Dr Sarah Shan (China)

Came to the 5th Joshua Camp in Malacca for the first time but I didn’t receive much from the Lord. However, it does not stop me from further coming to the 6th Joshua Camp as I begin to see many of her old habits have begun to wear off one by one.  I had a dream about the Confirmation Anointing and in this Camp I am so happy the Lord blesses me with this anointing.  Holy Laughter also helps me a lot to overcome my depression and melancholic character.  At one time I feel like crying but the Holy Spirit instead activated Holy Laughter in me.  The Lord does not want me to be sad anymore.  If we have sadness we can unknowingly open ourselves for other unpleasant things like depression, sadness, hopelessness to come into our lives.  I consider many of you so fortunate because you have an easy platform to exercise the Spiritual Gifting that the Lord has given. Once you have the Gifting you must be careful because the enemy will try to steal it from you by putting doubts.  Hold on to what the Lord has given and let it take roots.  Use it wisely and with faith. You will certainly see it will increase from power to power and glory to glory. Thank you Lord.

Sis Marianne (China)

I came from a very traditional church in Beijing.  I did not tell them I came to this Joshua Camp.  I read the announcement from the website http://www.ckrm.org/ and I got interested because I have never heard of the Fire Anointing and the Lord is doing so many things in CKRM.  I am not sure I did the right thing by coming so far from my homeland to attend this camp. Finally, I am glad I did. Anyway, sister Sarah helped me in finalizing all the other details of booking the flight tickets, hotels etc.  The Lord spoke to me before coming to open my eyes to see His works and hear the testimonies of His people in the camp.  In this camp I saw so many manifestation of the Holy Spirit.  It is really an eye opener for me but somehow I feel the peace of God within me.  The Lord says these manifestations are My works so do not be afraid.  I was having a bad flu that I could not talk before coming.  However, when I arrived as I began to worship God the flu was amazingly healed.  When Ps Paul called for waves of Fire to come down I really felt the power of God flowing into me as I opened my heart to receive.

Dr Lilibeth David (Philippines)

I am from the Philippines and this is the first time I received the baptism of the Holy Spirit and Fire. As Ps Paul said the Fire is coming down I felt the power of God filled part of my body.  Interestingly, I felt a headache in my head that comes and go as the power of God came upon me.  I believe the Lord has started to work in my life and it will continue to bless me spiritually.

Karen (Singapore)

I come from a family of 13 members.  One thing I really need is the father’s love.  I have been seeking spiritual things but no fulfillment so far. I have found the love of our heavenly Father in the Camp. I received the Holy Laughter and the Roar of the Lion of Judah.  I find the manifestations of the Holy Spirit in the Camp are very radical but somehow I feel that heaven was on Earth.  I could really feel the presence of the Lord here.

Sis Jenifer Lim (Singapore)

I stopped attending CKRM 3 years ago in Singapore.  Last Friday when I received a call from Ps Paul I was surprised and was speechless at first.  I have never thought of coming back to CKRM.  Somehow last October I had a prompting that I needed God’s power to do the things He called me to do.  I simply need the Anointing of Fire again.  If I want to support a pastor’s ministry especially in prayers and intercession I need God to touch me again.  I am glad I came to this camp because when Ps Paul called for the Fire to come down, I really felt the heat on my back and it was so hot.  Previously what I could not understand the ministry of CKRM. It is so clear now as the Lord spoke to me that what Ps Paul did  in CKRM ministry was prophetic act.

Sis Tan Chui Swan (Singapore)

I do not have any knowledge about the Holy Spirit in the beginning.  When I first baptized in the Holy Spirit and in Fire my hand began to tremble and out of ignorance I tried to hold my hand so that it would not tremble.  The next encounter in CKRM when the power of God hit me I was on the floor was 7 hours. I felt there was a lot of power in me and when I heard a sister was crying I began to cry with her and prayed with her. I did not know that the Holy Spirit had used me to minister to people.  I begin to experience wonderful things because there is a voice that talks to me from within. This voice guides me and corrects me when I make mistakes.  Holy Spirit speaks to me and guides me step by step daily. He also begins to anoint me to play the keyboard well because my knowledge of playing the keyboard was minimal.  I begin to have self-esteem and confidence to do anything that the Lord wants me to do.  I am more and more sensitive to the Holy Spirit each day.  Praise God for bringing me to CKRM.

Sis Isa (Singapore)

I had my first encounter with God in a wonderful manner.  There was an altar church in one of a church meeting and after they prayed for me my body began to tremble.  As worship music starts I began to sway my body in the manner of worship.  This continued even when I was at home.  I began to worship God intensely and I was slained and fell on the floor for hours. I woke up and continued to worship the Lord and fell again. It went on the whole night.  I was tipsy and was drunk in the Spirit but when I shared many Christians could not understand me. In worship I feel my spirit is connected to God’s Spirit.  In worship, the Holy Spirit led me to do many creative moves which many churches could not accept my actions. I felt so depressed that I told God I wanted to stop worshipping him. At the same time I fear God too. One day God told me just to fear Him and not men.  I thanked God for sister Cynthia for bringing me to CKRM.  After empowerment in CKRM I have grown spiritually and at times of worship I could discern the fruits of a person when the Holy Spirit reveals to me the voice of the person’s heart for example the person is loving, caring, full of hatred etc.  I thank God for bringing me to CKRM where indeed the ministry is truly led by the Holy Spirit.

Inga (Singapore)

I would like to thank sister Janet for inviting me to this camp. When Ps Paul called the Fire of the Holy Spirit to come down I felt an experience which I have never encounter before. In everything I do I always seek the Lord first and true enough the Lord spoke to me in a dream to go ahead and attend the Joshua Camp. The Lord said “I am going to anoint you. Open your heart and I will show you my signs and wonders.” The Lord also asked me to read the book of Acts of the Bible. In this camp I can conclude that our God is a faithful God. He is real and forever faithful. Thank you Lord.

Joel How (Malaysia)

I have attended all Joshua Camp without fail and I begin to see the works of God grows from power to power and glory to glory. Too much knowledge of the scriptures without revelation makes us very religious at times. Don’t get me wrong. The Word of God is very important but without the oil (Holy Spirit) to illuminate the Word, the Word just remains as “logos.” Jesus spoke of the leaven in Mark 8:13-21. He was warning them about the influences of the mind that can rob us of the nutrients of revelation and renewal- Bill Johnson. In this camp I observed those who came hungry for God and with a wide opened heart, the Lord never fail to touch them in a special way. Where the wind of God is blowing, we must quickly set our sail to catch the Wind and move with the Holy Spirit. I have been a God chaser for many years. In many meetings the Holy Spirit is present but in CKRM the Holy Spirit moves freely. I thank the Lord because when the storm came in my life, by His grace He made me realized that the Lord is in the boat with me.

The Lord spoke to my spirit so loud and clear that he has not made His beloved faithful children to become orphans when He left Malacca when Ps Paul called us out to be prayed for. Matthew 13:16-17. 16 But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear. 17 For I tell you the truth, many prophets and righteous men longed to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it. The Lord is marvellous and too good for no words can describe His goodness well enough. I am looking forward to the 7th Joshua Camp in May 2011 and I can’t wait to be part of what the Lord is going to do in 2011.

Sis Nellie Quek (Malaysia)

18th September was a day I remember so well. It was a day preceded by months of spiritual testing and challenges; only to be followed by another two months of uncertainties. It was the day when the Lord put me to the test of obedience. He instructed me to leave CKRM Malacca. Did you say leave? Yes, you heard right. Leave. But where should I go now? The Lord instilled upon my heart to stay at home, spend time in His presence and study His word. Does this mean I am to go to CKRM Petaling Jaya then? Not until the 6th Joshua Camp, was the answer I received.

On the 1st October, I received prompting for a 7 day fast. This was to be followed by a 40 day fast preceding the Joshua Camp. A few days into the latter fast, I encountered difficulties. When I sought the Lord, the word was to stop the fast. Then 1 month prior to the Joshua Camp, my attempts to make online hotel reservation encountered problems. “ Lord, are you telling me something? Am I not supposed to go? ” There was no answer. A week before the Joshua Camp, I finally had the release to attend the camp but only for Saturday, 27th November. Hence when Pastor Paul called me on the 25th, I informed him that I was only going for that one day.

A few days prior to the camp, the prompting came for a “water only” fast for the 3 days of the Joshua Camp. “Oh Lord, grant me the strength to obey” I earnestly prayed. You see, I had never undertaken such a fast in my entire life. Saturday morning saw me up at 6am waiting for the taxi to take me to P.J. for the camp. On waking up earlier, I felt dizzy and unwell and contributing it to low blood sugar, I asked the Lord whether I could have a drink. When I got a “yes”, I quickly asked whether I could also have bread. Hardly a minute after consuming the Milo and the bread, I became so nauseated and threw up everything. After which I felt so ‘normal’ and so good. Praise God. He understood and forgave my moment of weakness.

Midway through Pastor Paul’s sharing that Saturday, I received the prompting that I was to come back the next day. That evening, I went back to Malacca. When I awoke on Sunday morning, I felt sick. I had abdominal cramps, giddiness, nausea and was retching. I felt awful but I know I must obey God and go back to P.J. “Lord, help me. I feel really sick. If the fast is from you, I should be well. I don’t know what is happening.” I then heard a voice instructing me to take honey but only just a sip. When I arrived at CKRM P.J at 8am, I was the complete picture of health ! To God be the Glory.

Needless to say, I had a most blessed time at the 6th Joshua Camp. The anointing was so strong and tangible. At one point, Pastor Paul called for the Malaccans to go to the altar. The anointing was so strong that I was totally overcome by it. We had an awesome time of praise and worship on Sunday. For the first time in my conservative life, I increasingly became oblivious of the people around me, abandoning all restraint and just allowing the Holy Spirit to take full control of me. I felt so alive, praising and worshipping the Lord with my fellow brethren; in unity, and as one, in the body of Christ. I felt like I had finally come home. This is where I belong. Amen.

CKRM is full of power – Sis Rainbow from China

The LORD has opened his arsenal and brought out the weapons of his wrath, for the Sovereign LORD Almighty has work to do in the land of the Babylonians. (Jer 50:25)

The Lord really has a arsenal, I thought it was just an analogy when I first read it.

When Sis Sarah first invited me to go to CKRM, I didn’t plan to go. I was receptive of the charismatic movement and received power for a while before falling away. Subsequently, I didn’t feel much when I attended charismatic meetings and was reduced to just being an observer with much fear and doubt about the charismatic. But I was determined not to give up, I longed to be greatly anointed as to set the captives free so that Christians will enjoy going to church (going to church was sheer torture in the past). When I first became charismatic, I would forsake food and water just to remain in the meetings in fear of wasting even a second of time. How I long for such times to recur again. After reading the postings on the CKRM Website, I felt that the anointing is very strong and seeing that Sis Sarah (who had attended CKRM”s meeting before) was pretty normal too, I was willing to go and take a look.

On the first day, there is still a lot of fear in me, especially the fear of being “contaminated”. Nobody was to touch me and I shook hands with others reluctantly. Furthermore, during charismatic meetings, I didn’t even feel anything and I have at times doubted whether the charismatic experiences I had in the past were real or not. Jesus said “Is not my word like fire,” declares the LORD, “and like a hammer that breaks a rock in pieces? (Jer 23:29). There was someone using a spiritual hammer to smash the strongholds in people’s head and I went out to let a sister to “hammer” me twice (it is like grasping empty air and welding a hammer as if it is there). Back then, I didn’t feel anything but after I was seated, I felt that there was a spot in my head where anointing could now enter (it is hard to explain what anointing is if one has never move in the Holy Spirit). To my surprise, the “hammer” works. I couldn’t explain why but I roughly know what had happened (to me).

Later on, Bro Thomas imparted lighting anointing to me via prayer. With my eyes closed, I could see a red lightning flashed past in the darkness. I thought somebody was taking photographs but it wasn’t the case. Then he (Bro Thomas) imparted the “blowing” anointing to me and I could blow on and on. In the past, I could only looked on like an idiotic spectator during charismatic meetings and perceived that I don’t move in the charismatic but in my heart, I was not convinced. I never thought that I could receive this anointing with a sober mind and without effort. Praying back home, the anointing is strong and it made me realize that I have been greatly restored. Most importantly, I am no longer afraid and suddenly became bold and courageously.

On the second day, I rejoiced when Sis Shan received the “confirmation” anointing. When you talked to her, there is no pretense since she could only reply what is truly in her heart. She told me the principle of being willing to be crucified together with Christ on the cross and I suddenly understood. As I truly understand her (Sis Shan) now, I felt that I should treat her and the brothers & sister better. I especially wanted to treat my husband better. I felt that since we cannot see the hearts of men, we tend to be lacking in compassion. I purpose in my heart not to quarrel upon returning home. Agape also has confirmation anointing, which is those who are slain on the floor with will say “YES ---“ etc with their eyes closed. But in CKRM, I saw this anointing in operation with everybody sober and the power is great.

On the third day, in the midst of worship, I forgave an evangelical shepherd whom I have always been unable to forgive. The worship that day was fantastic; I expressed my longing for Christ. I thought of God coming to save us, not condemn us and I pleaded with Him to give me a God-fearing heart. Later on, as I sat on the floor, Holy fire came falling on me although nobody prayed for me. This is because I made a prayer offering myself willinglyon the Lord’s altar. Bro Thomas gave me “water that turned into wine”, it looked like he was holding empty air in his hands but when I drank it, my mouth tasted wine and I couldn’t stop laughing. I felt overjoyed and my movements were agile. Later on, Pastor Paul gave me fire wine and my mouth was puffing with fire, as if drunk. I am not a drinker but drinking wine this way is great. I can drink more without fear of drunkenness. Once happy, I no longer have worries. The joy of the Lord is my strength.

The brothers and sisters of CKRM were very friendly and imparted their anointing to me. It’s a pity that being the last daym there isn’t much time left. If there had been more time, I would have gotten even more. The first day upon returning home, I was feeling down. But the moment I started to pray, the strong presence of the Holy Spirit caused me to be very happy. CKRM’s anointing is different from other charismatic churches. Indeed, every place has a different and unique anointing; our God is a rich God. CKRM could look into the needs of everyone and is very powerful in spiritual warfare.

Later on, I read in the bible “After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life. (Gen 3:24) and discovered “flaming sword flashing back and forth” is one of God’s weapons.


第六届约书亚营会见证集
(中文翻译由中国Sarah Shan博士完成)

Sarah 姐妹

半年前我参加了第五届约书亚营，神给了我很多祝福，虽然我并没有太大感觉，属灵敏感度也很低，然而半年的时间内通过不断操练，发现自己的生命建造和属灵恩赐方面都有很大提升，我决定参加第六届约书亚营。在这之前我得到一个异梦，被告知会得到独特的启示性恩赐。果然，在这次营会中，主赐给了我印证的恩膏，我非常高兴。圣灵喜笑对我的帮助很大，使我战胜长期以来的消沉和抑郁。有过好几次的经历，当我因为某些事伤心想要哭泣的时候，我发现却哭不出来，反而变成大笑，随之心情也被释放。我知道神不让我继续伤心，因为这会给仇敌留下破口，使更多的黑暗权势如沮丧、自怜、消沉进来。我觉得你们在马来西亚和新加坡的弟兄姐妹很有福，因为有CKRM这样的平台操练属灵恩赐，有这样的环境可以被坚固。因为一旦得到属灵恩赐，仇敌会来偷窃，把困惑和怀疑加在人的意念中。所以要持守神所赐的，通过信心并智慧地运用，就会看到恩赐会不断增长，力上加力，荣上加荣。感谢主。

Marianne 姐妹

我来自北京一个传统教会，来参加约书亚营会之前并没有告诉牧者。我在http://www.ckrm.org/ 网站上看到这个事工后很感兴趣，因为以前从未听过圣火恩膏和主在CKRM中的这些作为。我并不知道这么远从中国赶来参加这个营会是否正确，Sarah帮我订了机票和酒店，我最终还是很高兴来到这里。在来之前，我问神我参加的目的是什么，神告诉我来观看祂的大能，开我的眼界。在营会中，我看到了很多的圣灵大能彰显，确实使我眼界大开，感到神的平安。主说这些是我的工作，不要害怕。我在来之前得了重感冒不能说话，但我到达后开始敬拜神后，感冒竟然好了。当保罗牧师说圣火降下时，我感到神的能力降下进入我的里面，我也敞开心来领受。

Dr Lilibeth David

我来自菲律宾，这是我第一次接受圣灵和火的洗。当保罗牧师说圣火降下时，我感到神的能力充满我的身体。有趣的是，我原来感到的头痛，后来当神的能力在我身上时，头疼不见了。我相信神已经开始在我身上做工，并会继续给我属灵祝福。

Karen姐妹

我来自一个有13个成员的家庭。我一直渴慕得到父爱，我也一直追求属灵的事情，但没有什么进展。在营会中，我感受到了天父的爱。我领受了圣灵喜笑和犹大狮子吼。我发现在营会中圣灵的彰显非常强烈，甚至有时我感到在地如在天上。我真的在这里感到主的同在。

Jenifer Lim 姐妹

三年前我在新加坡停止了去CKRM。上礼拜五我接到保罗牧师的电话后，我先是惊讶无言。我从未想过重回CKRM。但10月份我有感动需要神的能力来做祂呼召我做的事情。我需要重新领受圣火的恩膏。如果我要用祷告和代祷支持牧师的事工，我需要神再次触摸我。我非常高兴参加这次营会，当保罗牧师说圣火降下时，我感到后背非常热。之前，我并不理解CKRM事工。现在，神非常清楚地告诉我保罗牧师在CKRM的事工是启示性动作。

Tan Chui Swan 姐妹

我开始的时候对圣灵一无所知。当我第一次领受圣灵和火的洗时，我的手开始颤抖。因为无知，我试图抓住自己的手不让它抖。接下来在CKRM当神的能力触摸我时，我躺在地上7个小时。我感到很多的能力在我里面，当听到一个姐妹哭时，我也开始跟她一起哭并与她祷告。我并不知道圣灵在使用我来服事人。我开始经历很多奇妙的事，因为有一个声音从里面对我说话。当我犯错误时，这个声音会引领我悔改。圣灵对我说话并引导我每天与祂同行。祂也膏抹我来更好的弹琴，因为我弹琴的知识并不多。我开始有了信心来做主要我去做的任何事情。我对圣灵的敏锐度也日益增加。赞美神带领我来到CKRM。

Isa 姐妹

我第一次与神相遇非常奇妙，在一次教会聚会中，当他们为我祷告后，我开始颤抖。敬拜音乐响起后，我的身体开始随敬拜摆动。当我回到家里后，仍然持续着这种敬拜。我开始更强烈地敬拜主，倒在地上几个小时。我醒来后继续敬拜然后又倒在地上，持续了整个晚上。我醉在圣灵里。但当我分享自己的经历时，很多基督徒不理解我。在敬拜中，我感觉自己的灵与神的灵相连。在敬拜时，圣灵引导我做很多创意的动作，很多教会不接受我的动作。我感到很沮丧，告诉神我不要再敬拜了。但同时我也敬畏神。一天，神告诉我要敬畏祂而不要怕人。我感谢神通过Cynthia姐妹带我到CKRM。在CKRM经过装备，我属灵成长很快，在敬拜中，当圣灵向我启示一个人的心声时，我能分辨出这个人的果子，如这个人是否有爱心、关怀或充满仇恨等。我感谢神带我来到CKRM，这真的是圣灵引导的事工。

Inga

感谢Janet姐妹邀请我来参加营会。当保罗牧师说圣灵的火降下时，我体验到了从未有过的经历。在做任何一件事时，我会先求问主，祂在一个梦中告诉我去参加约书亚营。主说，我要膏抹你，打开你的心，我要向你显明神迹奇事。主也要我读使徒行传。在营会中，我看到了神真是信实的神。祂是如此真实、永远信实。感谢你，主。

Joel How弟兄

我参加了历届约书亚营会，从未错过一次。我看到神的工作不断增长，力上加力、荣上加荣。如果有太多的圣经知识却没有启示，我们经常会变得律法主义。不要误会，神的话非常重要，但没有油（圣灵）来启示话语，话语只停留在“logos”上。耶稣在马可福音8:13-21谈到酵的问题，祂警告他们意念的影响——能够把启示和更新的营养夺走（Bill Johnson）。在这次营会中，我看到那些以敞开的心渴慕神的人，无不被主以独特的方式触摸。当神的风吹来时，我们必须迅速扬起帆来乘圣灵之风前进。我寻求神多年，看到在很多聚会中都有圣灵同在，但只有在CKRM，圣灵是自由的运行。当暴风雨出现在我的生活中时，感谢神，因祂的恩典使我认识到主仍在船上与我同在。

当保罗牧师叫我们出来接受祷告时，主对我的灵大声而清楚地说，祂没有留下祂所爱的孩子为孤儿。马太福音13:16-17节，“但你们的眼睛是有福的，因为看见了。你们的耳朵也是有福的，因为听见了。我实在告诉你们，从前有许多先知和义人，要看你们所看的，却没有看见。要听你们所听的，却没有听见。”主是奇妙的，祂的美善无法用言词表达。我期待着2011年第七届约书亚营会，迫不及待地想要成为主在2011年工作的一部分。

Nellie Quek 姐妹

9月18日是我记得非常清楚的一天，这天之前是几个月的属灵试炼和挑战，之后又伴随着两个月的不确定期。这天主把我放在顺服的试验中，祂要我离开CKRM马六甲。你是说离开吗？是的，你听到的对。离开。但我要去哪里呢？主感动我的心留在家里，花时间在祂的同在中，学习祂的道。这是不是说我以后去CKRM八打灵再也呢？直到第六届约书亚营。这是我得到的回答。

10月1日，我被感动要禁食7天，然后接下来在约书亚营会之前40天禁食。在后一个禁食阶段的几天，我遇到了困难。当我寻求主，得到的话是停止禁食。然后约书亚营前一个月，我试图在网上预定酒店，结果遇到困难。主，你在告诉我什么事吗？难道我不要去参加？然而没有回答。约书亚营前一周，我最终获准参加营会，但只是星期六一天，就是11月27日。所以当保罗牧师25日给我打电话时，我告诉他我只在那天参加。

营会前几天，感动我要在营会的三天中禁食，只喝水。哦，主，给我力量来顺服你。我急切地祷告。你知道，在我一生中从未有过这样的禁食。星期六早晨6点，我等候出租车来载我到八打灵再也参加营会。因为起的早，我感到头晕不舒服、血糖过低，我问主是否可以喝点。当我得到“是”时，迅速又问是否也可以吃点面包。不到一分钟时间内，我消灭掉了Milo 和面包。我感到非常恶心，全部都呕吐了出去。吐完后感到正常了，感觉很好。赞美神，祂知道我并原谅我软弱的行为。

在礼拜六保罗牧师分享的时候，我得到了感动，第二天仍然来参加。那天晚上，我回到马六甲。当我礼拜天早晨醒来时，感到不舒服，腹部抽搐、头晕眼花、恶心呕吐。我感觉非常不好，但又必须顺服神去八打灵再也。主啊，帮助我，我真的感到很不舒服。如果这禁食是出于你，我应该很好的。我不知道怎么回事。然后我听到声音告诉我吃点蜜，只一小口。当我上午8点到达八打灵再也时，全然恢复健康。荣耀归神！

毋需多说，我在第六届约书亚营度过了一段最蒙福的时间。恩膏如此厚重可及，到一个地步，当保罗牧师叫马六甲的人到前面时，恩膏如此之厚重，我全然被恩膏击倒。我们在礼拜天度过了一个奇妙的敬拜赞美时间。在我这保守的一生时间里，我第一次感到周围的人变得模糊了，我放弃了所有的矜持约束，单单让圣灵完全掌管我。我感到非常活泼，与我的弟兄姐妹们一同敬拜赞美我们的主，彼此合一如同一人在基督身体中。我感到自己回家了，这才是我所属的地方。阿门！
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CKRM满有能力-Rainbow姐妹的见证

“耶和华已经开了武库，拿出他恼恨的兵器；因为主万军之耶和华在迦勒底人之地有当做的事。”(耶50:25)

耶和华真有武库，我原来以为只是比喻而已。

当Sarah姐妹邀请我去CKRM的时候，我是不打算去的。我的状况是接受灵恩之后，有能力了一段时间然后就摔下来了，参加灵恩聚会我没什么感觉，只是个观察者，对灵恩有许多的怀疑和惧怕。但我有不死心，我盼望大有能力，使那些被压制的可以得自由，基督徒可以喜欢去教会（以前去教会简直就是折磨）。刚接受灵恩的时候，我不吃不喝都要守在聚会里，害怕浪费了一秒钟聚会的时间，我多么渴望那样的日子重现。看了CKRM网上的视频，我觉得恩膏很强，又看到去过这个聚会的Sarah姐妹也满正常的，所以我也就愿意去看看了。

第一天还是有许多的惧怕，特别是以前有个毛病怕“沾染”，谁也不准碰我，连握手也很勉强。而且后来到灵恩聚会一直也没什么感觉，我有时候也怀疑我过去灵恩感觉好象不真实。

“耶和华说：「我的话岂不像火，又像能打碎盘石的大锤吗？」”(耶23:29),然后有人用锤子来敲头，打破人的固有思维的硬壳。我也出去让一个姐妹敲了两下（看起来象手拿空气在空中做敲的动作），当时也没感觉，但坐下来后，感觉头部有个地方恩膏可以进入了（没接受过灵恩的是不容易知道恩膏是什么的），所以惊奇锤子真的是有用的。不知道怎么解释，我只是隐约知道怎么回事。

后来Thomas弟兄给我祷告传递雷和闪电的恩膏，我闭着眼真的看到在黑暗中有红色的闪电一闪，我以为是有人拍照，结果没有。然后他传递吹气恩膏，我竟然一直可以吹气了。以前在灵恩聚会我只有傻看的份，我以为我不属于灵恩范畴，但心里又有点不甘心。没想到头脑清清醒醒的也不费劲就得着了。回家祷告的时候恩膏也强，我才知道我恢复了很多了。最重要的是我不害怕了，突然就刚强壮胆了。

第二天很高兴我看到单姐妹得到了“印证恩膏”，跟她谈话的时候她就没有装假的机会了，心里有什么就说什么。 她告诉我主动与主同钉十字架的道理，然后我就突然明白了。因为了解了真实的她，觉得应该对她好一些，应该对弟兄姐妹好一些，特别想对丈夫好一些。我感觉我们看不见人的心，所以总是缺乏怜悯。心里就立志回家不再吵架了。印证恩膏在爱修园也有，就是那些倒在地上的人闭眼说的“YES——”之类的。但在CKRM，大家头脑清醒中，可以看见这个恩膏的运行，能力很大。

第三天我在敬拜的时候突然饶恕了我一直不能够饶恕的一个福音派的牧者。那天的敬拜很好，我表达了我对基督的渴慕。我想到神来是要救我们不是要定我们的罪，也求神给我敬畏神的心。后来我坐在那里，圣火恩膏一直降在我身上，没有人为我祷告，因为我自己祷告愿意献上自己焚烧在主的祭坛面前。后来Thomas弟兄给我喝“水变的酒”，当然看起来就是手捧着空气，但是我喝的时候真的是满口酒味道，然后我就一直笑不停，好象很开心，动作也很灵敏的。后来保罗牧师给我喝火酒，真的是满口冒火，好象是醉了。我是不喝酒的，这样喝酒真好，可以多喝些也不怕醉。开心了，就没有忧虑了。主的喜乐是我的力量。

CKRM的弟兄姐妹真的很友善，巴不得把恩赐都传给我，可惜这是最后一天，没什么时间了，时间多一点儿我会得到更多。回来后的第一天情绪比较低落，可是当我一告的时候，圣灵恩膏很强的同在，让我也很欢喜。

CKRM的恩膏与其他灵恩不同。真的各处有不同的恩膏的，我们的上帝是很丰富的。CKRM能够照顾到每个人的需要，而且在争战方面很有能力。

后来我读圣经,“又在伊甸园的东边安设基路伯和四面转动发火焰的剑，要把守生命树的道路。”(创3:24) ，发现“四面转动发火焰的剑”就是神的武器之一了。