主耶稣基督，我的救主。哈利路亚！阿门！
The 8th Joshua Camp was held on the 2nd December to the 4th December at Canaan Penthouse Conference Hall, Legenda Condo, Klebang Kecil Malacca. The Biblical meaning of number 8 : comes from my understanding that it normally deals with one who abounds in strength. The number eight is also used in reference to fertility. It has also been used when referring to the Resurrection or new beginnings.
Prior to the 8th Joshua Camp a Five Fold Ministers’ Retreat was held at Canaan Penthouse Conference Hall where pastors and leaders from all over the world came to pray for a spiritual breakthrough in Malacca. True to the meaning of eight which refers to a new beginning, the Lord led a group of young boys and girls from Banting and a sister named Docus from Beijing, China to this Camp.
Pastor Paul shared about the importance of Fire Anointing and Spiritual Weapons so that we can be effective disciples of Christ. The new comers received many spiritual gifts when Ps Paul prayed for the impartation of Fire Anointing. Sister Docus who hardly spoke English burst out worshiping our Lord Jesus Christ with songs of praise in English. Before this encounter while in Israel she noticed many Chinese spoke fluently in English and she desired deeply in her heart to be competent in this language. The Lord graciously gave her new words like “rain”,” “worship”, “bless Fire” and “follow me.” She spoke all these new English word without knowing its meaning.
Ps Thian commented that “the word of God is signs and wonders. If there are no signs and wonders you cannot go very far. So don’t belittle the signs and wonders. We need to learn and able to perform signs and wonders.” Pastor Thian concluded that the teaching about signs and wonders is the hallmark of CKRM.
Ps O.K. Thian who is our Advisor for CKRM Leadership Malaysia shared yesterday in our Joshua Camp that he is so privilege and excited that God has chosen him to work with us in this new Auditorium project as an Architect.
The Lord led a very senior minister who is a PhD holder and his wife to our Joshua Camp. A senior minister in healing and deliverance ministry, he is a certified and licensed as ordained minister by Covenant Ministries International, Inc USA. He said that “many people may not know the implication of signs & wonders but these are the last days of the outpouring. He looked forward to working with us in the healing & deliverance ministry."
Bishop Rev Dr Akintunde the President and Founder of The Weight of His Glory International Ministries, in Lagos Nigeria who has travelled widely around the world shared how God can use us more than He is using us now. In our lives we are vessels to God. 2 Timothy 2: 20-26 says that God wants to use us but we must be clean. He further preached that in Luke 6:27-28 the Lords expect our lives to be different from others. When our hearts are purified completely, then we are special to the Lord. Bishop Joseph a man of God who is sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit affirmed that we should not reject the new spiritual things that the Lord is doing in churches today. On the last day of the Camp he preached about the fullness of God to the campers like the mind, the power, the wisdom, the nature, the pattern of God, the character, etc. This means what makes God to be God was all found in Christ himself. When love is in our hearts, then we will have revelations from God.
In conclusion, Bishop Joseph Rev Dr Joseph Akintunde told us to expect a new beginning after this Camp. The Lord would release a new strength in us, so do make a new covenant with Jesus. When there is a covenant from our hearts, expect to see great miracles to happen. We must make up our minds to follow God even though we cannot see Him. People become very afraid if they have not seen new moves of God before. Even when the speaking of tongues started in the 60s, the churches took more than 10 years to accept that speaking in tongues are biblical and it is from God. We need to know the truth so that the truth will set us free (John 8:32).
Being involved with some building projects and properties in Malacca and Kuala Lumpur in the 90s, I would never have imagined that the Lord would bring me back from Singapore to Malacca again to develop properties. After all, I had left the development industry after selling my 50% shares in a company that owned a high rise commercial office building in 2002.
In 2004, the Lord gave me a vision of a beautiful Auditorium with a very large seating capacity. I felt that this was for Malacca as I recalled that Lord said to me in 2003 that revival is coming to Malacca.
I had an extreme encounter while attending a short course in California in 2004. This experience was something like Apostle Paul's Damascus Road Encounter with God. After the course ended, the President of the Seminary invited me for lunch. He shared with me that the Lord has put a burden on his heart to set up a training center in Kuala Lumpur. After that, I shared with him the vision I had received as well as a word given to me by the Lord that there would be a revival in Malacca 500 years after the Portuguese came to Malacca in 1511. Malacca was the old entry point for Christianity through the Portuguese.
I thought it was a divine appointment to meet with this man of God who has the experience, connection and the resources to build the Auditorium which was the reason we visited Malacca together few years ago. After the visit he set up a leadership training center in Malacca.
The Lord sent me & Ps Esther to Malacca in 2009. We came with so much passion to build a supernatural training center. The Lord then told us to cut off contacts with our past associates and He closed all doors in order to put us in the Potter's house to reshape the clay in His hand. At the end of 2010, He revealed that it was time to re-establish contact with my past associates and permitted me to contact my old development partner, Bro Gabriel Eng. Bro Gabriel Eng and I had a joint venture in the development of the 'Legenda Condominium' project in the 90s (Photographs of Building & Penthouse Conference Room).
It is through this molding period that I realize that the vison of building an Auditorium is actually for me to fulfill.
I had my doubt when the Lord told me that my ex-developing partner is now a Christian so when I met him, I was indeed surprised that this 'Temple Towkay' has become a God-chaser. It is indeed true to what the Lord has told me.
In the 90s, we were partners pursuing fame, status and money but today, He put us together to faithfully serve in His kingdom. The Lord said that how He had used us in the natural way, He is now going to use us in the supernatural way. In the 90s, we trusted in chariots and horses, but today we trust in the name of the Lord our God.
With both of us now young in faith and full of fire, zeal and love for our Lord Jesus, we are both so willing to dedicate our lives to the Lord and also to dedicate our properties for His ministries. Recently, the Lord puts a burden on Bro Gabriel Eng's heart concerning a certain ministry. When Bro Gabriel shared with me about the burden, the Lord then brought my memory to the vision given to me about the beautiful Auditorium. Now I could understand now that the Lord has called both of us to build His kingdom and to promote greater unity among brothers and sisters in Christ.
The Lord has prepared us well in past development where we have acquired the skill, resources and connection to do the task that He has given to us. As in Isaiah 55:8, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways" declares the Lord.
As the Bible says, “Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labour in vain …” (Psalm 127:1). Like Moses who was trained and educated in all the wisdom of the Egyptians and Daniel in the Babylonian ways, the Lord has prepared both of us in the business of development and we are honoured that at our present age, He has called us back into the development field to build His kingdom. Praise God!
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“若 不 是 耶 和 华 建 造 房 屋，建 造 的 人 就 枉 然 劳 力 ......”(诗 篇127:1)
自从九十年代参与一些在马六甲和吉隆坡的建设项目后，我从来没有想象到的是，主会把我从新加坡再次带回马六甲来发展建筑的物业。毕竟，我在2002年把一家拥有一座高层商业办公楼的五十巴仙股份销售了，就离开产业发展的行业。
2004年，主在异象中让我看见一个非常美丽且具有很多座位的的大礼堂。我觉得这应该是在马六甲。因为我记得主在2003年曾对我说，复兴将要临到马六甲。
2004年我在加利福尼亚州的一个短期课程里, 有一个非常特殊的经历。这经历就像是使徒保罗在大马士革与神相遇的情景。课程结束后，学院的院长邀请我共进午餐，与我分享有关上帝把在吉隆坡成立训练中心的负担,放在他的心中。之后，我与他分享主给我看到的异象，以及主启示的话，是有关于葡萄牙人在1511年把基督教带入马六甲后的500年，马六甲将会有一个基督大复兴。马六甲是通过葡萄牙人将基督教传入的旧地点。
我认为这是一个神圣的使命，充满着神人所拥有丰富的经验，连系和资源，来兴建礼堂，这就是我们几年前一起参观马六甲的原因。参观结束后，我们在马六甲成立了领袖训练中心。
在2009年主引领我和以斯帖牧师到达马六甲。我们怀着满腔的热忱到来，以建立一个超自然的训练中心为目标。主告诉我们，要我们与过去的联系同工伙伴断决来往和接触。为了要在陶匠的家中用祂的手重新塑造我们，主也亲自关闭所有联络的门户。在2010年底，主透露我可以重新与过去的同工伙伴联系，并允许我联络从前的建设发展伙伴，Gabriel Eng弟兄。在九十年代，Gabriel Eng弟兄和我有一个合资企业，共同发展“Legenda公寓”的建设单位（参阅公寓及会议室的照片）。
正是通过这个塑造的时期，让我意识到，之前在异象中看见的那个富丽堂皇的大礼堂，实际上是主要我去完成的使命。
当主告诉我先前发展建设的合作伙伴是一位基督徒时，我感到疑惑。可是当我见到他的时候，确实使我感到非常惊讶。这位“庙皇老板”已成为一位神的追随者。主所言的确是真实的事。
在九十年代，我们是合作伙伴，只追求名利，地位和金钱。但今天，神把我们联系在一起，忠实地服务于祂的国度。主说祂以往如何在自然界使用我们，现在却要在超自然领域的服事中使用我们。在九十年代，我们信靠的只是战车和马匹，但如今靠的是耶和华- 我们神的名。
我们信主的日子虽短，内心却充满着对主的火热、渴慕及爱。我们不但愿意奉献生命于主，也愿意奉献产业给神作为事工用途。最近，主把某些事工的负担，放在Gabriel Eng弟兄的心中。当Gabriel弟兄与我分享有关的负担时，主再次把我的记忆带回那美丽的礼堂的异象。现在，我能理解到主是要我们建立祂的国度，以及促进兄弟姐妹在基督里更加的团结和灵里合一。
主已在过去的建设发展行业中预备了我们，就是我们已经获得的技能，资源和连系，做祂托付给我们的圣工。在以赛亚书55:8，“耶和华说，我的意念，非同你们的意念，我的道路，非同你们的道路。”
虽然现有的中心还有很多扩大的空间，Gabriel Eng弟兄与我现在却按着主已经启示的土地位置，进行收购来建造礼堂。该策划的概念, 除了大礼堂外，将采纳一些像似黄金地段商业大楼的建设模式，同时也将设有公寓单位。
正如“圣经”说，“若不是耶和华建造房屋，建造的人就枉然劳力......”（诗篇127:1）。就像摩西在智慧的埃及人里, 所接受的训练和教育，以及但以里在巴比伦的环境中，被预备的一样。主也以发展建设的业务来预备了我们。我们感到很荣幸的是，活了大半辈的日子，主竟带领我们回到发展建设的领域，以建立祂的国度。赞美上帝！
The 8th Joshua Camp marks a new beginning of CKRM ministry in Malacca.
After completing six Joshua Camp in Malacca and one at CKRM Petaling Jaya, the Lord has begun to reconcile significant servant of God like Rev Mary Eu ( Liu Tsai Fang ) to CKRM. Rev Mary Eu is currently the senior pastor in charge of Singapore Christian Prayer House ( SCPH ). She is now leading the Tuesday 9.30 am Christ Kingdom’s prayer group at CKRM Singapore. Besides Rev Mary Eu, the Lord has brought anointed preachers like Bishop Dr Joseph Akintunde and Prophet John O Temple to connect with CKRM. Dr Joseph Akintunde used to conduct seminars & meetings at our Manhattan House, Singapore in 2004.
In this coming 8th Joshua Camp , Ps Paul Ang will be sharing on 3 important topics:
i) Ministering Fire Anointing
ii) What do Manifestations mean quoting Scriptural references and with demonstration of the Word
in signs & wonders (Mark 16:20 "And they went out and preached everywhere, the Lord working
with them and confirming the word through the accompanying signs.")
iii) Spiritual Weapons
Manifestation of the Holy Spirit as per the link below:-
http://www.ckrm.org/?p=3310
It is time to usher in our King of Glory into Malacca. Psalms 24 “Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The LORD strong and mighty, the LORD mighty in battle. Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in. Who is this King of glory? The LORD of hosts, He is the King of glory. Selah.” It is time to come as one Body of Christ so that His will be done in this city. 1 Chronicles 12:32 says “And of the children of Issachar, which were men that had understanding of the times, to know what Israel ought to do; the heads of them were two hundred; and all their brethren were at their commandment.”By having spiritual discernment and putting our differences aside let us put our hands on the plough and labour together for the coming King of glory.
Are you desperate to experience the Lord? Experiencing personal spiritual dryness? Wants to be baptized by the Holy Spirit and fire? Do sign up for the coming Joshua Camp. To avoid disappointment please sign up early as only limited places are available at the moment. God Bless.
Thereon, there were storms and trials. "A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out ..." (Matthew 12:20).
Now, exactly 6 years later on 1.11.11, HE brought Rev Liu Tsia Fang back. God is humorous. Who can understand our God? No one could as His ways and thoughts are higher than our ways and thoughts (Isaiah 55:8).
The venue for Christ Kingdom's Prayer Meeting is held at CKRM Singapore every Tuesday at 9.30 am with address as follows:-
Manhattan House #16-01/02 (Penthouse)
151 Chin Swee Road,
Singapore 169876.
CKRM and Singapore Christian Prayer House (SCPH) will be jointly organizing event i.e overnight year end prayer retreat at CKRM Singapore (29.12.11 to 1st January 2012). Will provide more information in due course.
11/6/2011 ，置身在马六甲CKRM 事工中心，独自一人躺在床上想着明天俊祥（Elisha）和惠义（Joann）的婚宴要穿那一件衣服？想啊想啊，不知怎的却睡着了。迷迷糊糊中好像听见Joann 的声音 唤着Mummy。。。 我本能的回应“来了”，接着是晴天霹雳的大叫一声“啊哟！痛啊！”
我疼得大喊大叫，跌坐在地板上大哭。。。。
我知道我的脚伤得很重，无法站立起来。好疼。。。。。
我怎么了？发生了什么事？神啊！为什么会发生这样的事？我在哪里出了差错？哪里得罪了祢？？？祢在管教我？？神啊！祢是有恩典，有怜悯的。求祢恩待我，向我显明我的罪， 好让我有机会悔改！神啊。。。。。
主啊！我很痛啊！承受不了，不要丢弃我，不要不理我，求祢恩待我，显明我的罪。我不知道问题出在哪里？不知道那里得罪了祢？不要向我转脸，神啊。。。。。。。
在剧烈疼了一段时间后，只要不移动身体，似乎就不太痛了。比较安静不疼的时候，神带领我到 彼得前书2:13-22 （你们为主的缘故，要顺服。。。。。。他并没有犯罪，口里也没有诡诈）。我在灵里觉得祂在回答我说我并没有在任何地方得罪祂。感谢主！知道自己没有得罪神，我非常喜乐！
但问题是，若没得罪神，无端端的为什么会发生这种事呢？忽然想起明天的婚宴。。。神啊，对不起，我知道祢已把我分别为圣，不要为世俗的一切忧虑，明天的婚宴肯定不能出席了。是祢的心意，我顺服就是了，愿祢的旨意成就，愿祢得满足，得荣耀！
我也要求牧者领袖为我祷告，寻求神到底要向我启示什么。还记得保罗牧师回复我说：“You are suffering for your Calling （你在为你的呼召受苦）” 之后，我垦求神医治我。当我求问神要如何医治我时，神感动我去禁食祷告三天，我只好顺服。当所有人都去了Elisha 和Joann的婚宴，我却独自一人留在中心禁食祷告。
感谢主！三天过去了，我的伤也康复得七七八八了。第四天（15/6/2011）更能自由活动，上下楼梯，也能照顾自己。Gloria 姐妹也领受到神的感动，觉得可以放心回新加坡了。隔天，星期五，伤势已无大碍也近乎全好了的我，更恢复平日的事工，服事来参加小组的肢体。
星期六当天，我回返了CKRM 八打灵再也。我不但能自己提行李箱爬上三楼，更能自由地在“Healing in His Wings”事工中服事。星期天（19/6/2011）早上，感觉上应该是完全康复了。我在完全不疼痛的情形下独自步下楼梯前往机场搭机回返新加坡。我怎么也没想到就在回返新加坡的路途上，脚突然剧烈的开始疼痛！到了樟宜机场，那疼痛更是加剧到无法承受而必须以轮椅代步。
隔天 （20/6/2011）我到诊疗所检查。医生说没有骨折，大概是筋扭伤了。照了X-光后就让我回家去。第三天（22/6/2011），诊所突然来电要我马上入院就医，原因是X-光片显示我有骨折。到了医院，医生在检验了我和X-光片后建议我立刻动手术，因我的情况实属严重性的。医生也为我在这十一天里在马来西亚能到处行动自如，再从吉隆坡机场回到樟宜机场感到大惑不解，以为我在说梦话，更坚持我一定要赶快动手术。
对医生的建议我感到不知所措。自从2003年奉献服事主以来，平日若有任何伤风感冒，除了主耶稣大医生以外，我不大愿意拜访其他医生。当时的我可慌透了，唯有向神祷告。求神显明祂的旨意，是否通过动手术的方法来医治我？还是。。。。
在寻求主的过程中，我发现不论答案是“是”与“否”，神的恩膏都不断地浇灌在我身上。我根本无法分辨什么才是神的旨意。最后我唯有学基甸以羊毛干湿为证的寻求方式（士6:36-40）来决定。我后来拒绝了医生的建议，决定不动手术。医生感到非常意外，以为我的脑子出了问题，便致电Jitson 来说服我不动手术的危险。我向Jitson 解释，我不是不愿动手术，也不是不知道不动手术的危险性。但因寻求了神，答案显示这是祂的心意，我不敢也不愿违背祂的旨意。我更相信我的生命是属神的，祂会保护我，医治我。Jitson听了我的解释后也同意我的决定。最后我要求医生给我三天的时间，若情况依然没有好转，我便回来动手术。在医生的建议下，Elizabeth 姐妹买了一张轮椅要我以此代步。
神非常恩待我。在等候祂超自然医治的日子里，祂除去了我一切的疼痛。我非常的感恩。
28/6/2011， 我带着满怀希望和兴奋的心情回到医院复诊。但、再一次X-光的检验结果是我必须动手术！在那一刻，我的心就如大石般的往海底沉。我感到非常的伤心和失望。脑海中浮现的尽是无数个问号！这到底是怎么一回事？我到底在做什么？神又到底在做什么？我经历了那么多不知所措等候的日子，又是为了什么?
29/6/2011，手术后我哭了一场。不知是为身体的痛而哭，还是为神为何如此待我而哭？？记得在痛中我对祂说:-“我没有要求祢一定要以超自然的方式医治我，我只是要顺服祢所以寻求祢的心意。祢指示我禁食祷告，不找中医，我以为祢要医治我。
在新加坡，祢指示我不要动手术。虽明知会有生命危险，世人认为我愚拙，拿自己的生命开玩笑。但我信靠祢，拒绝医生的规劝，我以为祢要医治我。
通过祢的仆人指示我到医院动手术，我当然听从祢的。但、我觉得很委屈、不明白。既然这是祢医治我的方式，那为何允许我走那么多冤枉路？
诚然，祢是我的主，祢有完全的主权，我的生命是属于祢的。所以，我选择不再问你为什么。只求祢赐给我更多力量，恩典去承受这一切，保守我永远不发怨言。主啊！我选择对祢说谢谢。为这次的意外谢谢祢，为这手术感谢祢！我还要对祢说，我要继续奔跑祢给我的路，为祢的名打那美好的仗， 阿门！”
就这样我在医院安静休养，常常喜乐，向主高歌，不论环境如何，。。。。。。常常祷告，耐心等候，主做事有定时，流泪撒种必欢呼收割。。。。这首诗歌成了我的良药益友。。。。。
我在心里默默的哼着:-
主啊我到祢面前，献上我的今天，我的生命，我的一切，献上当着活祭，我与祢同钉十架，如今不是我活着。。。。乃是基督在我里面活着，主啊！我只为祢而活。。。。。不知不觉地我竟然不受控制的哭了起来。还惊动了护士以为发生什么事。
15/7/2011，清晨两点多，我忽然在睡梦中乍醒，感到主的同在非常强。。。是主！祂来了。。。“顺服至死，且死在十字架上，尊贵荣耀为你的冠冕”听到主这温柔的声音，我不禁泣不成声。。。接着而来的是从 11/6/2011开始所发生一幕幕的情景不断地涌现在我眼前。。。从马六甲。。。到新加坡。。。动手术。。。。
还有休养期间Janet 姐妹有一天跑到病房来对我说神感动她要把 路加福音4:3-12节的经文给我。就是主耶稣在出来服事之前被引到旷野受魔鬼的三个试探的经文。紧接着是Elizabeth 姐妹在30/6/2011 来探访我时对我说的一番话。她说：“just as I enter the ward, the Lord said Ps Esther has passed the test, and the anointing came upon her。当时的我听得一头雾水，只回应她“Test? What Test?”后就不了了之了。此刻，这一幕幕都浮现在脑海里。。。。。
现在我终于明白了！原来所经历的这一切都是神把我引到旷野来考验我！哈利路亚，赞美主！原来是这么一回事！是的，天怎样高过地，照样，祢的道路高过我们的道路；祢的意念高过我们的意念（赛55:9）。谁能明白你无限的慈爱，谁能了解你无穷的知慧？没有！一个也没有！
两三天后，在灵修时，当我读到创世记12:2-3 我必叫你成为大国。我必赐福给你，叫你的名为大；你也要叫别人得福。 为你祝福的，我必赐福与他；那咒诅你的，我必咒诅他。地上的万族都要因你得福时， 神的恩膏忽然大大的浇灌下来，我知道神在对我说话。。。。。
这让我想起了在2003年中，时候到了，是兑现对神的承诺，辞去工作奉献与神了。本可向公司领取一笔可观的裁员费，但我领受主要我放弃这笔可观的数目。我挣扎了一段时日后终于抵不过主望着我那忧伤的眼神而决定放弃那笔钱。当时还被同事、亲友们冷嘲热讽，说我傻有钱都不要、嫌钱多不如拿来分给他们等等的。。。后来主对我说祂要赐给我亚伯拉罕的祝福。老实说，当时的我并不明白何谓“亚伯拉罕的祝福”，过后也就忘了这回事。
2006 年当神命令我和Ps Paul 配搭时，因着保守的思想和成长的背景，我痛苦的挣扎好一段时间。有一天，神让我想起在菲利宾宣教时，祂把Esther这个名赐给我。我想，Esther 是为她的民族捨命的，那神把我改成这名就是要我为祂的福音捨命！哎哟哟。。。。。想啊想啊的不尽又泪如雨下。。。算了，死就死吧！我决定顺服祂的命令与Ps Paul 配搭。此后，神再一次的提醒我，祂赐给我的是“亚伯拉罕的祝福”，也赐下经文要我去读创世记12章，我才更进一步的了解这祝福的意义。
现在 祂又再一次的提醒我，坚定祂对我的应许。这是第三次了，感谢祢阿爸父！回首多年来的风雨路，除了感恩，也还是感恩。
主啊，我要对祢说：
我不知道前面还有多少捆锁于患难要面对，我选择顺服祢。不以性命为念，也不看为宝贵，只要行完我的路程，成就我从主所领受的职事，证明神恩惠的福音。
有一天当时后满足时，愿我能像使徒保罗所说的一样“那美好的仗我已经打过了，当跑的路我已经跑尽了，所信的道我已经守住了。还有主啊，求祢也为我持守祢所赐 给我那尊贵荣耀的冠 冕。阿门！”
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Obedient to Death: Lord, Thank You for the Fall
On 11 June, 2011, while lying on the bed, thinking of what to wear for Elisha & Joann wedding lunch reception, I dozed off. I seem to hear Joann’s voice, calling me “Mummy...” I answered “coming”, and within a split second, I fell from my bed, and I shouted:”Ayo! Very pain!” … and started to cry.
I knew the seriousness of my leg injury, as I was not able to stand, and I felt excruciating pain….
Many thoughts flashed through my mind:-” What happened?”, “Oh Lord, why this thing happened?” “Have I done something wrong?”, “Are you disciplining me?”, “You are a God of mercy and grace, please reveal to me my sins, so I have a chance to repent!” ….”Oh Lord, I’m in pain! I can’t bear it, do not forsake me. I don’t know where the problems lies, nor, which area have I sinned against you. Please do not turn your face away from me. Have mercy on me...”
So long as I don’t move, the pain was still bearable. As I quiet myself, the Lord prompted me to read 1 Peter 2:v13-22 (Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake …..He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth). I felt in my spirit, the Lord is responding to my earlier questions, that I have not committed any sin that resulted in this fall. I felt better.
If I did not sin against God, why this thing happened? Suddenly, I thought of tomorrow’s wedding lunch reception. I repented before the Lord, as the Lord has set me apart, and He does not want me to worry about worldly matters. I told the Lord if it’s His heartbeat, I’m willing to will obey Him, and not attend tomorrow’s wedding lunch reception. His will be done, and He be glorified.
I asked the Pastor and leaders to pray for me, and seek the Lord for revelation. I remembered Ps. Paul replied: “You are suffering for your Calling”. Then I asked the Lord to heal me, and I felt He wanted me to fast and pray for 3 days. So I obeyed. While everyone went to Elisha and Joann wedding lunch reception, I was alone at the CKRM Malacca Centre, fasting and praying.
Thank God! I felt I have more or less, recovered. On the 4th day (15 June, 2011), I was able to move freely, climbing the stairs, and even able to look after myself. Sis Gloria felt the Lord impressed upon her heart, she could now go back to Singapore. The following day (i.e. Friday), I was able to resume my daily activities, and even ministered to the members who came for the cell group meeting.
On Saturday, I returned to CKRM PJ. Not only could I carry my luggage to 3rd floor, I was able to minister at “Healing in His Wings”. On Sunday (19 June, 2011) morning, I felt as if I have fully recovered. I could walk down the flight of stairs on my own, without any pain, to the airport. However, I never expect on my way to Singapore, I began to feel the pain on my leg. The pain became so unbearable, that I had to be on wheel chair.
The next day (20 June, 2011), I went to the clinic for check-up. The doctor said there was no fracture, but I may have hurt my nerve. After x-ray, I was allowed to leave. However, 3 days later, I received a call from the clinic. The x-ray showed I have fractured my bone, and they wanted me to make a trip to the hospital immediately. After going through the x-ray, the doctor explained my condition was extremely serious, and recommended I should be operated immediately. Not only was the doctor puzzled, but felt I was talking nonsense, when he learned of my moving around in Malaysia for 11 days, and from Kuala Lumpur airport to Singapore Changi airport. The doctor further insisted I should be operated immediately.
I was quite lost. Since I dedicated myself to the Lord in 2003, it’s the Lord who healed me of my flu/cold, as I’m not quite willing to see the doctor. At that time, I began to panic. All I could do is to turn to the Lord, and seek His will if I should go for the operation.
However, regardless of whether the answer was a “Yes”, or, a “No”, I could feel His anointing upon me. I could not tell what God’s will was for me. The last resort was to use the “Gideon’s method” of using the wool fleece (Judges 6:v36-40) to seek God’s direction. I decided to turn down the doctor’s advice, and not to go for the operation. The doctor was quite taken aback, and thought I was “crazy”. He doesn’t permit me to leave. Instead he called Jitson to come and persuade me to go for the operation. I explained to Jitson that it’s not that I’m not willing to go for the operation, nor do I not know of the dangers of not operating. But I have sought the Lord, and got the answer, I dare not, nor am I willing to go against His will. I have a stronger conviction my life belongs to the Lord, that He will protect and heal me. Jitson agreed with what I said. I asked the doctor to give me 3 days. If my condition did not improve, I will come back for the operation. At the doctor’s advice, Sis Elizabeth bought me a wheelchair, as the doctor classified my case as “urgent” and “dangerous”, he advised I need complete rest, and not walk.
I’m thankful to God, who took away my pain, while I wait upon Him to heal me supernaturally.
On 28 June, 2011, I went to the hospital with great anticipation. However, the x-ray showed I still need to go for operation. At that moment, I was extremely disappointed, and I felt as if my heart was like a big rock sinking into the bottom of the sea. Many thoughts and questions flood my mind! I just wondered what’s going on. What am I doing? And what was God doing? If I need to go for operation, why didn’t He reveal to me right from the beginning?
29 June, 2011, I wept after the operation. But I just did not know the reason….was it because of the physical pain? Or, why is the Lord treating me in such a manner? I remembered I told the Lord while I was in pain, “I’m not asking You to heal me supernaturally, I just want to obey you, and so I sought You. I thought You wanted to heal me, when You prompted me not to go to the Chinese Traditional doctor, but to fast and pray.
In Singapore, You prompted me not to go for operation. Though I knew the danger of not going for the operation and though people think I’m foolish, playing with my own life. Yet I trust in You, and rejected the doctor’s advice, thinking You will heal me.
You used Your servant to tell me to go for the operation, I surely listen. But I felt aggrieved. Even if you want to heal me by going through the operation, why do you want me to go through many unnecessary processes?
No matter what, You are my Lord, and You have full sovereignty over me, and my life belongs to You. Though I may not understand why this happen, from now on, I choose not to pursue this. Instead, I only ask You grant me more strength and grace to go through this journey. Preserve me that I will not complain. Oh Lord! I choose to give thanks. Thank you for the fall. Thank you for the operation! I also choose to continue to run the race, and fight the good fight for Your name, amen!”
After this, I was able to quietly recuperate, and while in hospital, the song “Rejoice Always” (常常喜乐) became my source of strength…. “Rejoice always, sing praises to the Lord, not matter what the situation is ….. pray always, wait patiently, God has a time for everything … those who sow in tears will reap with songs of harvest...”
I also hummed the song “Oh Lord, I come before You (主啊我到祢面前)… present to You this day, my life, my all, as a living sacrifice, together we nailed on the cross, now it is not I who live … but Christ that lives in me, Oh Lord! I only live for you ……” unknowingly, I busted into uncontrollable tears, and the nurses were puzzled.
July 15, 2011, at 2 a.m., I was awakened from my sleep, and felt the presence of God very strong … it’s the Lord! He’s here …”Obedience to death, death on the cross, crown you with glory and honour “. Hearing this gentle voice of the Lord, I was chocked with tears … The Lord brought my memories back to 11 June, 2011, beginning from the fall … one scene after another … from Malacca … to Singapore … to operation scene ….
While I was recuperating in the hospital, Sis Janet run up to my ward. She told me the Lord prompted her to pass the bible verse of Luke 4:v3-12 to me. It is about our Lord being tested in the wilderness, before He began His ministry. Next, Sis Elizabeth came to visit me on 30 June, 2011 (a day after my operation). She told me, “Just as I entered the ward, the Lord said Ps Esther has passed the test, and the anointing came upon me”. My responds to her at that moment was, “Test? What test?” Then, I just brush this aside.
Now I understand! All the experiences are the tests the Lord had for me! Hallelujah, praise the Lord! Yes, “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are Your ways higher than our ways and Your thoughts than ours” (Isaiah 55:v9). Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom, who can fathom the depth Your love? No! Not one!
2 to 3 days later, while doing my quiet time, I was reading Genesis 12:v2-3 “I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you”. The anointing came upon me very strong, and I knew the Lord was speaking to me …..
This reminded me of an incident in 2003. It was time for me to keep my promise to the Lord, to resign from my job and go into fulltime serving the Lord. I was to be given the early retirement package, which involves quite a large sum of money. However, I felt the Lord wanted me to forego this. I struggled for a while. But when I saw the Lord looking at me with a very sad expression, I decided to forego the money. Not only my colleagues, but my relatives were quite sarcastic to me, making comments that I’m silly not to take the money, and if I find I have got so much money, I might as well distribute the money among them etc…. Later the Lord told me He will give me the “Abrahamic Blessings” (blessings according to God’s covenant with Abraham). Honestly, at that time, I did not understand what this “Abrahamic Blessings” was all about, and I forgot about it.
In 2006, when the Lord commanded me to pair up with Ps Paul for Ministry, I struggled for a long while. This was due to my conservative thinking and upbringing. One day, the Lord reminded me of the incident while I was on a mission trip to Philippine. He gave me the name “Esther”. I remembered in the book of “Esther”, Queen Esther was willing to sacrifice her life, so as to save the people. So when the Lord gave me this name, He wants me to be willing to sacrifice my life for the gospel! While pondering over this…. I wept uncontrollably…..forget it, if I have to die for the gospel, I just have to! I decided to obey the Lord’s command, and pair up with Ps. Paul as ministering partner. Thereafter, the Lord reminded me again, He will give me the “Abrahamic Blessings”, and wanted me to read Genesis 12. I began to understand bit by bit, the significance of this blessing.
Once again, the Lord reminded me, and affirming His promise to me for the third time. Thank you Abba Father! Looking back at the years of trails and tribulation, I could only give thanks to Him.
Lord, I want to tell you:
"Thank you for the call upon my life as per Luke 18:29-30 Jesus said, 'No one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age and in the age to come, eternal life' and Matthew 19:12, '.... others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven...'
I do not know what’s ahead of me, but I choose to obey You. I consider my life worth nothing to me, all I want is to finish the journey, complete the task You have given - the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace."
One day, when my time is up, may I be like Apostle Paul, to be able to say “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now, there is in store for me the crown of righteousness." Amen!
Ps Esther Yap
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Footnote:
Ps Paul Ang invited Rev Mary Eu of Singapore Christian Prayer House through Sis Gloria to come to CKRM Singapore for a reunion after an absence of more than 4 years. We could not have a fellowship earlier because the Lord's heartbeat was to place our priority to concentrate and focus on the ministry that He has called us.
God commanded his children to be holy as He is holy. In order to walk in the Power of Christ we must live a Christian life of purity. When the message of the Kingdom of God is preached there should be a demonstration of God’s power. Signs, wonders and miracles always follow while preaching the gospel because these are testimonies of the Kingdom of God. We as children of God carry the DNA of the Supernatural God. Jesus lived a life of total obedience to the Father thus, preserving the purity and fullness of the perfect spiritual DNA of God in his life.
God is calling his church to a time of sanctification, so that we can become a blemish free bride for Christ's return and to be set free from all that hold us captive in our lives and stop us from moving forward with God and coming into our God given destiny. Inner healing and deliverance are incomplete and inadequate without each other. Reconciliation between the fields of inner healing and deliverance will help to bring freedom, wholeness and maturity to the Body of Christ. Sis Gloria and Sis Mary conducted the Inner Healing and Deliverance lessons with explanation on how Christians could be brought into bondage because of generational curse, praying to idols, hurts, anger, guilt and other bondages that made us sin against God. Sis Gloria explained in depth how we can co-operate with the Holy Spirit during the practical steps of the Inner Healing and Deliverance session.
Many campers had tremendous breakthroughs during the Inner Healing and Deliverance session. Sis Georgina saw a vision of a straight line where a man was carrying a luggage and as he walked down the line his baggage (burden) was falling away. As she reached the end of the line she saw plenty of burdens lifted off into the sky like balloons. The souls of the campers were purified and liberated. Sister Jessie was cleansed off the fear spirit of facing her future. Now she puts God as her first priority above everything else. Sister Jeannie testified she was set free of the spirit of guilt and the more she yielded herself and co-operated with the Holy Spirit the more she was cleansed. At one stage she literally felt itchiness like ants crawling on her hands and she shook off all the ungodly spirit in her life. A pastor from Kuala Lumpur also felt that something went out through his throat during deliverance. After the inner healing Bro Thomas ministered and many campers experienced instant healing in their physical bodies as they had undergone cleansing during the earlier session.
During the final day of camp, Ps O.K. Tian a pastor with an experience of 40 years shared Luke chapter 5: 36-39 to the campers. He went on to elaborate on the effect of drinking new wine. New wine would bring a very fast and strong effect upon the drinker. He believed that the Lord will be pouring more new wine in the near future. We, as believers should be prepared to drink more new wine, press in and thirst for the outpouring of this new wine from the Lord. As a senior pastor he observed that CKRM was able to drink new wine as much as the Lord poured on them. As the spirit led, Ps Paul extended the invitation to Ps O.K.Tian to be included as one the advisors of CKRM and it was confirmed by the Holy Spirit.
The Lord raised 5 persons with great anointing upon them in preparation for His ministry when the right time comes. The Lord continuously puts tests on His called, chosen and the faithful children so that they can forward His Kingdom. A brother and a sister were also baptised at Legenda Condominium swimming pool during this camp. The brother received a new name called Joseph which means “God will increase.” The Lord gave Genesis 41:18 to CKRM “when out of the river there came up seven cows, fat and sleek, and they grazed among the reeds.” A brother and a sister from Malacca were prayed by the leaders of CKRM Singapore, Petaling Jaya and Malacca for the Lord to bless them and prepare them for the works of the Lord to come. Despite having a camp outside the church sanctuary, the Lord blessed the meeting with awesome works of the Holy Spirit and confirmation of a new and fruitful season for CKRM in 2011.
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第七届约书亚营-编缉部报道
神要求祂的儿女要圣洁因祂是圣洁的。若要行走在基督的大能里，我们一定要拥有一个纯洁的基督徒生命。当神国度的信息被分享时，必要在其中彰显出神的大能来。神迹、奇事和异能必追随，为的是要见证神的国度。身为神的儿女，我们是带着超自然神的基因。主耶稣在世活出了完全顺服天父的生命，因此祂保有了神的纯洁和完全的基因。
此刻，神正在呼吁祂的教会进入被洁净和从一切拦阻我们进入神的命定的捆绑中得着释放，好让我们能成为无瑕疵的新妇等候基督的再来。内在医治和释放是相辅相成缺一不可的。它会带来身、心、灵的自由、完全、和基督肢体里的成熟。由Gloria和Mary姐妹所带领的内在医治和释放的服事，首先开始讲解身为基督徒的我们如何因罪、祖宗遗传下来的咒诅、拜偶像或涉足邪教、异端、邪术、伤痛、愤怒和内疚等得罪了上帝而掉入捆绑中。接着，Gloria姐妹更深入的教导我们如何与圣灵同工的实际步骤，好叫我们能从捆锁中得着释放。
许多弟兄姐妹在这次的内在医治和释放的服事中都经历了很大的突破。Georgina姐妹在异像中看到一位男士提着行李箱走向一条笔直的道路，他一边走，行李（重担）就不断的从行李箱内掉出来。当她走到那路的终点时，她看到很多重担像气球般向高空升起。很多弟兄姐妹的魂也得着医治和从获自由。Jessie 姐妹也从惧怕未来的辖制中被释放出来。她现在已把神放在她生命的首位。Jeannie姐妹见证说，她从内疚感中被释放出来。她说当她越倾向圣灵和顺服祂的带领就越得着洁净。在释放的过程中，Jeannie姐妹曾一度感到有成千上万蚂蚁在她手上乱爬，当她的手不断上下摇动时，许多不属神的灵都被甩掉了。一位来自吉隆坡的牧者也感觉到邪灵从他的喉咙被驱赶出去的经历。接着下来，营会的第二天下午是Thomas弟兄带领的身体与疾病的医治服事。许多人都立即得着身体上的医治。
营会的最后一天，拥有四十年经验的O.K.Tian牧师和我们分享了路加福音5:36-39。他向我们解释有关喝了新酒后的感觉和反应。新酒的反应与功效会比旧的来得快且强。Tian牧师相信主在未来的日子要把更多的新酒赐下。身为基督徒的我们因该准备好喝更多的新酒，要更渴慕并竭尽所能的去得着神所倾倒下来的新酒。身为一位资深的牧师，Tian牧师认为CKRM 弟兄姐妹是有足够的能力去领受一切神所要倾倒下来的新酒。Tian牧师也答应了保罗牧师在圣灵感动下邀请他成为CKRM顾问的请求。
神在这一届的营会里兴起了五位弟兄姐妹。以祂的大能恩膏来预备他们在祂所定的日子里进入祂的事工服事。主持续不断的试练祂所呼召、拣选和忠心的孩子来扩展祂的国度。一位弟兄和一位姐妹也在这次的营会里受洗。神也赐给这位弟兄一个新的名字叫约瑟，意思是“神会加增”。神更把创世纪41:18赐给CKRM “有七只母牛从河里上来，又肥壮又美好，在芦荻中吃草”。新加坡、八打灵再也和马六甲的领袖们也为一对来自马六甲的夫妇献上祝福和求神继续装备他们的祷告。
感谢神的信实。圣灵的大能不但彰显在整个营会中，神更印证了2011是CKRM一个新且丰盛的开始。
Upon invitation from Pastor Paul and Pastor Esther, we drove from Melaka with my husband to attend the Saturday meeting and the Sunday Church service at CKRM Singapore from 23rd to 24th April 2011.
I accepted Jesus as my Saviour through the Catholic Faith in 1985 and was faithful to our Lord by attending regular Church services, partaking in Holy Communion, performing confession and reading scriptures. However, this is the first time I physically feel the awesome encounter with our Lord Jesus through the Holy Spirit at CKRM Singapore.
Thank you, Lord for bringing me and my husband to CKRM Singapore. On the 1st day upon entering CKRM premise, I could feel the joy, peace and love being showered upon me.
When Pastor Paul was conducting the sermon, I could already feel the Holy Spirit began to work in me, causing me to tremble (Daniel 10:10) and when Pastor Esther prayed for me, the trembling became more profound and I was slained (fell to the floor under the Power of God). Instantly, all my physical ‘arthritic’ pains in my joints, particularly the knee caps and hip bones, were all gone. Praise God for His healing! I was spiritually and physically healed of the constant pains which were troubling me for the past 10 years.
On 24th April 2011 (Sunday), I was able to walk rapidly without any symptom of pains unlike before. It was such a relief and joy when I entered CKRM Singapore again at 11 am to attend the Sunday service.
When our brothers and sisters at CKRM Singapore prayed for the activation of the Anointing of Roar of the Lion of Judah (Amos 1:2, 3:8, Revelation 10:3) which is a very powerful deliverance weapon, I roared very fiercely for the first time.
When the group was discussing the resumption of CKRM Melaka, the Lord gave me a vision and prompted me to say that CKRM Melaka should be resumed as soon as my husband overcomes some of the major administrative issues pending in Legenda Condo Melaka.
The Lord also activated my speaking in tongues and I also received the Joy of Laughter. The Lord is so gracious to bless me with some many Spiritual gifts within such a short period.
I thank our Lord for the great blessings and I pray that our Lord will continue to bless Pastor Paul and Pastor Esther to lead CKRM to greater heights and towards the fulfilment of His Kingdom.
May our Lord bless everyone at CKRM!
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神超越我所求所想的在新加坡CKRM祝福我 – Jenny Low 姐妹的见证
(Translated by Sis Mary Tan)
回应保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师的邀请，我和先生驾车从马六甲前往新加坡CKRM参加了他们二零一一年四月二十三和二十四的聚会。
我从一九八五年在天主教的信仰中接受了主耶稣基督成为我的救主后，都忠心的的参加崇拜、领圣餐、认罪和读经。但在新加坡CKRM是我有生以来第一次亲身体验到神大能透过圣灵触摸我的生命。
感谢神带领我和先生到新加坡CKRM去。当我第一天踏入新加坡CKRM的圣所时，便被神的喜乐、平安和爱给大大的充满。
当保罗牧师正在讲台分享时，我已能感觉到圣灵在我身上开始祂的工作，我开始不停的颤斗（但10:10）。当以斯帖牧师为我祷告时，我颤斗得更厉害而最终被圣灵击倒在地上。就在那一刻，我身上的关节炎、尤其是膝盖和髋骨等部位的疼痛都不翼而飞。赞美主的医治！神不但医治了我这十多年来身体的疼痛，也使我得着灵里的释放！
四月二十四日（星期天），我能在毫无疼痛的情况下不断的来回行走。当我再次踏入新加坡CKRM参加他们十一点的崇拜聚会时，我心里感到非常的轻松和喜乐。
当弟兄姐妹为我们祷告启动犹大狮子的恩赐（阿摩司书1:2, 3:8；启10:3）时，我感到有一股力量从腹部涌出，我竟始无前列地极其凶猛的吼叫着。犹大狮子吼叫是非常强而有力的医治释放属灵武器。
当大家在寻求神有关从新开始马六甲的聚会时，神赐给我一个异象说当我的先生办妥马六甲Legenda公寓行政上的事项后便能从新开始聚会了。
神也启动了我说方言的恩赐和赐下喜乐的灵充满我。神也在这短短的时间内赐下了许多属灵的恩赐给我。
我感谢主赐下莫大的恩福。我祷告我们的主将不断的祝福保罗和以斯帖牧师继续带领CKRM迈向更高的领域完成神国度的使命。
愿神赐福于CKRM的每一位弟兄姐妹。
Before I attended the 6th Joshua Camp, I didn’t know about CKRM. None of my friends or my church members knew about it. It is indeed God’s guidance who led me to CKRM.
I remembered in the mid of last year, when one of the pastors from my main church in Subang came to preach at my church, God spoke to me that I could share the Gospel with signs and wonders. Thereafter, I sought God on this area. In September, when I goggled on fasting & power in the internet, I was led to the CKRM website. I saw the 6th Joshua Camp was to be held in Melaka. I was disappointed, knowing that it was not likely for me to travel to Melaka to attend the camp and left my kids with my unbelieving spouse. I prayed and asked God to make it possible for me to attend if it was His will for me to join the camp. In October, God prompted me to check on CKRM website again. This time, I saw that the venue had changed to Petaling Jaya. Praise God! My prayer was answered. I knew that God would do His work in this camp.
However, I was troubled by my irritating headache for over a month before the camp. The headache first appeared in April last year for two weeks and it was gone after prayers. It returned in October and continued till I attended the camp. The headache was on left side of my head. The headache was intense pain for few minutes like something pinched some of my nerves. When it came, it attacked continuously with 1-2 minutes intervals and lasted for few hours. On most days it was there throughout the day. I was greatly disturbed by this.
On the same week before Joshua Camp, I went to one of the leading hospitals for a full medical check-up. I requested to perform a brain MRI. However, my request was denied. I was advised to consult the neurologist first before I was allowed to have a MRI scan. It happened that the neurologist I referred to had a full appointment that day. I was asked to return next Monday for consultation. I used to feel numbness on my left arm, pain on my lower back and left leg. My body was so weak and in an incredible bad shaped. On top of this, my husband and my two kids were down with sickness that week. Many times, there was a voice in me which asked me to just rest and not go for the camp. However, I knew that there would be many hindrances to stop me when I tried to do the will of God. I insisted to go to the camp for at least one day.
After the first session, I almost gave up and did not want to return for the remaining sessions. However, God is faithful. He gave me the message of how Elisha persevered until he got the blessing. I was determined to complete all the remaining sessions. That night, I received the Holy Laughter, the Roar of Lion of Judah and the Evangelistic Anointing.
On second day of the camp, after a deliverance prayer, I experienced a strong Holy Spirit anointing I never experience before. It was like an electric shook. It lasted for a few minutes. I literary heard a ‘zzzzhhhh’ sound. In the first electric shook, I felt that there was a power which rested on my face and there was a circular movement around my mouth, later it moved and lingered on my hands before it rested on my legs. The second and third time, the electric shook experience was a smooth pouring of Holy Spirit from my head to toes. I also received the Confirmation Anointing and Holy Wine on second day. The anointing was so strong that night that my body still shook and moved when I lied on my bed. It continued for hours before I slept.
On the last day of the camp, I danced in the spirit. I was amazed that I could jump and danced for almost two hours. With my body pains that I experienced before, it should not be possible to dance for even a few minutes. I felt somebody had guided my hands and body movements as I did not know how to dance at all. When I looked at how I danced, the dance movements were as if from a skilful dancer. I felt that I was drunk in the Spirit during the morning worship.
One day after Joshua camp, I return to the hospital to get my medical report. The report showed there was a 3.8cm cyst at my right ovary. No wonder I felt pain in my abdomen when I used my right leg to push heavy pail. I didn’t go for the neurologist appointment because I trusted God had healed and delivered me from my headache. After the camp, I did not feel the headache anymore, my pain on my lower back and left leg were all gone. A week after I got another medical report, I did a second ultrasound on my abdomen. The doctor could not locate the cyst on my right ovary and I was amazed that it was gone in barely one week. God had healed me. Glory to the LORD!
My spiritual man is more sensitive and alert now after I attended the camp. And many times, during worship, I would be led by the Holy Spirit to dance in the spirit. Praise God for leading me to CKRM to experience the power of God and received miraculous healing within a short period of time. Praise you Jesus, the Lord, God Almighty!
June Clarine
神在CKRM第六届约书亚营医治和装备我- June Clarine姐妹
在我还没有参加第六届约书亚营之前，我并不认识CKRM的事工。我的朋友和教会都未听闻过CKRM。因此能来到CKRM的确是神的带领。
我记得在去年的年中，当一位来自我们苏邦总会的牧师来分享话语时，神对我说我能以神迹奇事来分享福音。此后，我朝这方面寻求神。在九月份，当我在网上查询有关禁食和能力的资料时发现到CKRM的网站。当我看到第六届约书亚营将在马六甲举行时，我感到失望。因为我不可能把孩子们交托给还没信主的丈夫，独自一人到马六甲去参加营会。我便向神祷告说若是祂的旨意要我参加这营会就为我开路。就在十月份，神启示我再去查询CKRM的网站。这次竟让我看到营会的地点已改换到八打灵再也。感谢主！神垂听了我的祷告！我知道神在这营会里在我身上会有奇妙的作为。
在去年的四月我的头疼了两个星期，但在祷告后便消失了。在还没去营会前的一个月，就是大约在十月份，我左边的头就开始疼痛不止。那剧烈的疼痛会持续好几分钟，就如我的神经线被捏那样。当这头疼来袭时，每隔一两分钟便再不断的重复，有时长达几小时。但大多数时间，这头疼是持续一整天的。我确实被这事给困扰着。
在约书亚营的同一个星期，我到一间著名的医院做身体的医药检查。我要求院方为我做脑部扫描但被拒绝了。他们要我先去看神经科专家。因着那神经科专家的预约时间都排满了，他们便安排我在下个星期一回去做检查。我的左手臂曾经常感到麻痹，腰和左脚也疼痛。我的体质不但非常的弱，而且身体健康也不理想。除此以外，我的先生和两个孩子在那个星期也病倒了。在那段时间，我经常听到有声音叫我好好的在家休息，不要到营会去。我深知当我要行在神的旨意中时，一定会受到很多拦阻。所以，我决定至少也要参加一天的营会。
参加了第一堂的聚会后，我几乎想放弃，但神是信实的。祂给我听到以利沙如何坚持到底直到他得到祝福才肯罢休。这驱使了我下定决心继续留下。当天晚上，我领受了“圣灵的嬉笑”，犹大狮子的吼叫和传福音的恩膏。
营会的第二天，在医治释放的祷告后，我经历了前所未有的圣灵大能恩膏的浇灌。那感觉就像是被电流冲击。我清楚地听见“吱。。。”的声音。在第一次的电流冲击中，我感到有一股力量降在我的脸上和在嘴里旋转，接着那股力量流向我的手后再停留在我的双脚。接下来两次经历的是圣灵温柔的从头到脚的浇灌充满我。在第二天的约书亚营会中，我领受了灵里印证的恩膏和天上的美酒。当晚，那停留在我身上的恩膏非常的强烈。我全身不停地颤抖了几个小时后才入睡。
在营会的最后一天，我在灵里起舞。以我原本身体疼痛的状况，能跳足将近两小时的舞，我自己也感到不可思议。当时，我感受到似乎有人牵引着我的手和身体，因我根本都不会跳舞。当我观看回我跳舞的情景，真像一个老练的舞者。当天早上的敬拜，我就像是在灵里醉了一般。
在约书亚营结束后的第二天，我回到医院去看我的医药报告。医药报告显示在我右边的卵巢长了一个3.5公分的瘤。难怪每当我用右脚推水桶时，腹部会感到疼痛。我并没去看神经科专家因为我相信神已医治了我的头疼。营会过后，我的头、腰和左脚的疼痛都不翼而飞了！一星期后，我拿到第二份卵巢的超声波扫描报告。医生和我都感到惊讶，那瘤竟在一星期里消失得无影无踪。神医治了我！荣耀归于主！
参加了营会后，我发现我的灵人比以往更敏锐和警醒。好多时候，在敬拜中我都会被圣灵带领跳起灵舞来。赞美主！神不但把我带到CKRM来经历祂的大能，还在短期内得着奇妙的医治。赞美你耶稣，我的主，全能神！
June Clarine 姐妹
