1.一个运用属灵武器的经历
从第五届约书亚营回来一个月了，感觉应该写点什么。于是做了很多预备，随时把自己的思路和感动记在笔记上。一些天过去，发现笔记上记了很多线索、经文，但我却写不出完整的文章来，因为很零散，而且内容太多。我想整理出提纲来，却做不到。我就想，也许写这个文章的时候不到？或者对CKRM的理解不够深入？
一天早晨，又有感动开始写这篇文章，但仍然很混乱，加之仇敌藉着一些事情攻击我的思想，我感觉自己的思维不够清晰，无法下笔。突然我想起了Joyce Tai 牧师的见证 （http://ckrm.org/cn/?p=841），也想起神藉着保罗牧师给了我意念更新的武器。我奉主耶稣基督的名用这个武器敲自己的头，同时斥责混乱的思想和辖制离开。敲了几下之后，犹大狮子吼被释放出来，伴随着吹角、吹气，同时我也挥舞圣灵宝剑争战。过了20分钟左右，有呕吐的感觉，我知道得了释放，并且喜乐的灵降下，我的思维清晰起来。浸泡在神的同在中，我明白了神要我写什么。神不是要我讲很多道理或引用很多经文来支持自己的观点，神现在只是要我写下自己的经历作为见证。于是我在十分钟之内把提纲写出来，并且补充一些关键内容。
2．恩赐和恩膏需要持守和操练
得到属灵恩赐相对容易，但持守不容易。撒旦不甘心我们得到属灵好处，牠一定会来偷窃破坏。主耶稣讲过撒种的比喻，飞鸟会来吞吃。士师记6：3-4，6“以色列人每逢撒种之后，米甸人，亚玛力人，和东方人都上来攻打他们，对着他们安营，毁坏土产，直到迦萨，没有给以色列人留下食物，牛，羊，驴也没有留下” “以色列人因米甸人的缘故，极其穷乏…”。
我们刚刚得到属灵恩赐，就像神给我们的种子，需要用信心持守，防备仇敌的偷窃和欺骗，并不断操练使恩赐成长。否则我们会像以色列人一样：极其穷乏。
一些被大多数灵恩派基督徒接受的恩赐比较容易持守，如方言、先知预言、医病恩赐等，因为这些恩赐是可见的或可理解的。然而CKRM的恩赐多是用于属灵争战的，了解的人不多，相关知识也少，理性上不容易通过，需要更多地通过信心持守并操练。感谢主，从营会回来这一个月里，CKRM的牧师们和弟兄姐妹通过网络和电话对我有很多服事，继续给我传递恩膏，鼓励我操练，使我能平稳渡过疑惑期，进入更深的经历和理解。
很多人悟性上不明白，就接受仇敌的欺骗，轻易否定这些恩赐和恩膏，于是不继续操练，也就不会去经历，不会有真正的理解，如此落入仇敌的网罗中，最终放弃丢失掉。如果凭信心操练，在逐渐经历中，对恩赐的认识会加深，信心也越来越大，神也会给多开启。赞美神，我们的信仰本来就是“本于信以至于信”（罗马书1：17），“有的还要加给他”（马太福音13：12）。不迈出信心的步伐，永远不会前进。
3. 我在这段期间的改变
a. 靠主喜乐
近几年我很少有喜乐，很难笑出来，我也知道要常常喜乐，但我就是很难笑出来。营会中保罗牧师为我祷告，领受喜乐的灵，回来后保罗牧师和Thomas弟兄又通过网络给我传递喜乐的恩膏，尤其读过保罗牧师转发的一篇关于圣灵中喜笑的文章后（Holy Laughter—What's it All About?），我对喜乐有了进一步了解。我敞开自己的心向神求喜乐充满，感谢神，现在我有很大的突破，脸上经常会带着笑容，很多时候会莫名其妙地笑。
以前经历艰难时，我通常会靠意志敬拜主，在痛苦中赞美，以为能在苦难中保持对主的忠心和爱就是得胜了，当然这很宝贵，但现在我知道那还不是真正的得胜，我们还要在百般试炼中大喜乐”（雅各书1：2）。然而这不是我们自己的力量能达到的，我们是要靠主喜乐”（腓立比书4：4）。以前我也会经常说“靠主喜乐”、“靠主喜乐”，但其实并不真正明白，因为没有经历。现在不同了，有时感到心里痛苦的时候，我会呼求喜乐的灵，马上喜乐充满了我，很轻松地就越过了痛苦。感谢神，祂的喜乐是多么奇妙宝贵的武器呀！不是倚靠势力、不是倚靠才能，惟独倚靠耶和华的灵方能成事（撒加利亚书4：6）。赞美主！
b. 更有能力的祷告
在以前的祷告中，我通常采用较长时间的方言祷告，然后才会有犹大狮子吼，但经过营会后，恩赐被重新激活和加强，现在悟性祷告也经常会运用犹大狮子吼、吹角、打雷等，都是圣灵带领下很自然地释放出来。在家里祷告的时候，为了不影响邻居，我释放狮子吼的时候会把声音压低，使气流主要在胸腔压出，发出的声音就不会太大。我所在的教会是传统教会，但在主日聚会会前祷告的时候，我也采用这种方式使用这些恩赐。
不同恩赐和恩膏是相互效力，但还有一个最基础的恩膏-圣火的恩膏。说实话，开始时我也不知道圣火恩膏到底有什么用，难道只是领受的时候有感觉而已吗？读了保罗牧师圣火恩膏及目的（http://pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2008/10/fire-anointing-and-its-purpose.html，对我启发很大。现在我知道圣火的恩膏是基础，首先是要有圣火的恩膏，对我炼净，并除去很多仇敌的拦阻，提升我属灵敏锐度，然后其他的恩膏作用才会发挥效力。
赞美神，祂有无限的智慧和大能！
Dr Sarah Shan
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Maintaining and practicing my spiritual gifting – Dr Sarah Shan
1. An experience of using spiritual weapons
It has been a month since returning from the 5th Joshua Camp and I sensed that the Lord wants me to write something. So I made many preparations, constantly noting down my thoughts and sentiments on a notebook. After a while, I realized that there are many “clues” and scriptures on my notebook but I couldn’t write out a complete article because the content was too scattered and too much. I wanted to outline what I wanted to write but I just couldn’t. I began to ponder; probably it is not the time to write this article yet or it is because of my understanding of CKRM is not comprehensive enough?
One morning, I felt the urge to write the article again but it was still in a very messy stage. Furthermore, the enemy attacked my mind through some matters and caused my thoughts to be unclear. I was unable to write. Suddenly, I recalled the testimony of Pastor Joyce Tai（http://www.ckrm.org/?p=2433) where Pastor Paul imparted the mind renewal spiritual weapon to me. I used this spiritual weapon in the name of Jesus to knock on my head while commanding the chaotic thoughts and any mind controlling powers to leave me. After a few knocks, the roar of the Lion of Judah was activated, followed by the shofar and blowing anointing. At the same time I was also wielding the Sword of the Spirit and engaging in spiritual warfare. After 20 minutes, I felt the need to vomit and I knew that I had been delivered. The Spirit of joy came upon me and my thoughts began to clear up. As I soaked in the presence of God, I knew what God wanted me to write about. God didn’t want me to use lots of arguments and scriptures to support my views. Instead He only wanted me to write down my experiences as a testimony. So I outlined what I wanted to write in 10 minutes supported with various key points.
2. The need to maintain and practise spiritual gifting and anointing
Acquiring spiritual gifting is easy but maintaining it is not. Satan is not happy when we prosper spiritually, he will surely come to kill, steal and destroy what we have acquired. In the parable of the Sower, Jesus told us that the birds ate up the seeds that fell along the path. In Judges 6:3-4, “Whenever the Israelites planted their crops, the Midianites, Amalekites and other eastern peoples invaded the country. They camped on the land and ruined the crops all the way to Gaza and did not spare a living thing for Israel, neither sheep nor cattle nor donkeys.” In verse 6 it says “Midian so impoverished the Israelites …”
The spiritual gifting we initially received is like the seeds God gave us - requires faith to maintain, keep away from the deception of the enemy so that it won’t be “stolen” and constantly practise the gifting so that it will grow otherwise we will be like the Israelites who become impoverished.
Some spiritual gifting which most Charismatic Christians received are easier to maintain. These gifting include speaking in tongues, the gift of prophecy, the gift of healing etc. This is because those gifting are tangible and easily understood. However, the spiritual gifting in CKRM is used mainly for spiritual warfare and there are not many people who can completely understand. Relevant information is also scarce and not easily understood by the logical mind. It requires more faith to maintain and practise such spiritual gifting. Thank God, since returning from the camp a month ago, the pastors, brothers and sisters in CKRM continue to minister at a faster pace to me through the internet and phone by imparting the anointing and encouraging me to exercise the gifting. This enables me to minimize doubts and grows deeper in understanding and experiencing the Lord.
Many people who try to understand these gifting and anointing intellectually are easily deceived by the enemy and end up making conclusion these are not from God. They stop practising them and thus, will not experience or have a real understanding of the gifting. So in this way, they fall into the enemy’s trap and eventually abandon the gifting and anointing. If they would have continued practising them by faith, gradually they would have gained deeper understanding of the spiritual gifting and their faith would have grown. God would have also given them more revelations. Praise God, our faith is based on “The righteous will live by faith (Romans 1:17), “12Whoever has will be given more” (Mat 13:12). Without stepping out in faith, one would never go forward.
3. The changes in me during this period
a. Joy of the Lord
In recent years, I have experienced very little joy and could barely laugh. I know that I should always be joyful but I just find it hard to do so. During the camp, Pastor Paul prayed for me to receive the joy of the Lord. After returning home, Pastor Paul and Brother Thomas continue to impart the joy of the Lord to me via the internet. After reading an article “Holy Laughter – What’s it all about” sent to me by Pastor Paul, my understanding regarding the joy of the Lord has deepened. I opened my heart and asked God to fill me with joy. Thank God, I have experienced tremendous breakthrough and my face is always full of smiles nowadays. Many a times, I find myself smiling for no particular reason.
In the past when the going gets tough, I often depend on my will to worship the Lord earnestly. I thought that I had overcome my problems when my loyalty and love for the Lord remained steadfast while going through trials. This is of course precious, but I know now that this is still not real victory. “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds” (James 1:2). This is not what we can achieve by our own strength but our joy is in the Lord (Philippians 4:4). In the past, I often proclaimed “Rejoice in the Lord” , “Rejoice in the Lord” but I don’t really know what it means because I have yet to experience it. It is different now. Nowadays when in misery, I will ask to be filled with the Spirit of joy and immediately joy will fill me. Going through misery is a breeze now. Thank God because His joy is such an amazing and precious weapon! 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,'(Zechariah 4:6). Praise God!
b. More power in prayer
In the past, I needed to pray for a longer period of time in tongues before the roar of the Lion of Judah could be activated. After the camp, the gifting has been revitalized and strengthened. Nowadays, even while praying with words, I could activate the roar of the Lion of Judah, blowing of the shofar, lighting anointing etc. All these are released naturally by the leading of the Holy Spirit. When praying at home, for the sake of not disturbing my neighbours, I will lower my loudness when releasing the roar of the Lion of Judah by regulating the airflow in my throat cavity. I am still in a traditional church but during the pre-service prayer meeting, I use these methods to practice my spiritual gifting.
Different spiritual gifting and anointing builds up each other but there is one fundamental anointing – The Fire Anointing. Truthfully, I didn’t know what its purpose in the beginning was. Did it serve as an experience? Interestingly, after reading the article on Fire anointing by Pastor Paul (http://pastorpaulang.blogspot.com/2008/10/fire-anointing-and-its-purpose.html)，I was greatly inspired. Now I know the reason behind the fire anointing which is the very foundation of a true disciple of Jesus – Fire Anointing purifies me, removes the blockages done by the enemy and enhances my spiritual sensitivity. Once all this is done the other gifting will be activated too.
Praise God, for His wisdom and power which are limitless!
Dr Sarah Shan
(Translation from Mandarin to English by our Editorial Team)
我们欢迎Weiming 和Thomas Chong弟兄加入CKRM 网页同工的阵容。Weiming弟兄刚刚为我们的网站http://www.ckrm.org/ 重新换了新的面貌，与时并进。
我们也欢迎身在中国的Sarah副教授加入我们CKRM的编辑队。Sarah 也把我们最近第五届约书亚营的录影片段转换和上载到http://so.tudou.com/isearch.do?kw=CKRM
还有那等待已久，由我们网站团长Victoria姐妹撰写的新书“经历神的荣耀”在约珥弟兄和马可牧师编改后即将出炉。
我们感谢和赞美神带领了更多有才华的同工加入CKRM来推进发展，增进和扩张祂的国度。
以賽亞书60:1-3“兴起，发光！因为你的光已经来到！耶和华的荣耀发现照耀你。看哪，黑暗遮盖大地，幽暗遮盖万民，耶和华却要显现照耀你；他的荣耀要现在你身上。万国要来就你的光，君王要来就你发现的光辉。”第五节“那时，你看见就有光荣；你心又跳动又宽畅。”
CKRM的其中一位领袖见证说她无需再去美容院做脸部护理。因为自从参加了CKRM的聚会和不断的浸泡在神的同在中，她的脸真的容光焕发多了。
那膏油，也就是神的荣耀必使重担离开你的肩头和折断那轭（以賽亞书10:27）也为人们带来医治和释放。一位神的仆人在他出版的书上如此写道：“圣灵居住在所有信徒的身上，但却很少人能留住祂荣耀的同在。”
因此，那些没有神荣耀同在的基本上可说是不曾经历过神。神使用来点燃一九九四年多伦多复兴之火的仆人，Randy Clark如此说：“任何一个不曾与神相遇的人实际上是不认识神的。”
就如箴言书14:4所说的：“家里无牛槽头乾净；土产加多乃凭牛力”，是神的同在吸引人到祂辉煌显赫的教会来！
Latest Update & Announcement - June 2010
We welcome Bro Weiming and Bro Thomas Chong to be part of CKRM Website Team. Bro Weiming has just completed the redesigning of our website http://www.ckrm.org/ thus,moving ahead with times.
We also welcome Associate Professor Sarah who is in China to be part of our CKRM Editorial Team. Sarah has converted the video preview, a short presentation of our recent 5th Joshua Camp onto a Chinese website through this link http://so.tudou.com/isearch.do?kw=CKRM
The much awaited book entitled “Experience His Glory”, authored by our Website Team leader Sis Victoria Ho will soon be published after our Editor, Bro Joel How and Sub-editor Pastor Mark Tay have completed the edition.
We thank and praise God for leading more talented co-workers to CKRM to advance, enhance and expand His kingdom.
Isaiah 60:1-3, “Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the people, but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you. Nations will come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your dawn.” Verse 5: “Then you will look and be radiant your heart will throb and swell with joy.”
One of our CKRM leaders testify that she doesn't have to go for facial treatment anymore as her
face now is so radiant after soaking in the presence of God at CKRM meetings.
The anointing which is the glory of God breaks the yoke of bondage (Isaiah 10:27) and brings healing and deliverance to the people. A man of God wrote in his book “The Holy Spirit lives in all believers, but the glory of His presence comes to rest on very few.”
Hence, those who do not have the glory of God’s presence rested on them do not have the experience with God. Randy Clark, the man God used to initiate the fire of revival in Toronto in 1994, puts his view this way: “Anyone who doesn’t have an experience with God doesn’t know God.”
It is the presence of God that draws people to a glorious Church as in Proverbs 14:4 “Where there is no oxen, the manger is empty, but from the strength of an ox comes an abundant harvest.”
我在中国一所大学做副教授，原本对CKRM一无所知。但在神的奇妙带领下，发现了这个事工并参加了第五届约书亚营，在营会中经历了神的大能和祝福。以下是我的见证，从计划参加一直到营会结束的经历。
1．决定参加第五届约书亚营
在4月的时候，我在网上搜索爱修园信息时，发现了保罗牧师的BLOG，因为其中有关于爱修园与CKRM断绝关系的文章。我对CKRM事工产生了兴趣，于是详细阅读了保罗牧师的BLOG，首先看了神对保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师的呼召过程，看到两位牧师确实是顺服神的带领创建了CKRM。同时，我又读了一些弟兄姐妹的见证，我主要看的不是神迹奇事，而是要看这个事工是否有生命建造方面的果子。从见证中，我发现了很多弟兄姐妹的生命翻转，不只是表面的神迹奇事而已。于是我心中有了想去CKRM的想法。起初想参加第六届约书亚营，因为现在的工作很忙。但心里总是感觉不平安，好象有个催促，于是最终决定参加第五届约书亚营，心里才平安下来。
2．仇敌的拦阻与争战
当我决定参加营会并做好安排之后，仇敌开始攻击我，我陷入很大的黑暗之中，怀疑、惧怕、混乱攻击我。因为我是爱修园的远距学生，而爱修园已经与CKRM断绝关系。仇敌攻击我的心思意念，使我担心CKRM不是属神的。仇敌的攻击很强烈，我感觉几乎要崩溃，只能在神面前哭求，求神帮助我，告诉我是否是祂要我去CKRM。
家里墙上有一节经文，以赛亚书41：10“你不要害怕，因为我与你同在。不要惊惶，因为我是你的神。我必坚固你，我必帮助你，我必用我公义的右手扶持你。”我手按在经文上呼求神，感觉到平安。
我也想起了这种攻击我曾经经历过。因我刚信主的时候，是在异端中，后来神带领我走了出来。当我要走出异端的时候，也曾受过这种攻击，因为那时对神认识不多，经过了半年多挣扎才走出来。现在的攻击我觉得有些熟悉了，而且我对神的认识比那时要清楚，我知道疑惑和惧怕不是出于神，不是神的拦阻，是仇敌的拦阻。我心里也有很深的一个感动，这次去CKRM会给我的生命带来很大的突破，也要建立起新的连接。
经过一周的争战，我终于胜了过来。但仇敌又开始攻击我的家人，甚至我一个四岁的小侄女进入医院，我动身出发的时候，她已经在医院里近半个月了，为我代祷的几个姐妹家里也受到了攻击。我心里很难过，但我知道我必须去，我对神承诺要放下一切走祂为我命定的道路。从决定去参加营会到动身出发，经过了一个多月的争战，感到身心灵都很疲惫。尤其家人受攻击，真的是很难过。于是带着很沉重的心动身前往CKRM。
3．营会中的祝福
来到了CKRM，感到很温暖，牧师和弟兄姐妹都很亲切，脸上带着笑容，给我很多照顾。以往也参加过一些特会，弟兄姐妹间好像都彼此隔绝，从没有感觉到这么多爱。聚会中很开心，看到神的大能的同时，也感到神做事很有趣，这几天我笑的很多，把一段时间里争战的阴暗和压力释放了出去。
在营会中，从神领受了很多祝福。几个姐妹对我发预言，说神对我的呼召是真的。因为我一直感觉神对我有呼召，但我不肯定，经常求问神。姐妹们的预言给了我印证。后来以斯帖牧师给我祷告的时候，也对我说，神对我的呼召是真的，并对我说不要走在神的前头。神藉着保罗牧师给我传递了宝剑、圣火、意念更新的工具。在营会中，神以前给我的一些恩赐也被加强和激活，如狮子吼、吹气、跳舞敬拜的恩赐。以前我不清楚这些是神给的恩赐，也不知道如何用。
营会结束后，晚上保罗牧师、以斯帖牧师和几位弟兄姐妹继续服事我。神感动保罗牧师，让Elizabeth姐妹给我传递敬拜的恩膏，我开始舞蹈敬拜神。当我跳舞的时候，保罗牧师说我的恩赐刚刚被激活，但当时我不知道这个恩赐对我来讲有多么重要。在回来的路上，当我一想到敬拜，灵里开始跳舞，感到神的很强的同在降下来。回家以后，也是这样的感觉，而且我更渴慕来敬拜神，发现自己想要更深的敬拜祂，与祂有更亲密的关系，更多渴慕祂，我也发现自己对神的爱和渴慕还远远不够。
保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师还为我做了其他很多祷告，重新启动我的狮子吼，并为我的启示性恩赐及其他方面祷告。我相信，神藉着约书亚营会给我的属灵祝福不只是这些，以上只是我知道，但神给我的远超过我所想到的。
晚上十点多，因为要赶第二天早晨的飞机，依依不舍地告别了牧师和弟兄姐妹。以前也参加过一些特会或营会，从来没有这种感觉，感到对CKRM很有感情，舍不得离开。
4．对CKRM的认识
通过这次营会，我对CKRM有了更多的认识，确信这个事工是神所重用和祝福的事工。保罗牧师和以斯帖牧师是在服事神的心。我知道不能把他们的服事与其他事工相比较，因为神所量给每个人的不一样，但我觉得CKRM没有那些虚浮假冒的东西，而是更多的真实。
有些人对像CKRM这样的超自然事工不理解，认为只是单纯追求恩赐和神迹奇事，但通过我自己的经历，我知道不是这样的。就我来讲，我更加想要亲近神，顺服神，过圣洁的生活。读经的时候，也更感觉到神的同在，经文更加活泼起来。营会上保罗牧师、以斯帖牧师和其他牧师对弟兄姐妹也是很严格的教导。还有些姐妹被提到三层天，带着主的话语下来，传达主的忧虑，指出CKRM中存在的问题。这也说明是主在监管着这个事工，要不断引导弟兄姐妹快跑跟随祂。
愿神祝福、保守CKRM，带领CKRM更加进深，并时时警醒，使CKRM按神的心意完成神的托付，走在神对CKRM的最高最完全的命定中。奉主耶稣基督的圣名，阿门！
Dr Sarah Shan
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A university of China associate professor’s unforgettable encounter with God in CKRM Malacca
I am an associate professor of a university in China. Initially, I knew nothing about CKRM but under the amazing leading of God, I stumbled upon this ministry and joined the 5th Joshua Camp. During the camp, I experienced God’s awesome power and blessing. Below is my testimony of what I had experienced from the time I planned to join the camp until the camp was over.
1. Decide to join the 5th Joshua Camp
In April, while I was searching online for information on Agape Renewal Center (ARC), USA I stumbled upon Ps Paul’s blog as it contained an article about the disassociation of Agape Leadership with CKRM. I got interested in the ministry of CKRM and read Ps Paul’s blog thoroughly. Firstly, I read about how God called Ps Paul and Ps Esther and how they obeyed the leading of God to set up CKRM. I also read the testimonies of other brothers and sisters at the same time – I was not looking for signs and wonders but whether this ministry bore any fruits in the process of building up our lives. From the testimonies, I realized that the lives of many brothers and sisters were turned around and not merely just signs and wonders at the surface level. With such positive results, I had the thoughts of going to CKRM to explore. In the beginning, I wanted to join the 6th Joshua Camp as I was busy with lots of work during this season. However, there was no peace in my heart due to a sense of urgency to encounter God. In the end, I decided to join the much earlier -5th Joshua Camp and interestingly peace settled in my heart.
2. The enemy’s obstruction and spiritual warfare
After I have decided to join the 5th Joshua Camp and made arrangements, the enemy began to attack me. I fell into deep darkness; doubt, fear and confusion attacked me as I am a long ‘on-line’ student of ARC, USA and Agape who had disassociated itself with CKRM. The enemy attacked my mind and caused me to question whether CKRM is a ministry of God. The attacks from the enemy was very intense, I felt as if I was going to fall apart. I could only cry before God, pleading with Him to reveal whether He wanted me to go CKRM.
On the wall in my home was a scripture, Isaiah 41:10 “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” I cried out to God while placing my hand on this scripture and felt the peace of God again.
I also recalled that I had experienced such attacks before. When I first became a believer, I was in a heretic group. Later on, God led me out of this group. When I was leaving this group, I also experienced such attacks. Back then, I didn’t know God well and it took half a year of struggle before I could leave this group. The attacks I experienced now felt familiar and I knew God much better now as compared to the past. I knew that doubt and fear were not of God and this was not an obstruction from God but from the enemy. I also felt deep in my heart that this trip to CKRM would bring tremendous breakthrough in my life and established new connection.
After a week of spiritual warfare, I emerged victorious. But the enemy began to attack my family members. A 4 year old niece of mine was hospitalized. When I departed, she was already in the hospital for half a month. The families of the sisters who interceded for me were also attacked. I felt sad but I knew I must go – I promised God that I would put down everything to walk in the path He has prepared for me. From the time I decided to join the camp for departure, after more than a month of spiritual warfare, I was exhausted physically, emotionally and spiritually. The attack on my family was truly upsetting for me. With a heavy heart, I departed for CKRM .
3. The blessing during camp
I felt the warmth of the people when I arrived in CKRM. The pastors, brothers and sisters were very friendly with smiles on their faces and they took good care of me. In the past, I have also attended conferences & camps before and the people seemed to isolate one another. I had never felt so much love. I was very joyful throughout the camp. Besides witnessing the power of God, I also felt that the way God did things was very interesting. I laughed a lot during the camp and was released from the oppression and pressure that I had for a while. The joy of the Lord set me free from the one month of torment from the enemy.
During the camp, I received many blessings from God. A few sisters prophesied to me that God’s calling in my life is real. I had always felt that I had a calling but I wasn’t certain and often asked God. The prophesies from the sisters provided the confirmation. Later on, when Ps Esther was praying for me, she also told me that God’s calling in my life was real and told me not to run ahead of God. God used Ps Paul to impart the sword of the spirit, the fire anointing, the mind renewal weapon etc. During the camp, God also increased and activated the anointing of some previous spiritual gifting in me such as the roar of the Lion of Judah, worship anointing etc. In the past, I didn’t know that these were spiritual gifts from God and didn’t know how to use them. The fire of God activated the gifts in me.
After the camp was over, Ps Paul, Ps Esther and a few brothers and sisters continued to minister to me. God prompted Ps Paul to ask sister Elizabeth to impart the worship anointing to me and I began to dance and worshipped God. As I was dancing, Ps Paul said my gift had just been activated. Back then, I didn’t realize the importance of this gift to me. On my way home, whenever I thought of worshipping God, I would start to dance in the Spirit and felt God’s presence descended very strongly on me. After reaching home, I still could feel this way and longed to worship God even more. I realized that I longed to worship Him even more deeply and to know Him more intimately. I also realized that my love and longing for God was still not enough. There was a constant longing to be close to Him.
Ps Paul and Ps Esther also prayed for me on many other things; re-activating my roar of the Lion of Judah and prayed for the gift of prophecy and for many other areas. I knew God through Joshua Camp did not just bless me with these things, but even much more beyond my imagination. I had developed such a affection for CKRM and the brothers and sisters when I felt very reluctant to leave which I had never felt before among other meetings which I had attended in the past.
4. My understanding of CKRM
Through this camp, my understanding of CKRM has deepened. I firmly believed that this is a ministry where God blessed and used me mightily. Ps Paul and Ps Esther have the hearts that serve God and minister according to God’s heartbeat. I know I cannot compare their ministry with others as what God gives everyone of us is different but I felt that there is nothing hypocritical or false about CKRM. On the contrary, it just could not be more realistic and authentic.
Some people do not understand this kind of supernatural ministry that CKRM has and felt that it is just a pursuit after spiritual gifting, signs and wonders. But from my own experience, I know this is not the case. Take me for example, after the Joshua Camp, the Fire draws me closer to God, obey Him and live a holy life. I can feel more of His presence now and the scriptures come alive when I do my devotion. During the camp, Ps Paul, Ps Esther and the rest of the pastors were also very strict when teaching the word of God to the brothers and sisters. Some sisters who went to the third heaven brought back words expressing the Lord’s concerns. They pointed out the existing attitude of some CKRM members. This signifies that the Lord is supervising this ministry and constantly guiding the brothers and sisters to seek more of Him.
May God bless and guard CKRM thus, leading CKRM deeper and to be constantly vigilant so that CKRM will fulfill what the Lord has entrusted us to walk in the good and perfect will of God. I pray all this in Jesus holy name, Amen!
Dr Sarah Shan
(The testimony was written in Mandarin by Dr Sarah Shan. It was translated to English by our Editorial Team)
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The long awaited 5th Joshua Camp has finally arrived. About 90 people attended this camp with great enthusiasm and expectation. Campers came as far as Indonesia, China, India and Australia. As the car needs petrol to burn and drive the engine, we need the Fire of God to empower us to do the will of God in our lives.
This camp consists of pastors from near and far countries seeking for a greater touch from the Lord. Ps Paul shared that to be an effective disciple of Christ, we need the Word of God, the Holy Spirit and Faith, so that God can work in us and through us. As the Holy Spirit came upon the campers, they began to prophesy and moved in the Spirit. Many pastors too were given word of prophesy to further enhance their ministry.
Ps Seth shared from Ezekiel 47- the River of God. All the campers jumped into this spiritual river and were greatly blessed in the Glory of God. It was an awesome experience soaking in His presence! In this river: healing, empowerment and sanctification took place supernaturally.
Ps Paul shared about the story of Kentucky Fried Chicken. Colonel Harland Sanders being old, sold his KFC that he had founded. Many years later he was invited by new owner to be the ambassador of KFC business. In his visit to one of the KFC’s outlet, he was served with a plate of KFC. After eating a portion, he complained that it was not the original recipe which he founded! If apostle Paul were to visit a church today, he would say the same thing too; “This is not my original version of what a church should be.” A church should move in miracles, signs and wonders as in the Book of Acts 4 onwards.
Ps Anna Cheah shared that signs and wonders is a must for a church of Christ. (Mark 16:17 ) “And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues.”
Ps Anna laid hand on the campers and the Holy Spirit saturated the place. With great hunger the campers rushed forth to receive from the Lord. Every vessel was filled and many were drunk in the Spirit and His Glory was so thick in the camp.
A middle aged couple came from Petaling Jaya to this camp for the first time and was greatly blessed at this camp. More interestingly, an associate professor from a well known university in China came all the way from China. With a hungry heart and a child liked faith she was blessed with many gifts of the Spirit. God is not a respecter of person. Three sisters from Indonesia were able to swim and drink in the River of God too. Many were blessed including Bro Augustine from Australia who took leave to come for this purpose. A pastor from India had never experienced the move of the Holy Spirit in a mighty fashion opened his heart for prayers and impartation from CKRM ministers. He was glad he came for the camp and it was an eye opener for him.
Bill Johnson says: "Aren’t you weary of talking about a Gospel of power and seeing no demonstration of it?”
Ps Simone shared about holiness. Holiness duplicates the moral wholeness of Godlike character. It means that we come into a place to conform our will to His. Human can never live in absolute holiness, but Jesus died to give us His. The Bible says all of us are priests and as priests we must be holy before God.(Leviticus 19:2) "Speak to the entire assembly of Israel and say to them: 'Be Holy because I, the LORD your God, am holy.” We need the seven Spirit of God so that we are able to walk in holiness before our Holy God. (Isaiah 11:2) The Spirit of the LORD will rest on him--the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding, the Spirit of counsel and of power, the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD” so that we can live a holy life. Ps Sitoh continued and shared about the 4 living creatures as mentioned in the book of Revelation 4:8. As a pastor he believed in bringing the Anointing of God to the market place to set the people free and point them to Jesus.
Bro Thomas shared about ‘The Glory of God and Experiencing the Third Heaven. .He was sharing that as a believers, we are given access into third heaven based on our identity in Christ, seated with Him in the heavenly places and as a Citizen of the Kingdom of God With the grace of God, as the campers stepped out in faith during the activation time, many had vision of Third Heaven with awesome encounters. The description of the encounters especially the door (Rev 4:1) which is the gateway to Heaven were similar from a person to another.
Thomas Ong has passion to move in the GLORY realm of God and to demonstrate the Kingdom of God with miracle, signs and wonders. He loves to pray for crazy and outrageous miracle eg. instant weight loss, supernatural hair grow, renewal of youth, dental miracle, healing, deliverance and other creative miracles. Recently, many testified experience Heavenly Glory and third heaven encounter during his ministering.
Ps Esther shared about the Holy Communion in depths to the congregation. It is so important to understand the significance of the bread and the cup so that we can serve mightily with the DNA of Jesus Christ. The camp came to a close with good co-ordination from all parties and most importantly the presence of the Lord. Faith, hunger and holiness are required so that we can be true disciples of Jesus. We need the Fire of God to purify and purge our sins.
Bill Johnson shared that “It is unnatural for a Christian to not have an appetite for the impossible.” He further adds that “we too can move from an intellectual faith and tap into an abundance of miracle-working authority, unleashing the power of God’s glory.”
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第五届约书亚营 – 编辑队报道
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等待已久的第五届约书亚营终于掀开序幕了。大约九十位带着热忱和期盼的弟兄姐妹参加了这次的盛会。当中有来自远方如印度，中国，澳洲，印尼的弟兄姐妹。车需要汽油来点燃并启动引擎。同样的，我们也需要神的圣火来装备我们，使我们能行出神在我们生命中的旨意。
这次的营会吸引了一些近邻和远方的牧师到来寻求神更大的膏抹。保罗牧师在分享中提到，要成为基督大有能力的门徒， 必备条件是拥有神的话语，圣灵和信心。这样，神才能在我们身上动工和使用我们成为祂的管道。当圣灵降在弟兄姐妹身上时，他们开始在灵里运行和发预言。许多牧师也领受神要如何提升他们事工的预言。
赛特牧师从以西结书47章中分享有关神的生命河流。所有弟兄姐妹都跳入了属灵的河流被神的荣耀给大大的充满。浸泡在神的同在中的美好确实是言语无法形容的经历。在这属灵的河流中，医治，恩膏装备，生命被洁净等都超自然的发生了。
保罗牧师在傍晚的聚会中分享有关肯德基家乡鸡的故事。 哈兰•山德士上校因上了年纪便把他所创办的肯德基家乡鸡卖给人。许多年后，他被邀请成为肯德基家乡鸡的商业大使。在一次造访其中一家分行时，在尝了一口鸡肉后，他决定辞去大使的职位，因那已不是他原创的家乡鸡味道。若使徒保罗踏入今日的教会，相信他也会有同感地说：“这并不是我原创教会的实质。”教会因该有如使徒行传第四章以上的行走在神迹，奇事和异能中。
Anna Cheah 牧师说神迹，奇事和异能是当今教会所不能缺少的。（马可福音16:17）“信的人必有神迹随着他们，就是奉我的名赶鬼；说新方言。”当Anna牧师为会众按手时， 圣灵浸透整个圣所。因着大家都带着饥渴慕义的心到台前来领受，所有弟兄姐妹都大大地被圣灵充满。有些还在灵里醉了。神的荣耀厚厚的遮盖整个圣所。
一对第一次从八打灵再也来的中年夫妇蒙受极大的祝福。更有趣的是一位来自中国一间著名大学的副教授，带着渴慕和孩童般的信心领受了许多属灵的恩赐。神是全能的主宰。三位来自印尼的姐妹也能游和饮用于神的生命河里。许多人都被神大大的祝福，尤其是特别申请假期，千里迢迢从澳洲来的Augustine 弟兄也领受了不少属灵武器。一位从未见证圣灵如此大运行的印度牧师说很庆幸能够来到当中领受祷告和属灵恩赐的传递。对他来说简直是大开眼界。
比尔强生说：“对不断的听闻福音的大能却看不见任何能力的彰显，你难道不感到厌倦吗？”
Simone 牧师谈到省的子民务要圣洁。圣洁意表着整体性的道德，品行和观念都像神的性格。就是来到一个完全遵守，顺从祂所有的旨意。人类绝对无法靠自己得着圣洁，但主耶稣为我们成就了这一切。圣经说我们都是祭司，身为祭司来到神面前我们必须是圣洁的。（利 未记19:2）“你晓谕以色列全会众说：你们要圣洁，因为我耶和华 ─ 你们的 神是圣洁的。”我们也需要神的七灵（以赛亚书11:2）“耶和华的灵必住在他身上，就是使他有智慧和聪明的灵，谋略和能力的灵，知识和敬畏耶和华的灵” 才能活出圣洁的生命。司徒文朝牧师接着分享有关启示录4:8中的四活物。身为牧师的他相信我们应该把神的恩膏带到市场去，使被掳的得释放和把他们引到耶稣面前。
Thomas 弟兄分享有关神的荣耀和第三层天的经历。他说作为信徒，因着我们在基督里的身份和与祂一同坐在天上，又是天国的子民，我们是可以拜访第三层天的。靠着神的恩典，当会众在启动的时段凭信心踏出领受，许多在异像中看到天堂的景色和有惊叹的奇遇。他们所形容的天门（启 示 录4:1）都大同小异。
Thomas 弟兄热忠于在神荣耀的领域里运行和示范神国度的神迹，奇事和异能。他喜欢为着一些疯狂和反常理的神迹来祷告，如即时瘦身，超自然生发，恢复青春，牙龈口腔神迹，，医治，释放等等。最近很多见证通过他的服事，他们经历了天堂的荣耀和有第三层天的奇遇。
以斯帖牧师带领会众更深入的探讨领圣餐的意义。明白主耶稣的杯和饼的真正意义是非常重要。尤其是要带着主耶稣基督的脱氧核糖核酸的大能来服事。营回终于在很好的协调下圆满的结束了。最重要的还是神的同在。要成为主耶稣的真正门徒，信心，渴慕和圣洁是缺一不可的。我们需要神的圣火来炼净和涂抹我们的罪过。
比尔强生说：“一个基督徒若对超自然的是没有胃口，那是非常不寻常的事”他接着说：“我们也能跨越知识上的信心进入丰盛的神迹操作权柄，释放神荣耀的大能。”
