多加的见证—我属灵生命的突破 / Breakthrough of my Spiritual life

几天前早上醒来,心中有一个感动,于是我知道主要我写下这些见证。

3月22日当我们从吉隆坡出发到马六甲参加CKRM,我的心充满渴慕与兴奋。我没有想到这一次的参加,是主引领我进入他的属灵世界以及启发我的属灵恩赐的开始。我更没有想到,神在去年12月藉着一位先知向我们(我与我的先生)所发的预言已经应验,就是神会预备一个男士和一个女士拉着我们的手,帮助我们。

第一次参加CKRM的时候,神一开始就触摸我,神藉着以斯贴牧师开启我心中关闭的、不为人知的心门。在那时候,我听见好久没听到的神的话,就是神知道我的一切,我走过的路他都看见,而最重要的是,他爱我,也知道我爱他,渴慕他等等。神也再次透过牧师们重申与坚固并且启动祂已赐给我的预言的恩赐,从那一天起,我的属灵生命有了一个突破。

从CKRM回来后,我发现我的属灵感官敏锐了。晚上睡觉的时候,我开始发异梦,有些是神的启示和属灵的更新,当我醒来时,我整个人舒畅,好像从瀑布洗过澡后喝下一杯凉水一样的更新。而当我为别人祷告以及有一次我和朋友电话交谈时,突然间我会看到异象,看到对方的状况。另外,就是我比较能清楚听见以及分辨圣灵的声音,有时候我会听见自己的灵在唱歌或祷告。有一次当我在祷告中唱一首歌时,当我唱到一段我不会的部分时,突然我听见我的灵接下去唱,而后来经过查验后证明那歌词是正确的。还有昨天,我清楚的在家中听到美妙技巧的钢琴声 盘旋在我耳边以及嗅到浓郁的香味,我的心顿时充满喜乐,知道这是神的同在。另外,有两次神带领我进入他的内心:一次是使我从他的心里去感受祂是多么喜乐与乐意的心去赦免与忘记人所犯的罪;另外一次是当我在与罪挣扎时,突然间我发现我在祂里面,我的一切已经结束、已经死去,而祂的一切全是属于我的,祂无穷尽的圣洁、仁爱、饶恕、喜乐、平安、得胜全是属于我的,我不需要靠自己来胜过罪,只要完全降服在祂里面、安息在祂里面。这一些的真理我早已知道,但却从未如此真实的去经历,就好象从一本书读到一些旅游胜地,与真实去到那地方旅游的不同。

从第一次参加CKRM到今天,神每天都在对付与洁净我的罪,祂带领我悔改,引领我过圣洁的生活,祂要我把生命分别为圣,单单献给祂。而在4月11日(星期六)出发到马六甲的CKRM之前,我在祷告的时候,神告诉我,雅各已经成为过去了,祂要赐我以色列新的名字。就在那天星期六4月11日,以斯贴牧师告诉我,她领受到神给我一个新的名字—叫“多加”,我以前的一切已经成为过去,神已经为我掀开新的生命的一章。我相信这不过是进入新的属灵生命的开始,接下来还有更多的事会发生,最重要的是,更接近的认识耶稣…我所深爱的那一位。

我深深的感谢神开始在我的生命中装备我来服事他。神永远不会忘记祂的应许,祂是奇妙信实的神。我感谢神预备马六甲CKRM这一个谦卑但有祂的能力以及祂同在的地方,我感谢神带领祂的仆人保罗牧师以及以斯贴牧师来到马六甲,使这里凡是灵里饥渴贫穷的人蒙福。我深深的无尽的感谢神,因神纪念马来西亚,我相信神要藉着祂的仆人,为这里点燃复兴之火。啊们!


邱 多加
吉隆坡
April 2009

Breakthrough of my spiritual life

Few days ago, when I woke up in the morning, there was a prompting in my heart. Hence, I knew that God wanted me to note down these testimonies.

On 22nd March 2009, when we departed from Kuala Lumpur and was heading towards Malacca to attend the Saturday’s “Power and Prophetic Ministry” at CKRM Leadership Training (SEA) Sdn Bhd, my heart was filled with hunger and excitement. I did not expect this trip to CKRM was actually God’s will, that He began to lead me, entering into His spiritual world and to activate the gifts of the Spirit within me.

This was a prophecy given to us (my husband & me) that God would lead us to a man & a woman to revive our spiritual lives. Hence, the prophecy has come to pass.

While attending the meeting at CKRM for the first time, God used Ps. Esther to open up my hardened and hidden heart that was not known to anyone. At that moment, I heard the Word of God which I had not heard it for quite some time. God knows everything about me and every step that I had gone through. More importantly, He loves me and He knows that I do love Him and hunger for Him. The Lord also used the pastors to restore and strengthen me, and activated the prophetic gift which the Lord has previously given to me. From that day on, there was a breakthrough in my spiritual life.

After attended the meeting at CKRM, I realised my spiritual senses began to be more sensitive. During my sleep at night, I began to have dreams and some of them were revelation from the Lord and spiritual renewal. When I woke up from the sleep, my whole body was very refreshed, as if I had just taken a fresh shower over at the waterfall. While I was praying for others and talking to my friend over the phone, all of a sudden I would see visions regarding their situations. Besides, I could listen clearer to the voice of the Holy Spirit and to discern them. Sometimes, I would hear my spirit singing or praying. There was once while I was singing a song, I stopped at the latter part of the song as I do not know the lyric, I then heard my spirit continued singing. After verifying, it was confirmed that the lyric sang was correct.

Furthermore on yesterday, I clearly heard beautiful melody of a piano at my home, and I could smell a thick fragrance. My heart was filled with joy and I know that was the presence of God. There were also two experiences where the Lord let me feel His heartbeat, showing me that He is joyful and willing to show mercy and forget our sins. While I was struggling with sins, suddenly I realised I was in Him, my past was already been put to death and everything He has given me everything He has; the unlimited purity, love, forgiveness, joy, peace, and victory. I need not depend on my strength to overcome sins but to only surrender to God and rest in Him. I had already known all this truth, but I had yet to personally experience it. It was just so real. The difference is like between reading a book about some tourist attractions, and to actually visit them in reality.

Ever since our first visit to CKRM till now, God has been dealing with my sins and sanctifying me, leading me to repentance and to live a holy life. It is His heartbeat that my life is to be consecrated and only belongs to Him. On 11th April 2009 (Saturday), before we departed to go to CKRM at Melaka, during my prayer, God told me that Jacob has passed and He wants to give me a new name of Israel. On that particular Saturday (11th April), Pastor Esther told me she received that the Lord gives me a new name called “Dorcas”, my old has passed away, and God has already opened a new chapter in my life. I believe that this is only the beginning of entering into a new spiritual life; there will be more things to come in the future. Most importantly, it is to draw me closer to Jesus and knowing Him better.

Deep in my heart, I thank God that He began to prepare and equip me, in order for me to serve Him. God will never forget His promise. He is a miraculous and faithful God. I thank God for raising up CKRM Melaka, a ministry that is humble yet full of God’s power. I thank God for leading His servants, Pastor Paul and Pastor Esther to Melaka, so that those in Melaka, who are spiritually hungry and thirst, could be blessed. I also thank God, for remembering Malaysia and I believe through His servants, God is going to light up the fire of revival over here. Amen!

Dorcas
Kuala Lumpur
April 2009

1 comments:

Stephen said...

The new name thing is absolutely right! God's been talking to me about this too. It signifies the end of the body of flesh....ours, AND also a new connection to thetrue heavenly body which is the true church beyond human effort, and, if you can accept it, this involves a relationship with Jesus via the starlight (which he created and which previously got corrupted to damage the false / limited body of flesh). So, we are free in new names given by God because we have gone the right way. Nimrod tried to create a name...but God gives the true new names.
Bless you.