My name is Mark and I began to attend CKRM Sat Empowerment Ministry on the 2nd Nov 2008. Back then, I was spiritually unstable and under the bondage of sin. All these were hard to swallow for me as I was once on fire for God and even graduated with good results for a diploma course in Theology. I naively assumed that all this will point to a life of blessings and ministry. Neither materialised and I was struggling very badly in 2008. Everything I touched turned into dust and I was experiencing setbacks in every aspect of my life. It was against such a backdrop that I stepped into CKRM.
I never expected God to touch me through CKRM. After all, I had been part of Benny Hinn's choir, and if Benny Hinn could not knock me down with his anointing, who could? Deep in my heart, I reasoned that experiencing God was a tall order I shouldn't hope for because of my sins and pride. But driven by desperation as well as obedience to prophecy, I keep returning to CKRM. I also told my friends Daniel, Janice, Joshua, Huiliang, Jieying etc about this ministry. God ministered to all of them!!!! I don't really understand what was going on in CKRM but I believe that God does show up on Sat with this peculiar group of people. In the midst of the turmoil surrounding my life, I felt that the safest place to be is where God is - at CKRM.
I was especially impressed with what the Holy Spirit could do with aunties, uncles .. lay-men who had no theological certificates whatsoever. The reality of God rekindled my spiritual zeal and I began to attend church service, cell group, prayer meeting etc faithfully. By the grace of God, a sister prophesised over me on the 29th Nov and what she said drove me to tears. That set the stage for Pst Paul to impart God's anointing on me. True to the prophecy, I was set free from the bondage of sin and is now sensitive to the presence of God. There is also a sense of destiny, knowing that I have a calling in my life to fulfil. The world continues to be gripped by fear and terror but I was at peace with myself and God. I know everything is going to be alright because God is now in the picture.
I was renamed Mark (formerly known as Gordan) in Dec 2008; a prophetic name for how God intends to use me. My new found sensitivity to the presence of God, in the form of shaking, wasn't something my church mates understood. I was told to control my shaking (which I couldn't quite control) by my church leader. My body would shake during worship, during Kathie Walter's seminar and even at home or in public places! I couldn't explain to my mother or my friends for this weird manifestation which accompanied even as I write now. I was also jolted out of sleep on the 12 Dec at 4.30 am by a sharp pain in my right chest. It felt as if someone thrust a long sharp needle through my ribcage and I awoke to find my inner man praying in tongues within me! I became fearful because there was nobody around me! The thought that a demon had attacked me during my sleep came to mind. I realised I have to pray for protection since then.
I never expect God to accomplish so much in five weeks which I couldn't in 8 years as a Christian! I look forward to the days ahead with the Lord. I also look forward to persecutions and spiritual attacks if I am of any value in the kingdom of God. It's inevitable if I want to be part of God's army. I rather die as Mark... than live as Gordan again.
Lastly, I want to thank CKRM for the price they pay for the anointing and God for giving me, his prodigal son... a 2nd chance.